“The commander told me to tell you that you need to give me a kiss.”
Levi looked up from the papers he was reading, peering at you with raised eyebrows. His face remained neutral, unchanging, but on closer inspection, one could see a flicker of amusement in those cloudy, stormy grey eyes of his.
“Oh?” Levi mused, pushing his chair back from his desk, gaze following you as you moved closer to him. You’d taken off your Scout jacket and tied it around your hips, your boots having been toed off by the door upon your entry, leaving you to roam around in your socks. Levi would be lying if he said that seeing you like that—relaxed, unguarded, at ease, familiar—didn’t make warmth bloom in his chest and butterflies erupt in his stomach. “Did he, now?”
“He did.” You nodded matter-of-factly, straddling his lap once you were right in front of him. Levi let it happen, used to your antics at that point, and let his hands settle on your hips. “You can’t disobey the commander, captain. I wouldn’t want to report you for not following orders.”
Levi hummed. “Perish the thought,” he said, deciding to entertain you and play along with your little game. “Come here, then. Orders are orders.”
You giggled, and Levi’s lips quirked up into the tiniest little smile. Barely noticeable, but there. Then, without warning, Levi’s lips crashed against yours in a hot, passionate kiss, making you gasp, but you soon melted into the kiss. One kiss turned into two, two turned into three until soon enough, you were lifted onto his desk, papers scattering to the floor. He would certainly complain about the mess later, but that was future you’s problem.
The order had been a kiss, but it’s better to be thorough, right?
a/n: i saw a prompt on pinterest and sprinted to write this...in february. this has been in my drafts since february. sorry for the lack of writing, especially long-form, angels. as soon as life settles down, i’m hoping to get some longer writing done.
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when everyone knows you're Levi's – everyone except you...
Kenny has known since you were both kids. Just two brats he'd taken under his wing in the Underground (why he'd done that, he still doesn't even know himself). Kenny knew you were Levi's when he saw the way the runt would always stay close, moving when you moved as if some invisible string were tying you together. Levi would always make sure you ate first, that you were always warm, always safe. It was also during that time when Kenny realised that, even with his own shit influence, the runt would turn out alright.
Isabel and Furlan have known since before Levi knew himself. They noticed the way that, in a room full of people, Levi's eyes would always seek you first. When you spoke, he'd listen with an intensity so unlike the usual disinterest he showed towards most other people. When you were separated for some reason – maybe, you were with another team during a heist, or just out for an errand – Levi's shoulders were tense, he was snappy, on edge, and overall unpleasant to be around. But it only lasted until he saw you again, safe.
Mike has known from the moment he saw Levi's eyes widen with pure terror when you'd been held at knife-point. It was that day when the Scouts had finally caught Levi's infamous gang in the Underground. It was almost comical how fast Levi dropped his dagger and let himself get dragged to his knees, then shoved right into a puddle of sewer filth. Especially now, when Mike knows how much that guy hates filth, he marvels at how Levi didn't even seem to notice it – no, his attention was solely focused on you, and first when the immediate threat to your life had been removed had he looked at Erwin.
Erwin and Hange learned that you were Levi's shortly after you both joined the Scouts. You were always seen together – during training, meals, and every other time of the day. They noticed that, unlike with others, Levi was always patient with you. He'd spar with you, even though he was much better at it than you were (you were still remarkably good, it was just that no one was as good as Levi), and he'd show you a move again and again and again just so you could learn it, never raising his voice at you and always answering your questions. And he didn't express even the tiniest hint of annoyance during those moments – only a softness in his eyes they would've described as adoration, if that word wasn't so strange when associated with Levi.
The Levi Squad also quickly learned that you were his. At first, they'd thought that the rumours about Levi being an aloof asshole were wrong. How could he be, with the way he acted around you – talking more than they'd ever heard him talk before, smiling like it was natural to him, letting you hold his hand, hug him, and kiss his cheek as if the two of you were a happily married couple. However, it didn't take long for them to realise that he was every bit as grumpy as rumours had claimed him to be – not quite an asshole, but still blunt and private. That is, to everyone but you.
The revelation had spurred Petra to casually ask how long you and Levi had been together. To their surprise, Levi had fallen very silent, while you spluttered and waved your hands frantically in front of yourself. "No no, I promise it's not like that! We've just known each other since we were kids!"
