My first & last letter for Papanglo (Grandpa)
Dear Papanglo, This is the first time I wrote you a letter and I can’t believe I’m writing this. The words I'm about to utter are the most difficult composition I have ever made in my whole entire life so far. I guess I never thought about this thing to happen, who else did? or what would it be like when you would no longer be here. You have always been such a key part of my life when I had Diddy. You accepted me more than anybodyelse. Accepted me as your granddaughter with open arms, no questions, no ifs and buts. Just a simple smile, a nod and a hug... enough to make me feel secure and calm. And now that you are in heaven and no longer with us anymore, I wanna tell you I'll miss you and that I hope I did something to be with you before. I hope I had the chance to show you my nora aunor singing talent, my dandansoy song and my silly rosa rosal kundimans. I hope I made you smile or laugh. If only I could, I would shamelessly show you how kulit I am just to see you laugh, just to make you happy. Thank you, coz I still got the chance to see you a few months ago. You were still the same Papanglo I met way back god knows when, quiet and very observant. Thank you for the love and acceptance. I will keep your memory alive and never, ever forget you. Losing you is me realizing that loving someone is not just acknowledging they are still reachable but also having to spend time with them, make memories, enjoy silly moments, things to be cherished for a lifetime. Thru this I wanna say sorry... I'm sorry I haven't had the chance to show you my first bungi smile, my big alien head and my bulol words "atinatitat" when I was a kid. I'm sorry I wasn't there to see you leave. I'm sorry I wasn't the grand daughter whose always there to celebrate with you, to attend to your needs when you don't feel good or just to be physically present when you needed an apo beside you. I'm sorry I never told you I love you personally. I'm sorry I never had the chance to give you a tight hug before your journey in heaven. I'm sorry I never gave you that forehead kiss before we say goodnight or before we say goodbye. Papang, someday I will see your smiling face again, and I will hear your soft laughs, your stories and utots. I know it. I love you and I will forever be thankful to be your apo, until we meet again. Love, Noble.