~ levi ackerman x reader
~ tags/cw: fluff, sweet moments with levi. levi fluff! teeth rooting sweetness
~ wc: 230
~ “Levi, am I your first love?” "No."
“Levi, am I your first love?” You ask gently, afraid of prying too far into his past. Levi surely couldn’t have loved before, he had told you he has never felt the way he feels with you, the depth of his feelings; the closeness to love.
“No.” his answer is blunt. There is no messing around with his response, factual and straight to the point.
“Oh,” the noise comes out of you in a quick breath. He was so quick to answer, was he going to admit to something you didn’t want to know the answer to.
“But, you are the only one that matters” he turns to face you. Silver eyes glinting in the low light, smile tilting his lips upwards ever so slightly. “I’ve never felt what I feel for you. You’re not the first, but you are the last and the most important.”
“Oh”
“It doesn’t matter who I loved first because you are the one I love the most and the one I will continue to love until I’m not breathing, and even then I might come back and haunt you.” he laughs quietly. “Scared you for a second, didn’t I?”
“Yes, and I think it made me not love you,” you tease, pushing on his shoulder. “I’m rescinding my love.”
“My heart, how could you?” Levi clutches his chest dramatically. “How will I go on?”
“I don’t know but go ask the one who came before me.”
a/n: I think I’m back ? I’ve had a lot of shit happen in my personal life (death and what not) but I think I’m back. This one is inspired by Hozier’s new songs All Things End and Francesca.
Imagine showering Levi with love and he’s constantly acting annoyed about it (but secretly loves it) and telling you to just stop it. And one day you actually stop. Like you are not mean or anything you just stop kissing his face or lips or neck randomly, dong hug him from behind. No more light touching of his hips when you stand behind him in the kitchen and he’s in front of that cupboard you need. Not taking his hand int yours when it’s cold…just to mess with him and see what he does.
OHHH this is canon. Imagine someone like Levi, having always been wary of being snuck up on, blushing pink when you appear behind him and set your chin on his shoulder in an affectionate embrace.
"This’s not even a proper hug," he'd grumble to play off his embarrassment, even as he melts back against you. You couldn't catch Levi dead admitting he looks forward to and relishes every second of the tiny, spontaneous acts of affection you deal out to him.
Of course, it’s not like he’s distant physically. His favorite passing show of affection is patting or ruffling your hair, but it’s not constant, or out of the blue. And he prefers to show his affection through actions anyway.
In the middle of a long and arduous night, when you retrieve a cup of steaming tea for him, and then brush your fingers together as you hand it off. You could have dropped it.
Randomly striding up to him and kissing his forehead when he's on a stool—at the perfect height for you to go up on your toes for once and do so. Why don’t you wait until I’m done so I don’t break my ankle…
When he's sitting at his desk at the perfect height to ruffle his hair. He pouts. Now it's messy.
After he shaves, brushing your knuckles against his chin to "check his work". Tch. I don’t need feedback.
Warming your hands on his soft cheeks. You’re freezing. Made of ice... But this in fact doesn't bother him at all since Levi runs unnaturally hot.
Outwardly Levi shows annoyance or dislike almost every time you do things like this. The excuses revolve around how unneccessary you're being at their core.
BUT. When the touches and gestures cease, Levi notices from the first opportunity you always take in the early morning. You sit on the foot of the bed beside him, strapping on your harness and belts as he does the same—as normal. You don't lean your head on his shoulder, don’t even touch his handiwork… although you smile when he double-checks your own belts.
No leaning down to kiss his wet hair after a shower, and to get a whiff of his shampoo. No draping your legs across his lap when you get a few minutes to lounge around after supper. No touching his waist while he makes supper. Other than that, all appears normal.
Automatically he gets it into his mind that he did something to upset you, genuinely, before anything else. One of Levi’s greatest fears as far as your relationship goes. He never puts it past himself to mess up, although it’s rare. At his core he’s insecure and ever-inexperienced with love, regardless of whether it's really warranted. He has issues with abandonment.
But he also knows it isn't like you to act passive-aggressive. You know how shit he is at communicating verbally. If anyone's petty or passive-aggressive, it's honestly Levi.
You happen to be reading a few nights later, reclined on the couch in his office when he puts aside some papers and devotes real thought (again) to what might be happening. When he retrieved tea for you both earlier, you didn't kiss his knuckles after he set your cup down in front of you. That's not routine. Normally he'd roll his eyes, but after it happens he savors the touch of your soft lips for minutes on end actually.
You notice his gaze out of the corner of your eye, like he’s sizing you up almost. "Do you need something, Levi?"
You said his name! You usually make his stomach flutter or flip by calling him 'baby', 'honey', 'love', or at least some shortened version of his name. "That's not my name," he'd usually grumble. Now a small scowl appears on his face.
Without answering he rises to his feet, and stands in front of you for a good five seconds, waiting for you to acknowledge him. But you don’t.
He sits. Your head is still in your book.
“Yes?”
Blushing and perturbed, he grabs onto your wrist and stiffly puts it on his cheek, forcing you to transfer your book to one hand.
You don't react but to raise a brow. "What're you doing?"
"You’re acting weird," he says plainly, pressing your knuckles to his cheekbone in what should be a familiar touch. "Why aren't you..."
"Why aren't I what?"
"...Being... embarrassing." He opens your loose palm, cupping his cheek with it.
For the first time since he took it, you move your hand, regaining back control, and pull away. You're the farthest thing from mean about it, so he deduces you're still not mad at him for something. But something is certainly off.
You force down a smile at the mopey look on his face. "Maybe because it's embarrassing to you? You always act like you don’t like it. I just did what you wanted.”
His lips press as a wrinkle appears between his brow. He’s pouting. Ironically, he’s acting like something of a brat. Much less, he even put aside his work to find out what’s going on.
He mumbles a few words well-below speaking level. You lay your book face-down on the polished coffee table to save your spot, and lean in. This time, you innocently touch his knee. "What was that?"
Firmly, he sighs, and shifts, almost squirming. "I don’t mean it. You know I..."
You mess with him one last time. "Do I, baby?"
"Yes," he grunts. He lurches forward and plants you down flat on your back before you can even blink. Then with one measured tug, he loosens his cravat and lays down on top of you so you have little hope of escaping. It's just him and you, face to face. Levi is heavier than he looks, but a comfortable weight regardless. He continues to pout.
You acqueise finally by tenderly kissing his lips, and raising your hand. It sinks into his hair.
That’s better. Now satisfied, he lays his head down on your shoulder, eyes floating shut to relish the affection. He’s learned his lesson.
ok guys, i had a thought??? so i noticed this, but before/during the rumbling, Levi’s eyes always were slim. like this
okay, yeah, so what? well, in the new episode, they look more fuller?? like he doesn’t look tired, he’s at peace? i dunno i feel like people also noticed this but i haven’t seen anything about it so😭