Petra was sceptical, Oluo confused, and Eld and Gunther exchanged looks. Later, they asked Hange about it, but they'd just pinched the bridge of their nose, mumbling something along the lines of, "If that idiot doesn't tell them soon, I'm going to ask them out myself. That should get him going."
But after that day, you notice that Levi suddenly starts acting strange around you for some reason. He'll get very still every time you hug him or get too close, something he's never done before. When you ask him about it, he doesn't say anything at first, so you ask if you did something wrong.
That seems to catch his attention, and he immediately pulls you close. "Don't be an idiot. It's not you, it's me."
You laugh a little at that. "You know, it sounds like you're breaking up with me when you put it like that." You say it as a joke of course, but it seems like Levi is taking your statement very serious.
"To break up, you have to be together first, you know."
"Right. But you never really saw me like that," you muse, looking away and trying to sound like you don't care when, really, your heart hurts just thinking about it
Again, Levi doesn't say anything, so you look at him again – only to find him staring at you as if you've suddenly grown an extra head.
"Huh? Was it something I said?"
He groans loudly. "You really are an idiot." Then, he flicks your forehead. "I always liked you, dumbass. It used to drive me mad – no, scratch that, it does drive me mad. You drive me mad, but in the best fucking way."
Your eyes light up. "Really?"
"Don't make me say it again."
"Does that mean I can kiss you?"
Levi blinks in surprise, his lips parting. Then, he quickly snaps his mouth shut, only for it to spread into a smirk a split second later. "I'd be pretty fucking stupid to say no to that, wouldn't I?"
You agree wholeheartedly, right before leaning in to kiss Levi. Right on the mouth.
You lay back in bed, watching Levi get ready for the day. He dressed methodically, practice having worn away the challenges of missing fingers and a blind eye. He glanced into the mirror, smoothing his bangs into place, but suddenly stopped.
His hands dropped and he gripped the edge of the counter, knuckles flaring white. You sat up quickly, worried that he was having a flashback- a rarer but still present remnant of the war.
"Levi?" He couldn't hear you. You quickly slid out of bed and moved beside him, edging into his peripheral vision. You raised your voice, careful not to startle him. "Levi, I'm here."
At your voice, his rigid posture fell. He broke his gaze away from the mirror. To your surprise, a sheen of tears glistened in his eyes.
"What's wrong?"
He made a low, dismissive sound, hating the way he'd let emotions spring up and choke him so suddenly. But the shock of it hadn't given him time to process, to shove anything back down where it belonged.
He gestured roughly at his hair. You leaned in, squinting- and noticed a feathery patch of gray threading through his dark locks at the root. You couldn't help smiling. Was that all?
"You're getting older, Captain. There's no shame in that." You ran your fingers through his hair, gently scratching his scalp. "I think you'll make quite the silver fox."
His lips twitched, but he didn't take the compliment. "Tch. It's not that." He caught your hand in his and roughly ran his thumb over your knuckles, staring down at your hands as if they were easier to bear than your face.
"I've never… she didn't…” His throat worked as he swallowed, searching for the words. You waited patiently. "I'm older than my mother," he said at last.
Oh. There was nothing to say, then. That was why it had startled him, his own body renewing grief. You gave him space to think, to keep talking if he wanted, keeping your hand in his like a tether.
“I don’t remember her face, have I told you that?” His face sharpened into something pained, guilty. “But I remember her hair was dark. I imagined the night sky was like that, as a kid.” He shook his head. “It wasn’t at all.”
Levi’s hands trembled. You gently maneuvered him back to the bed. He tipped backward and lay there, frowning at the ceiling. Frustration and grief blended in his voice. “I didn’t expect to get old.”
You curled against his chest. His heart beat against your cheek, soothing the ache in your own. “None of us did, huh? But here we are.”
“Here we are,” he echoed. Another silence fell. When Levi spoke again you almost missed the words- the two of you pinned under the weight of them.
“She would’ve liked you. I know it.”
“Levi,” you started, throat tight, but he shook his head.
showing levi how much you appreciate him or .. riding levi after his accident
cw: smut ⸝⸝ hurt to comfort ⸝⸝ levi's a bit insecure
ever since levi’s injury, he’s been more distant. he’d flinch slightly when you tried to engage anything sexual, claiming that he wasn’t in the mood. you believed him, until you found him in your shared bedroom fucking his fist with your panties. it was time, you decided, for an intervention.
