Saying Goodbye to 2020
A famous person said that true friends is not just seen when they can handle your success without envying or be happy for you. I know is with me always although I am not perfect. I make a lot of mistakes and I know too, there are reasons for these mistakes. I know God gave me the clarity to see and judge me things clearly and rare times, my judgement is wrong. Though when I was down and lonely, I failed to see these gifts from Him. I know it is there within me and never leave as God is always with me.
Am a lonely? No, I am more thankful to see things clearly than lied to myself. I don’t want to be manipulated because God gave me brain to think and I don’t want to look down on myself though sometimes I do that. I trying to not to self pity, because it the time when I am prone to be used and manipulated by people, who just want to used me.
Today, my work is better. I shaved the beard of my bedridden patient. He looked better. Before I want learn how to it. Though based on what I’d done. It is better, I think. Renate had scolded me today because I don’t help with giving of food to the patient. I can do that if I don’t some nurse-related task to do. It is one of my frustrations with the work. It only makes me say to myself that my decision to leave to my present to work. High salary is not indeed everything. I must take good care of my health and body. I am hoping that 2021 will be better year for us all. Amen.
