Send 🗣 for my muse to say how they really feel about yours // accepting
“Hara-kun and me? We’re friends, but it’s complicated, because sometimes his personality is kinda bad and he gets carried away if you don’t call him on stuff.☆”
Her words are as straightforward as ever–lacking in malice but also lacking in tact. It’s important to be honest, though, she thinks–even when people don’t like it (which is about half of the time, at least).
“When we hang out, it’s a lot of fun, ‘cause we’re both people who can make plans on the fly based on what sounds like the most fun without worrying about all that annoying small stuff, but if it’s too much at somebody else’s expense, then it’s no good, and I gotta tell him so. Usually it’s pretty chill, though–more than you’d expect, maybe. Hara-kun’s kinda nice when he’s not going out of his way to be mean, I think–but whenever I tell him so, he always seems to go the other way just to spite me. That’s way too cheeky, right? One of these days, I’m gonna put him in a headlock over it.☆”
“When it comes to basketball, though…” Her playful demeanor sobers at this, eyes roaming aimlessly over her surroundings. “…Ahh, it’s no good. I don’t like the way Hara-kun plays it at all. I only went to one game, and I won’t go to another unless he plays a clean one. That’s what I decided. I told him as much, but I don’t really know what he thought when I said it–or if he thought about it, period.” She deflates a little, scuffing the heel of her shoe into the floor. “Maybe it didn’t really matter to him at all.”
“…I’m frustrated,” Nana adds after a beat, a little quieter now. Her brows furrow, shoulders bunching up, fingers drumming restlessly against her sides. “…I don’t get how a game like that can be fun, how winning could possibly feel good when you do it that way. I… really love basketball with all my heart, so I can’t understand it at all. Is Hara-kun really happy playing like that? It makes me angry.”
“It’s no good if I give up completely, though, right?” She huffs through her noise–false bravado. She gestures sweepingly with her hands and her next words come out a little uneven–jittery, like she’s rushing to get them all out. “’Cause… maybe Hara-kun doesn’t have any other friends who’ll say stuff like this, and that’s no good–if you spend all your time with people who all do the same things as you, then you never have to think about why you’re doing them, or if it even really makes you happy.”
Nana puts her hands out in front of her, watching them curl and uncurl from fists like the words she wants to say will appear on her palms if given enough time to do so.Slowly, her bunched-up posture uncurls and she tips her head upwards again. When she raises her head, her expression is clearer–still lacking its usual toothy grin, but… brighter, more resolute now. Finally, she brings her intense gaze fully upwards, and despite the somber subject she’s fallen into, she speaks clearly now–almost painfully earnest.
“The type of basketball Hara-kun plays without underhanded tactics just to see how it feels, the kinds of expressions he’ll make when he realizes how fun it is… I really want to see that.”