Days of productivity :12/100
Questionably healthy lunch+dinner omg i need to nOt eat so much at a go idk why but i was HUNGRY i ate 2 eggs 2.5 bread slices sm cheese and a whole can of tuna what is this i havent felt this full in awhile? i feel kinda goodbut also a lil gross???? also my weight managed to drop a lil more! at the start of the year i was at my heaviest at 62.0kg and now it's 58.8kg! Im really happy about that :) honestly, the first 2kg was probably because i wasnt eating right when sch began and thats distasteful (literally) idk why but recently ive been eating more and getting a better appetite? haha maybe its cuz I've been a lil happier and praying a lil harder i hope i can rebuild my faith again hahah maybe then i can be more at peace with myself
idk sometimes i feel bad when i look at my health and appearance, it's not where i want it to be yet but im trying to find time to make it happen
maybe when i get there ill have a lot more confidence in myself and i can be
Also today i read some phantom of the opera in the car and on the bus ride home! Ahhh they're coming to perform in my hometown tomorrow but i didn't manage to buy the tickets!! :( so now I'm just blasting phantom of the opera music hahahah
I was walking home with a pair of headphones today and honestly it made me realise how little self confidence i had and how self conscious i am, i kept thinking"omg nobody does this its so bulky and people are probably staring and wondering why is some girl wearing headphones" and honestly reflecting on it? People probably did NOT care and they really shouldn't, I've just got to be a lil less paranoid at people's judgement.
Tbh I hate that I'm like this
I just want to be more outspoken and embrace how my body looks and feel better about myself