Ø ~ lankylostboy ( bc im too lazy to switch accounts but need the feels bc omg )
Send me a Ø for an inner monologue my character has had about yours.
“He looks peaceful while he sleeps; like he's not at war, like we're not surrounded. Like he doesn't have to worry about anything — like he doesn't have to worry about me (heaven knows I'm a burden).
Maybe if I left — maybe if I left he'd be happier. Maybe he's only doing this for me, and he's only b l o o d s t a i n e d because he thinks I like him best that way — no, he knows I'd love him anyway. You can't not love your home.
— But why does he look so different? His arms are tougher, his veins stick out on his flesh when he's fighting his wars; and he does fight, he doesn't hide like I do. He's the brave one — how stereotypical —and all he's ever done is look out forme. I'm holding him back. He won'thave a life with me. He won't behappy. And if he's not happy, thenlife has no meaning. —— I have to leave. But where? I don't know myself as well as he does; he'd find me anywhere. And he'd be miserable, thinking I left because he wasn't enough. But he is —— he's the only thing that makes the world bearable, he's the world itself —— He's safety and bravery and bloodlust,he's the thunder and I'm a small, empty cloud that's not strong enough to roar like he does — and to think I was always the loudest one. But he looks so peaceful when he sleeps. I can't leave now. Tomorrow. Tomorrow, I'll go.”
