#lei.rants

[jojowain]

Okay potangina, I'll share my dream. It involves my mutuals and my family.

I....ended my life.

Honestly, never thought of that pero that was my dream. I had Crisandrea (my rl friend) instructed na if something happens to me, she should reach out to my mutuals here in Tumblr (this is true. I did tell her to do this if things happen last year?)

I remember her reaching out to Dilag first, she's inactive so Crisandrea reached out to her through Facebook. This shookt Dilag to the brim and she immediately contacted @/kirakirasaku to inform of my passing. Elle lodi told @/kerokenma about this and then @/nakizumie @/strawberrimilkshake (my og mutuals) and like JDHDJDJSUUD

IDK, ALL I REMEMBER IS MY BLOG IS FLOODED WITH MY (Old and new) MUTUALS' MENTIONS. Like, I remember seeing @/gayerthanthee @/mirakuel, @/lumpiang-toge, @/loubells, @/xxlightsaberxx, @/lemon-royalqueen, @/ricerice, @/keitoshi and many more

Anyways, ayon. Potangina na panaginip yun napakatok ako sa kahoy.

[jojowain]

older me would've been happy with a score of 74/90 but rn i'm just so afraid my mother's going to get mad at me again

[jojowain]

they always treat me like a kid here. and they expect me to be independent. ang gulo sa bulbol.

[jojowain]

Okay, no one asked but I'll ramble about my ex crush, Rob! Na trigger yung fangirl feels ko for him dahil kay Yō HAHAHAHAHHAYA

Okay sooo where did I meet him? G11. Nasa tulay ako nun papunta sa dorm area ng Sisters (since nasa dorm area ng sisters room ng 1st section) and like he was ahead of me tapos naka hoodie lang. Ang ganda ng balikat niya huhu pero I didn't really care.

Fast forward I asked my girl friend, Rye (not her real name) if my gwapo ba sa room nila then she mentioned Rob HAHAHAHAH na best friend ni Abraham (not his real name) na old classmate namin.

I "haven't" seen his face pero nung pinakita niya mukha ni Rob, na shookt ako bc siya yung kasabay ko sa bridge!!!

Anyways, I'm the type who easily get attracted physically pero it takes personality??? For me to like someone? Rye told me na medyo bagay humor namin kasi both corny HAHAHAHAHAH TAPOS ANG GWAPO DAW NG SPEAKIN VOICE NIYA, SHE SAID

Ayown, months passed nireto ko si Rob sa friend ko na si Kaye (not her rl name) kasi naghahanap ng gwapong inspiration. Ayown, I conspired with Rye para mapansin ni Rob si Kaye HAHAHAHAHHAHA

Sabi pa niya....ang ganda ng katawan ni Rob, pang romansa daw. POTANGINA ANG HAROT TALAGA NI KAYE, AMEN

I'll reblog the continuation!

[jojowain]

My mother just compared me to a 5th grade. A 5TH GRADE. Ang cute. May balancing ba, laws and obligations sa 5th grade?

[jojowain]

I took a break because I was just informed that my exams tomorrow starts at 8 in the morning and ends at 7 in the evening

[jojowain]

fucking hell why do i miss my grandfather. not now, please. i can't afford to get more emotionally wrecked than i already am,

[jojowain]

Okay but in all honesty, I think people have the tendency to forget about the smallest things that brought them joy once. It's the little chats you had with your family, or the time spent doing nothing at you and your friends' favorite place. Or even the time when there's only one meat bun that's left at the convenience store you frequent. So subtle but they gave so much joy at that moment.

I wish I have the ability to remember the tiniest, the simplest, the most common memories I had and will have in the future. These little droplets of joy will ultimately result to a huge basin, a tide that hopefully, will stop me from completely drifting away.