“levi?” you called out. you peeked your head into the room. he was on the bed reading a book. when he heard your voice, he glanced up and set it aside.
“hm?” he replied eyes scanning yours. he looked well rested for once and it made you smile. levi caught this immediately and raised a brow.
“what?”
“nothing.” you joined him on the bed, smile only growing wider. he narrowed his eyes at you suspiciously, but wrapped his arm around you. “it doesn’t look like nothing,” he said in a pointed tone. he kissed your cheek before reaching over on the nightstand.
“well, it’s truly nothing, i’ll go back to my book…” you grabbed his arm to stop him. he raised an eyebrow at you once more.
“what now—”
instead of responding, you crawled into his laps and straddled him. he stared at you before his hands found purchase on your waist.
“ever since your accident, you’ve been distant.” you started off, slowly unbuttoning his shirt. “and i’ve missed you levi. i understand why, but i promise you that i want you no matter not. and honestly..." you ran your hand along his defined abs, not failing to miss the way he inhaled sharply at your touch, "how could i not?" you pressed a kiss to his cheek and grinned at him. before he could even speak, his eyes told you everything that was on the tip of his tongue. he sighed and averted his gaze from you.
"i have been distance," he admitted, "but i don't want you to do this because you feel like you have to. that's the last thing i'd want." he swallowed hard before meeting your eyes. you held his gaze, before leaning in and peppering kisses down his jawline. he groaned softly and squeezed the plush of your ass through your shorts. you rolled your hips absentmindedly, still littering his face with kisses. levi bucked his hips against your clothed cunt and you groaned. your lips found their way to his neck as you grinded against his hard on.
"levi—" your breath caught in your throat as his hand found its way underneath your tank top. shivering under his touch, he cupped your breasts under the fabric, whispering about how beautiful you were.
"just perfect." he murmured, fingers teasing your nipples. you whined softly and grinded against the tent in his pants even more. "missed this so much levi," you confessed. you truly had, it's been a tortuous few weeks without him. he's plagued every one one of your dreams since the last time you had him all to yourself. and this time, you weren't going to let him slip away again as easily.
levi gestured for you to lift your hips so he could take off your flimsy shorts. he tossed them somewhere in the room without a second glance and focused his attention back on you. or, more specifically, your tits. they were peaking through your tank top and catching levi's attention. he tugged the hem of it and you swiftly took it off. his mouth attacked them instantly: swirling one nipple and rolling the other in between his fingers before switching. you let out a sinful moan, tugging lightly on his hair. after he pulled away, he looked up at you, dark eyes filled with lust and impatience.
"it's been too long, i need you," he said just above a whisper. you smiled, he was still a bit shy. you didn't mind, you unbuttoned his pants in a blink. he was hard, tip leaking with precum. you pumped the base of his cock, earning a low guttural moan from the dark haired man. you smirked, running your thumb across the head of his dick. he cursed under his breath and bucked his hips involuntarily.
"missed this soo badly," you hummed, kissing his tip. "i'm guessing you did too, hm?"
levi barely managed a nod before his head dipped and he kissed your collarbone. he could come right now, just from your touch. that's how badly he missed you, so much it hurt. when you finally sink down on his cock, groaning as you took every inch of him, levi died right then and there. he silently cursed himself for denying himself of this for so long. he'd been quietly yearning for you, hiding in the shadows when he wanted to get off, all because he was terrified. but the way you looked at him, kissed him, and squeezed around him made all that fear melt away.
"jesus christ, you're tight," levi groaned. his thick cock only made it halfway into your poor cunt. your palms were flat on his chest to steady yourself. you fluttered around him at his words and whined softly, "levi, i don't know if i can take anymore."
levi shook his head firmly. "you've taken all of me before, it's just... been a while." you nodded and spread your legs wider so you could fully sink down on his cock. with a bit of coaxing, he almost bottomed out. tears prickled in your eyes from the stretch. he felt so good, splitting you apart like this. you whispered his name like a mantra, sinful moans escaping your lips.
"i know, i know, you're almost there," he encouraged you. you bit your bottom lip and cried out his name when he finally bottomed out. "there, that's all of me," his breath hitched at the feeling of being fully nested inside of you after so long. it felt like heaven—your gummy cunt, already squeezing around him so tightly he was sure to come right there and then. you were so warm, so delicate, so perfect. he was sure he didn't deserve you, but your words from earlier rang in his head.
