Dear anonymous:
My best friend got arrested two days ago, probably. He's not even gay. I just knew yesterday. We don't know where they took him; we don't know what charges did they press against him. It's not getting better. I managed to erase my hard drive, my phone, my laptop, and everything. I'm staring at my PC screen, my computer is entirely empty, and I feel I've just lost my identity, and I'm asking myself who I am. It's so strange. I'm feeling so many strange and new feelings.
I'm telling myself that's silly. My identity is in my head and my heart, not in the laptop or my phone. But who am I? I'm a boy from somewhere on earth, somewhere awful, dirty, and unsafe. I study DNA sciences. I wanted to be a great scientist and be the first gay to win a Nobel prize. Alan Turning, Francis Crick, J. Michael Bishop; those are my inspiration. I won first place grand award in my country's national science fair, and I represented my country in the international fair in the U.S., at the age of eighteen. I thought I could make difference. ISEF slogan was to 'inspire to the change the world'. But I should have known better. They didn't mean my world, they probably were talking about their world or some other world I don't know about. But where I come from, it's different.
Maybe we are over. Let's say they succeed in scaring us and terrorizing us. They are wrong. "We don't like jails, but we aren't afraid of them." ~ Mahienour Almasry. They are wrong. They think it will end with us, but they know nothing. History doesn't forget, and tomorrow they will be other gay Egyptians who will fight once again. It doesn’t end with us. They know nothing about us but that we are filth, and that's because they're ignorant and arrogant. They don't know the history, they can't stop the inevitable.
