I missed my hearing test because I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW WHAT WEEK IT WAS (is? Is, it's still this week). This move has been so hard on me. I've been just barely coping, and that's involved me keeping myself as distracted and ignorant of reality as possible. Trust me, it was necessary. Unfortunately this means I've been in a perpetual state of confusion and definitely not taking care of myself. My sleeping, eating, grooming, exercising, and socializing habits have all suffered. I have to figure out how to boost myself out of this without grief crushing me. And just in case any of you are thinking that perhaps I should just "roll with it" or "deal with it" I'll not so gently remind you that I'm mentally ill and this huge change has taken me into a very dangerous place, mood-wise. On the bright side, I look freaking fantastic today. #selfiepower #mentalillness #mentallyill #erasethestigma #bipolarII #actuallyocd #ptsd #agoraphobic #agoraphobia #mentalillnessesarerealillnesses #copingmechanisms #letmegobackhome