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laurenia replied to your post “I have not been to the gym in over two weeks, and I really wanted to...”
Take a look at all the pictures you posted from the gym and try to remember how accomplished you felt! As long as they don't grab to weights from you to clean up, you are not too late :)
😄 You’re so right! The gym is open until 21:30, actually, so yeah, there’s still plenty of time 😊.
laurenia replied to your post “I’ve been thinking about the FMLS90 posts for this week (and end of...”
Personal opinion: So sorry to read this :( Professional opinion: Everything you think about makes sense, in my opinion. Maybe start with printing this post and taking it to your therapist? It's easy to get carried away by the improvements you see in a patient and your therapist needs to know that you might be in a downward spiral. For other options: Did you try in depth Inner Child work /Compassion Focussed Work with her? That might be an option. 1/?
Thank you for both the personal and professional opinion *hugs*!
Printing out the post as a help to tell her about it is a good idea! I’m gonna do that. And I dunno about the in-depth Inner Child work (my therapist at the day clinic did that with me but I was struggling with the visualising aspect, so it fell by the wayside after a while) but compassion has definitely been a focus (quieting my harsh inner critic/judge and learning to have a compassionate/supportive self-dialogue). I’m hesitant about Tiefenpsychologie (it rather scares me, if I’m honest ^^’) and spending (more) time in a clinic but well, if things are in need of a real shake-up, I’m certainly not saying no to trying ... I’ll see what my therapist and the psychiatrist will have to say about it, I guess.
For a time I felt I was doing better than not drowning :( . But yeah, my work and living situation definitely isn‘t the best to battle depression (don’t worry, that wasn’t too harsh). I really, really hope that getting the latter resolved (not much to do about the former if I don’t want to move back to Bavaria and lose the support of my friends and family again) will be good for both M and me! So keep your fingers crossed I’ll find a new place soon, okay :)?
laurenia replied to your post
“Signs that I’m really, really stressed: I’m actually kind of hoping to...”
If the Secret Santa takes longer, it takes longer. You came in late voluntarily, you are allowed extra time!
Oh, yay, that means I get to sleep tonight! ... Just kidding, I’m no longer 20 and in university, I might not even be physically capable of all-nighters anymore :p.
Thank you! I promise if I don’t get it sent tomorrow, it will go out no later than Monday :).
fatmaninalittlesuit replied to your post
“Signs that I’m really, really stressed: I’m actually kind of hoping to...”
(hugs) This too shall pass.
Thanks, John! *hugs back*
boo-badger reblogged your photo and added: “Haptoberfest, day 2 It's my birthday! And I made apple galette and ate...”
Happy Birthday!!!!
laurenia reblogged your photo and added: “Haptoberfest, day 2 It's my birthday! And I made apple galette and ate...”
Happy Birthday!!!!
Thank you, girls 🤗!
laurenia replied to your post “That manatee I just reblogged should be saying “I have a good body...”
Hey Love, I was wondering... are there moments when you are okay with the current range? I mean, You fought hard to get there and you know there are some boundaries that are harder to overcome than others. Could it be a better strategy to accept and keep the current range for noe and focus on your training and overcoming the restrictions/injuries instead? Perhaps that mindset would take off some pressure... just a thought. Love you <3
Hmm, good question! I’d say I’m not happy with the number itself but for how I look and feel ... I’m not exactly happy, either, but for the most part, I’ve been doing much better with accepting my body (still working at the love thing).
I should really lose some more, though, because of the diabetes - right now, my long-term blood sugar isn’t great (just about within the acceptable range), and it takes quite a bit of medication to keep it there. The diabetologist probably won’t be happy with me at the appointment next month - though the diabetes assistant I’m seeing in his practice is generally very supportive, even if I’m not making much progress. So I don’t know if “stopping” to lose weight would go over well in this regard ... (For the record, for anyone wondering, the primary cause of my diabetes is insulin resistance, which is directly linked to weight, so they’re not being fatphobic by telling me to lose weight.)
But yes, thinking about it definitely brings me a feeling of relief, so maybe it’s time to prioritise mental health over physical health, at least for a bit 🤔.
Love you, too, darling 😘.
scorrigan replied to your post “That manatee I just reblogged should be saying “I have a good body...”
Is there a way you could track your proteins only in a way that wouldnt annoy/trigger you? Like, you know the macros, you know what the levels should be, but the proteins always seem to me the most benevolent of the things I eat, and I blame the carbs and sugars.
Not sure - mostly, I’m stressed/depressed because of the fact that I thought I had a good handle on my normal nutrition, apart from the binge eating and junk food, and it turns out I don’t ... Though, to be fair, when I tracked on Thursday, protein was close to being enough (I looked it up, and I should get about 95g a day - I had 82g that day), so I should probably think more in terms of reducing carbs and fat rather than upping the protein. Maybe I’ll try to just keep those things in mind and check in sometimes, I can handle counting calories/macros for a day or so 🤷♀️.
