#leu-vin

[woodenchopstix]

7/8/15

I’m downtown. This guys gets out of his car and shoves me by his two palms with the force of a punch. He did this cause I kicked his car and I kicked his car because he’s honking at pedestrians and smiling. So natural my first reaction as I step back and let his car pass by is to kick it. Next thing I knew a fat man comes out of his car leaving his small white shih tzu in the front seat to give ma a slam shove in the face. So as people were murmuring 

I kicked his car again and went on walking.

[woodenchopstix]

I asked an ex-coworker of mine to be a managerial reference so i can get new jobs. She called me with some delimas about lying. She was frantic because of the situation that had me fired from that job. She had lied to my possible future employer about who the owner of the cafe is because this girl Elaine picked up the cafe's phone. My ex-coworker no longer allowed me to put her as a managerial reference because she felt uncomfortable with my relationship with my ex boss. Being friends with the person that her boss hates. She felt that she was lying to her boss and scared in doing so it would fuck up my chances of getting any job ever. And though there is that possibility, I never told her to lie. If my ex-boss decides to slander me then so that stain shall remain on her tongue. But the fact that my ex-coworker got so scared and then started saying that my side if the story for leaving the cafe was all a lie really hurt. Because I would not lie to slander people. I would just straight up call them a demon. She did mention that when she came back it was all to shit. So I think she was upset that i left her with a bunch of mess. But I can't say it was entirely my fault when it was running down hill before that. But I'm glad my prediction is close to accurate, my ex Co worker would be the last to leave of the remaining "good" workers under the age of 25.

[woodenchopstix]

Had an intense night with a visitor from Texas. I slept 2.5hrs was with him until 8 in the morning. He is poetic, eloquent, sensitive, handsome, and a Gemini. Of course he is a Gemini. We stayed up til the sun rose. I hate sun rises. He had gone through a of the things I had gone through, we thought each other cute but he is still stuck with some old memories. I wish I could have him for myself but he's haunted by someone from his hometown. I'm jealous but honored that he felt comfortable enough to tell me 2 of the things he's never told anyone. But I'm jealous because he's not mine to have. He would be ideal but he belongs to someone else. Maybe I'm looking for some suburb kid to my city perspective. He was ideal.

[woodenchopstix]

Honestly saw the cutest couples as I left the sword and rose. He was a short Asian dude with sneakers and a hoodie and he was a tall white guy with sneakers and a sweater and a cap. Holding hands. Literally what I have been dreaming of. They were so cute together walking. And they walked right passed me as I tried to not awkwardly stare at how gorgeous and happy they looked.

[woodenchopstix]

That point where reality became so much better than fantasy but it still fucked you up and you won't give fantasy a chance no more

[woodenchopstix]

I honestly can't be dreaming about mason. This is the second one this week...

[woodenchopstix]

Honestly idk if I can keep bottoming. This shit confusing. Like it literally hurts so good. I have to be fucking Tommy the choo choo train that said "I think I can, I think I can"

[woodenchopstix]

I forsure know homeless white people in San Francisco have chosen this lifestyle.