Its been great. Alot of emotions, lessons, memories, value in this friendship. Alot of love and passion man. I can feel myself slowly getting closer to building the courage to take the necessary steps to let you go. Everyday is a process. Everyday is a new feelings, its mixed emotions. Everyday is an emotional roller coaster. Every day I’m fighting with my mind and heart. With my spirit and flesh. Every night I’m hard on myself when I feel liked I failed myself. My goal with you for the day. Every night I’m hard on myself when I just let things flow and feel those emotions that you keep telling me is not what it is. Every day I have to keep reminding myself about what this is.. that this is it. This is what it will all ever be. Friends. Bestfriends.
Move on Darling. Let go. He’s not yours, he won’t ever be. He has made it clear and this isn’t the first time. Quit acting deaf and blind. Quit holding yourself back. Its not him, its not your temptations, its not the Devil, its you! You’re doing all the work for the enemy at this point. Get yourself together mija. You’re older now. More mature. You’ve been doing this for years, you’ve been through this before being committed to God so you already know how it goes darling. I promise you it isn’t any different with him.
