#lauren.e.m

[thewhit3girldiaries]

I don't think he realizes how much I like him. Every time I'm around him, I can't help but smile. He's always on my mind, the way he walks, so happy. The way he puffs after a smoke. He's gorgeous, him. Everything about him. The way he smiles after something stupid that I say. When I trip, or don't understand something. He helps me up, and asks if I'm okay. If any of the guys at my school comment on my body, he tells them to stop, he protects me. Everyone's always asking when were going to finally go out. I don't know if we ever will. He dosent realize how much I've fallen for him. And in scared he never will..

[thewhit3girldiaries]

I always make other people try my hot drinks before I do, incase it's too hot. I'm a horrible person. I know. Ok.

[thewhit3girldiaries]

Do you ever just sit. And stare blankly at your ceiling wondering your existence? Why are you, you? What made you become how you are? Because everything in life right now, isn't making any sense. And I'm doing a little of staring at my ceiling tonight too..

[thewhit3girldiaries]

Sometimes I think. "I'm beautiful the way I am". Then all my friends wear 00 jeans and I'm like fuck it. I'm never eating again. Then I see food and I eat it. My life is a constant battle between wanting to be pretty and have guys like me and be skinny, and being a food lover.