This is so embarrassing to say, I hate admitting this, but I feel like I'm too ugly to be femme... I want to think I'm pretty and feminine but I'm too scared to even tell girls I'm interested in that I'm a lesbian because I feel like they'll just laugh in my face. I'm so self conscious that I can't even exist in my sexuality anymore, I feel pathetic right now.
I used to think the same about myself. Then I met this girl who kept telling me she thought I was the cutest girl ever and she loved when I wore my favorite earrings and my dresses. She would always compliment my makeup and my hair and just about everything, even tho I had horrible skin and I wasn’t really good at makeup and my body proportions make dresses look kind of weird when I first put them on. The more she kept saying it, the more I kept telling it to myself. Now, without her in my life as my girlfriend, I feel pretty.
I’m not saying you should depend on someone else, but I do think it’s good to hear it from someone else. If you wanna talk more, I’m always free to talk over dms. Talking with girls that have similar experiences is good.
I feel pretty, oh so pretty. I feel pretty and witty, and gay.