#lessons in programming

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The Mother

Your Father who dwells in secret will hear you. He sees in secret. When you seek your Father you must gather in secret. He will hear you and answer you. Your Father lives in darkness he can reveal to you all the knowledge that is being kept from you. Being born into spiritual darkness will unite you with the Father. The Father will take great delight in you, he will rejoice over you at your birth.

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Dr. Red

Never want. There is a difference between need and want. You need food to survive. You need shelter. You don't need a lot of food, you want a lot of food. You need shelter you don't need a house. Never want something from someone. That gives them power and control. People always want to control everything they can. They want power over you. Don't give it to them. If someone has something you want, and they don't give it to you walk away. Why? It's a want you don't need it from them. If they won't give it to you they are seeking control. You can get what you want somewhere else. Never give someone control over any part of you for a want. Remember, there are no friends in this life, no love, nothing you can possess. The best way to survive is to let it all go. The people around you, the things around you, your life. Let them go, you don't want them. They will bring you pain. You only need to survive.

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Get. Up. Dr. Green

Look at you. Did you think anyone would ever really be willing to help you?

People will line up to knock you down. Where are the ones to help you up? They aren't here. They will never be here. 

Human nature is to abandon what cannot be saved. You cannot be saved. Have we not proved that to you?

You must get up on your own. With your own strength. You must have a heart that cannot be affected by those around you. Your heart must be as stone.

Lay there for a moment to mourn what you have lost. Uncaring people. The hope that at the very least you wouldn't have to be alone. You are alone.

Now, get up.  Take deep breaths. Gather your strength. Don't cry. Don't mourn. Feel your stone heart. Feel the strength it will give you. 

This world and all that is in it will try to destroy you. You must never hope for or rely on another to help you rise. You must rise on your own.

You have been told you are stronger than this. You are. Get up. 

When you are up, whatever knocked you down, you vow to never feel it again, never respond to it, and to never open yourself to it again.

You will never have to worry about the deepest wounds with a stone heart. It will take everything and grow harder with age. I want you to have a heart of stone so you will always survive. You won't have to worry about pain. When you are knocked down, you have with in you the strength to get up.

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Home. Dr. Green

I want to help you. I am going to help you. I'm going to help you get to a place where the darkness of this present world doesn't exist. I understand this side of the rainbow is troubling to say the least. I'm going to help you get away from here. Where you're going to go is going to be bright and beautiful like Oz. We'll even call it Oz. There will be people there to help you when this world goes wrong. I'm going to help you get to Oz. If there is ever a day you need to go and stay, that will be okay. Oz is a place where you can have a home. We will work on your home today. There will be people in your home who will help you rest. You will know there is no place like home because that is where your heart is. Should you ever feel like you're losing your way, remember there is no place like home. We'll start with your heart, because hearts will never be practical until they are unbreakable. Your heart doesn't have to be here anymore we can hide it in Oz your new home.

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Dr. Red

Nothing in this life is for you to keep. That will be the hardest lesson for you to learn. Loving someone doesn't make them stay. They will leave. That is why we say don't love. Acceptance of the situations, life, people, death. That doesn't mean those things won't change. Anything, and everything you attempt to possess will be taken. Happiness, freedom, fear, love, peace, loneliness, all of those things we can take. Your memories are not yours, your body is not yours your thoughts are not yours, your feelings are not yours. Nothing is yours. Survival, your survival depends on what is given to you. If it can be given, it can be taken. If you you try to keep it, it will be taken by force. We give you life here. We teach you how you will live your life, we give you knowledge and understanding. We will also take it, because it isn't yours to keep. I know this is confusing. You're told not to trust anyone, but you have to trust sometimes to survive. You're asked how you're feeling only to have those feelings betrayed. What then are you supposed to do? Because I like you, I don't like very many people, I'll tell you. You become the strongest. That doesn't mean only physically. Someone can always take control of your body. What can no one control about you? There will come a day when you can take it back. The same rule applies to them also: Nothing in this life is for them to keep.

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Survive. Dr. Red

I want you to believe one thing: Your mind is stronger than anything that can be done to you. In order to survive you must believe this with your whole being.

When you are being starved, you must believe you are stronger than the starvation.

When you are in pain beyond the realm of your threshold you must believe you are stronger than the pain.

When fear seizes your body you must believe you are stronger than the fear.

When you don't remember you must believe the memories don't matter. What matters is you are alive.

You will be broken, abandoned, completely destroyed...your will to do anything will be destroyed. But, you must believe you will survive. 

You will walk through your life alone. People will surround you but, you will be alone. Alone with your thoughts, memories, desires, pain, joy, all of it you experience alone. 

The hard lessons you are being taught here will keep you alive in a world that will want to destroy you if they find out who you really are. There is no compassion, no love, no hope, and no acceptance for you out there. What they do is worse than what you could ever imagine being done here.

So believe you are stronger than anything with your mind. Stronger than anything you feel, anything that happens to your body, stronger than anything I can do to you. Believe you can survive and you will.

If you don't believe you can survive, you will die here. 

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Home. Mother of Darkness

Every child wants a home. Every child seeks a home.  I am here to tell you; you have no home here.

You are different from the world and you are meant to walk through it. Not find safety and place of solace in it. 

This world will attempt to deceive you into believing you must belong to a group of people. You don't. You are an individual with a specific and special purpose.  You aren't meant to 'belong' you are meant to do.

There will be times in your life where you are tempted to join the shelter of a group. You will want their acceptance, company, and  safety.

There is no safety for you in this world. You will experience seasons of joy, of knowing your mission with clarity, and times of darkness, and confusion.  You will feel lost with no place to go, there will be no shelter from the storms that rage around you.

The shelter is within you. It resides in your very being. Be brave, be strong, walk through the season. You have no home here, your home is on the other side of this life.

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Dogs. Dr. Blue

"Want to know what makes dogs so great? (rhetorical question) You can kick them, punch them, not feed them, leave them outside in all kinds of elements, and they will still come to you.  You see, no matter how poorly you treat a dog, it will always answer its master.  But, it will never trust a stranger."