cxs experiences semi-disconnected emotions from the person he's possessing as they experienced them in the past, so does lg experience his own past emotions? like divorced from what he's internally feeling in the moment?? bc. new level of time horror -- your own body is not your own actually, and maybe your mind still is, but is it really?? your feelings aren't bc they're overwritten by/merged with echoes of a past you're trying to undo. how much of you is left. anyway this hypothetical's in the microwave
ah Fuck i can't believe i'm saying this-- xf. he's not just puppyboy!!! what about his masked aggressive tendencies!! what about his weird duality!!! also he's not like. stupid? applied physics major why is everyone making him out to be a total airhead. and dare i say he might even think about things other than vein sometimes......... sorry controversial statement ik shipping is the be-all-end-all of every character my apologies /s
sorry minimal actual notes here but just God i hate fanon xf WHO IS THAT GUY
2. a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom
taking a moment to rifle through the character catalogue and figure out who i don't see as at least a little bit under-the-right-circumstances vers.... considered saying lg bc i truly just think he is too tired to top but like no he could get ridden etc he's just not putting in the energy. hm. mariiiii this is so hard every character i think of has some caveat 😭i might honestly say xf again bc like. i do entertain him being vers for rotation purposes but i think he might actually be too prideful to take it up the ass. smth about the way he reacts to implications of sleeping his way to the top vs the social connotations of bottoming that i v much think he could believe in. idk i think he could be weird about and averse to it. is this compelling no but it's the best i've got rn--
6. which ship fans are the most annoying?
i don't even go here but ivan/till shippers are so annoying that i am annoyed by them despite actively avoiding that entire fandom and blocking all tags associated with it that i know of
19. you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like…
there's a very specific niche in gratituously-ooc chengguang smut that-- #notmyguys but they're kinda fun. yk-
pulling up the document bc truly wtf did i not titl-- IT'S THE FUCKING CURSED ONE WHY IS IT IN MY FOLDER TWICE
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ahem. so universal truth is that lg is meant to suffer, yes?
I started this... hmm, sometime early december 2024? a couple weeks before yingdu dropped. i think the general story of it being the first fanfic i ever tried to write and my laptop eating it and the general omen of it all is well-established, so ig i'll just try to talk about the story itself 🤔
see. um. the problem with that is that there kind of. isn't. a story-- it follows lg working the morning at the photo studio alone bc cxs slept in, and lg gets a fucking insane migraine, and it's just sickficwhump. like that's it. 3k words and all that happens is wallowing and lg not-quite passing out on the stairs and then banter but the banter got eaten. also on it being eaten it's lowkey wild to open the document and just see how much of it is gone, bc like it *was* 3k words, easily the fastest chunk of fic i've ever busted out (it was intended to stay strictly secret and stored in my hard drive and never posted, so uh. aspen effect-- not explaing the aspen effect unless i'm asked about aspen tho,), but the recovered document is only 1700 words and i very distinctly remember recovering it and trying to read through and just going Oh Fuck bc it was pre-edits, and....... that holds up. it's borderline unreadable. Jesus Christ--
anyway. yeah truly idk what to say about this one. make ur faves throw up and writhe in pain or smth 🔥and give them ocd but i totally didn't do that shhhh