Letters from Damon: Better
Looking back I used to be so dark. Mists became thick fogs that would cover me and smuggle me until there was no longer air to breath. I would basically call for help, and stretch my hand forth but never would I ever raise the white flag and call it quits. Yes I was quite the stubborn soul and even today I tend to still be that way but not as bad as before. I remember nights would be extremely dark and the single candle that was lit I would blow it out removing the little hope of warmth staying. Then I would settle for the cold that always seemed to surround as deep as waters could go. Yes clearly as you could tell I drowned in stress, in sadness, in heartbreaks, in heartaches and much later... in anxiety. Insomnia was life and practically my best friend. What was true happiness? I could not tell you. Every peak of happiness escaped this darkness at the first chance it got rather then stay and brighten my life which requested it. Which needed it.This was my life. Endless unbreakable cycles.
Here is where the tables turned. As many of you have heard and read about my precious Amerie, well that is just all that happened. Amerie. Tables were turned. everything suddenly seemed possible. Pain rarely came about. I already did not truly stress but suddenly, stress was completely non existent. Insomnia left me and even though I still barely get sleep, it’s only because of the busy life i have developed. No longer would i occupy myself to escape what I fear would happen or repeat itself in my past. Though I still stay occupied to escape thinking. I still find that dangerous. Either way just as I once said that I changed my life for the better thanks to my nephews who became my motivation, Amerie pushes me to actually complete goals I have set with little to no distractions involved. Before I would juggle a billion things at once but I would still get it done but now I have learned to actually prioritize and plan better to stay organized and not pile things up or procrastinate as I used to. Many have asked me “Dude, who are you?” because I have actually changed quite decently d greatly in the best ways known. Punctuality, effort, responsibility, etc. “For those who have known how I was last year, this year I am better” is what I told a group of friends of mine as a good point that has happened. I, Damon Santiago, am just better and it’s to someone very special to me.