#lesbianrant

[bananadippedinyoghurt]

Still upset about the fact that Rory and Lane didn’t end up together at the end of Gilmore Girls

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My last post "Lesbian Fashion" when I said, "as a lesbian since 2004." I didn't mean that's how long I've been a lesbian but when I came out or started to dress differently. That is all

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Lesbian fashion

As a lesbian since 2004, it's always been so hard to find things to wear. I've never been the type to wear girl clothes so my daily clothes come from the men's section (used to be the little boys but I've gotten a little heavier) Men of course are bigger than women, so picking clothes from men's section is tough. It might just be easy to just say get a small. NO it is not that easy. Small is too small and medium is too big, there's no in between! Jeans are the worst. For a really long time to smallest waist size I was able to find was 30 which fit me a little big (again I've gotten a little heavier so no more 30 waist) and the smallest length size I would be able to find is a 30, so I would wear 30x30 jeans. Now I'm only 5'1, clearly not the tallest person in the world, so these jeans were fitting me like parachute pants. The only place I could find really good jeans that had my size which was like 29x28 was American Eagle. If you've ever been to American Eagle you will know that their jeans run up to $80. This lesbian does not make that type of money. I want to start a lesbian brand, says the lesbian who only wears jeans and black tee.

[tendtoyourroots]

Being a lesbian

I feel like is a curse sometimes. Like why do I need to feel so fucking lonely all the damn time. My straight friends have men and they don't need to ask if they man is gay or if they every dabbed in the booty hole. They triflin for sure , but it's easier to get an array of triflin niggas. Why I go to go in tinder and spit game to just get a number only to realize shorty is triflin or not gay!!!! Maybe im just ugly af and meant to be alone but I don't think I am lmao lawd

[high-zen-burg]

Unfortunate Realization #1

Alright, so don't get me wrong. I'm not the gay kid that gets all uppity about people calling things "gay" or their friends a "fag".

Except, maybe I'm getting to that point. 

I worked a job the other day for this lady I'd never met. She was recommended by a friend and seeing as I'm dead broke and needed the money I really didn't care what I had to do as long as I was getting paid. However, my friend failed to tell me that this lady is... a handful. 

She's one of those women that talks about being drunk and clubbing all the time. And about how hot this guy is or how this girl dating that guy is this. And her coworker isn't far from the same. So I'm sitting in the back of her Escalade listening to these two girls ranting and raving about how they "fucking hate" this person or whatever, and then I hear her coworker calling something gay.

But she doesn't say it once. She says it like four times. In a row. 

And obviously, me and my girl are sitting in the back looking bewildered and thinking, "Does she not realize that we're together?" 

And then our boss pipes in. "Oh yeah, that IS really fucking gay."

When this happens, I kind of laugh to myself because I realize that she has no idea that the two people in the back of her nice-as-fuck truck are broke and gay and broke because we had to move away from Idaho because we're gay and all the struggles and everything bubbled up and all of a sudden I'm so overwhelmed I feel like I might cry and I realize that yeah... maybe I am getting to the point where people saying that something is "gay" or calling someone a "homo" or "fag" and especially a "flaming faggot" is really offensive.

What I'm starting to realize is that not only are these terms said loosely without much thought behind them, but they're used with a connotation that gay or homosexual is bad or gross or disgusting or stupid... and the honest truth is that connotation is fucking rude.

It's creating a social stigma that really doesn't deserve to be here. 

I see things that promote the remembrance of the Civil Rights movement and I scream to myself that there's a Civil Rights movement that's happening right fucking now in this country that nobody is willing to consider "that serious". Because we're just... the gays, homos, faggots... right?

I mean I really don't see the difference between calling someone a n***r and calling them a faggot because in my book those are two completely synonymous hate crimes.

Those words fucking hurt.

At the end of the day I told her coworker that my girl and I were together, and she said, "Oh, I thought you guys were, like, best friends or something. But I kind of had my suspicions, though." I sat there stunned. If you even had the shadow of a doubt in your mind that we were together, then how could you have the audacity to call things, people, nouns, gay? How could you describe something as gay without it meaning happy, loving, wonderful, and amazing? Because we obviously are.

I guess my point is that I'm really fucking sick of hateful language. It's perpetuating a social stigma that looks at us negatively. It keeps us in the negative. Like we don't matter or we don't exist.

I don't think people realize that just like calling a black person a nigger (I'm really sorry for the strong language; I'm just trying to get the point across) calling a gay person a flaming faggot has an extremely horrid background. A faggot is a bundle of sticks. They call gays "flaming faggots" because when they were burning witches back in the day, they were throwing gays at the bottom of the pile to burn the witches hotter. Because gays were the lowest of the low. So calling me a flaming faggot is really telling me that you want to throw me into the flames and kill me with the rest of the scum of the Earth.

I've remember watching an interview with Anderson Cooper (who I love) and this woman concerning gay marriage. Cooper asked the lady if she thought that gays should be fenced in one area and killed off. She replied, "Yes I do." He came back with, "But don't you realize that in doing that, you're only killing the homosexuals that are currently out, or alive, for that matter?" She said she didn't understand what he meant. She didn't fucking understand what he meant. He tried to explain to her that homosexuals are born that way and that regardless of whether or not we kill all the ones that are currently here, more are going to be born. And she still didn't get it. 

I just can't understand where people get off thinking that homosexual relationships are completely about the sex, that there can't be any romantic or genuine love, and that gays are just sinners who don't really matter anyways.

So yeah, calling someone, something, a noun, gay, has started to become really offensive to me.

And by the way, fuck Russia for what they're doing right now.

/end rant