I just really wish I could get to a point where I can just see the possibility that I might be able to eat intuitively one day...
serenity-made-visible replied to your post “That manatee I just reblogged should be saying “I have a good body...”
I'm absolutely full of unsolicited advice which I'll try to keep a lid on, but I will say this: you are perfect right here, right now. You are more than your weight. You keep beating yourself up and you just don't deserve that. You deserve kindness. ����
Thank you so much! I’ve been doing better at being kind to myself but it’s definitely still a work in progress 😐.
my-inner-motivator replied to your post “That manatee I just reblogged should be saying “I have a good body...”
the hard thing is, that there seem to be so many wrong ways and probably there is not the one RIGHT way, what its right at the moment seems to be constantly changing, making it even harder to grasp. I'm not sure if this is helping in any way, I just wanted to offer some solidarity
my-inner-motivator replied to your post “That manatee I just reblogged should be saying “I have a good body...”
And I also know the feeling of basically oscilliating between being super motivated on the one hand, and tired and frustrated on the other, changing my mind every half hour between wanting to concentrate on keeping the weight I have and wanting to loose more
my-inner-motivator replied to your post “That manatee I just reblogged should be saying “I have a good body...”
You are not alone. I also have a friend who is with me on the weightloss journey and it goes great for her. And she tells me all about how she didn't even paid that much attention to her eating last week and still lost 1,8 kg, leaving me thinking "great, tell me more about how easy ist is for you"
Thank you! Yeah, it’s hard when you see others “succeed”, and I want to be happy that it’s going well for M and know that her way is different than mine because she has completely different issues with her body and mental challenges and stuff, but especially living together, it’s hard not to compare ... Ah, it’s just difficult. But knowing that others are out there and feel similar definitely helps 🙂.
laurenia replied to your post “Was at the orthopaedist today. I was sorely tempted to give the...”
I keep meeting medical professionals who think orthopedics is the scourge of the whole profession...
I dunno, I’m sure they can be helpful sometimes 😛 ...
mollxdollx86 replied to your post “Was at the orthopaedist today. I was sorely tempted to give the...”
Ugh that's the worst when they don't give you helpful answers! I hope it all feels better soon!My favorite is when they tell me that my knee has nothing visually wrong on x-ray or MRI so if I lose weight and strengthen my quads the pain will go away...yeeaahhh cuz I haven't been doing that for over a year and lost more range of motion and it's constantly swollen. Sometimes I seriously question human medical professionals. My Veterinarians give me more helpful advice lol!
Oh wow, it sounds as if you really need a second opinion about your knee problem - I’m sorry, that sucks :(. And yeah, “just lose some weight”, that’s the worst, I’m really glad I haven’t had anyone tell me that for a while!
laurenia replied to your post “�� Looks like I really fucked up my hip with my run yesterday. It...”
*hugs* So sorry to hear this, I hope the hip gets better fast!
Thank you, honey! *hugs back*
rarestsparkle replied to your post “Well, I should have known it was too easy -_- … My parents just...”
as a parent I totally understand where your parents are coming from, my oldest daughter can totally live on her own and she is doing 'fine' but she is struggling I would love for her to come home to make it easier on her, because as a mama, thats all I want to do is make it better/easier for her. I really hope you find a solution that makes everyone happy... I don't know the living situation over there; so I can't offer much advice
Thank you for your perspective! I can totally understand that as parents, they want to help, and even that it’s baffling and a bit hurtful that I don’t want them to. But it sounds as if you are accepting that your daughter is doing things her way, even if you wish to have her come home, and that’s not what I’m getting from them right now :( ...
laurenia replied to your post “Well, I should have known it was too easy -_- … My parents just...”
I think what your parents don't understand is the impact of having them as your landlords might have on your mental health. And this is not about not loving them, as you know, but from my understanding of what you are going through (and correct me if I'm wrong) you need independence and your own adult life and being forced back into a more "childlike" role will likely exacerbate your problems. Which is hard to understand if you haven't been there.
Yeah, I don’t know how to make them understand that there is a level of dependence involved in adding that aspect to our relationship :/. They can tell me that it won’t change anything all they want, you are right that “no strings attached” is just not something that happens. And yeah, it all boils down to them not accepting my boundaries, which is exactly why I feel kinda uncomfortable about the idea of moving back to RT (it’s easier to protect your boundaries when you have some physical distance, too).
*sigh* In the end, I can’t make them understand ...
*hugs* Thank you so much, darling!
