Truth..
I did some wrong, that doesn’t mean I’m all wrong for her. I did some bad things, that doesn’t make me a bad guy. I had moments of weakness, that doesn’t make me weak. I made some mistakes, that doesn’t mean that we were a mistake. I wrote some negative things, that doesn’t erase all the positive light I tried to shine on her every day. I acted from wounded ego and selfish pride. But none of these things will ever take away how proud I am of the way I still love her. I behaved with seething rage, and frightening violence, no excuses there, but examining my history I think she’d have trouble finding examples showing I am an angry, violent man..
Everybody fucks up, that doesn’t make them a fuck-up. Humans are fragile, fallible creatures, (delicate fucking flowers).. Their failings are not their definitons. Their failures do not invalidate their successes. Mistakes are there for the lessons they provide. People deserve a second chance, to prove they’ve learned their lessons. Those who repeat the same mistakes over and over, who never learn their lessons, always expecting 3rd, 4th and 5th chances. These are the ones to look out for. The ones who never learn.. But I don’t count myself amongst this lot. I am a good student and I’ve learned my lessons well.. I just hope one day I get the chance to prove it..
Please look to the past and the joy contained in the beginning, the middle and all the way up to the very end.. Will we never speak again? And will the last 1% of our interaction be the defining percentage she wraps her beautiful mind around to define our entire love affair?
That would be a real tradgedy. Hate IS useless and toxic, and that word was never even uttered between us. So in the end, to have that be the all-encompassing label attached to this Love. I can’t imagine, won’t acept it, and will never experience a sadder, more innacurate or wasteful conclusion to all that we were, and in my mind, all that we still are, and every endless possibilty that still lies waiting for us, just around the corner..
Mistakes do not define a person’s character.. What they do about those mistakes, how they are affected by them, and what they learn from them do..
