you know what it is ? it’s losing your dream after getting to live it for three complete years, it’s seeing your stoic father in tears as you don the colour for the first time, it’s tasting victory for the first time, and the only times you ever have, it’s moving your home so that you can give more, it’s giving up your own time so you can do more, it’s giving in, especially when you don’t want to, if it means it is supposedly better for everyone, it’s to set someone else up for the success you’ve dreamed of, it’s still giving your all knowing that this is your last year living that dream, it’s to be told you’ve entered their hearts, and yet you’ve already been asked to leave.
but most of all, it’s losing your dream knowing full well you did absolutely nothing wrong, you did everything right, so much more than you had to, and it still wasn’t enough.