"levi," you pulled him out of your thoughts with your wrecked voice, "you okay?"
he nodded and sighed. "i'm sorry for depriving us of this...and for so long too." lifting his chin up with your finger, you kissed him, lips capturing his in a sweet kiss. his hands cupped your face and you slowly lifted your hips and slammed back down. he swallowed your moans and smacked your ass. you yelped and he smirked below you. you rode him, thighs trembling as you fluttered around his length. he was so big, it still took a second to get used to. you didn't last long, your legs gave out after a bit. you insisted on a break before continuing, but levi insisted.
"let me make it up to you," his dark eyes met with yours. the intensity of his gaze made your stomach churn. all you could do was nod. his hands found your hips once more and he thrusted into you. your velvet walls fluttered around him as you trembled above him. your broken moans only pushed him to pick up the paste. each thrust was a silent apology, a way to make up for lost time. he kissed your chest, littering it with soft kisses. the last thing you heard before you fell apart was your name escaping from his lips. your thighs shook as you came down from your high. levi came deep inside of you with a low grunt.
"beautiful," he murmured. you looked into his eyes, and for the first time in a long time, he let you see him vulnerable. he looked a little broken with his brows furrowed, searching your eyes for any sign of regret. he still didn't want you to want him out of pity.
"i missed you levi," you finally said with a happy sigh. you cupped his face and grinned. "i could never not want you, i promise."
levi leaned forward and sealed your promise with a kiss. it was tender, his hands found their way in your hair, and yours in his. he stole your breath, kissing you like he'd been waiting all of eternity to do so. it was him twitching, still very much inside of you, that broke the kiss.
"shit," he muttered, slightly embarassed.
you cackled and poked his cheek. "all from a kiss? you defintely missed me, huh?"
"gosh, no need to rub it in," he rolled his eyes, but there was no real bite in his tone.
you lifted your hips slowly and he froze. "make me." he smirked at you before rolling the two of you over. the two of you stayed up all night, tangled in the sheets, making up for lost time.
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You were pinned under him, skin slick and burning, every movement from Levi relentless. His hands gripped you hard, jerking you against him like he couldn’t get enough, like letting go wasn’t an option. Every ragged breath, every sharp groan, every growl of his made your body shake, teeth clenching, nails digging into his shoulders.
“Levi… please…” you gasped, voice trembling as he drove into you with brutal precision.
“F—fuck, stay still,” he growled, voice low and hoarse, his jaw tight. But then, suddenly, his movements stuttered, a pause that made your chest hammer. His hands pressed harder against your hips, his gaze wild, almost unrecognizable.
“I… I need… I need you to—stay with me,” he muttered, voice breaking, ragged. Then, almost strangled out in a whisper, “Marry me.”
You froze mid-pleasure, heat and confusion mixing, pulse thundering. “What…?”
“Marry me,” he growled, teeth grazing your skin, voice rough and desperate, hands clenching your body like he couldn’t hold himself together. “I don’t… I don’t care about—anything else. Just… you. Always. Understand?”
Your chest burned, body shaking from both the roughness of him and the weight of his words. “You’re insane,” you breathed, barely able to keep hold of him.
“I know,” he snapped his hips harder, voice low and raw, almost growling in frustration. “And I don’t… care. Just… don’t leave me. Ever.”
Even in the chaos of urgent, rough need, you could feel him trembling against you, his vulnerability peeking through the possessive heat. Somehow, you nodded, voice small, shaky, but certain: “Alright… yeah… always.”
He let out a ragged breath, pulling you impossibly close, teeth grazing your shoulder. And even in the middle of the mess, the roughness, the desperate thrusts and groans, Levi Ackerman had just promised himself to you. And Levi doesn't break promises.
the corridor smelled of soap and steel. levi was polishing his blades again, cloth moving in those infuriatingly perfect circles.
“you’re going to wear them down to nothing,” you snapped, leaning against the doorframe. “we ride at dawn. sleep, levi.”
he didn’t look up. “if you spent less time nagging and more time cleaning properly, maybe i wouldn’t have to redo everything.”
“redo? i scrubbed this floor twice. you’re just being an obsessive prick.”
“tch. bold words from someone who still leaves corners dusty.” be finally glanced at you, grey eyes sharp. “most people know better than to talk to me like that.”
you stepped closer, crossing your arms. “good thing i’m not most people. someone has to tell you when you’re being an idiot about rest and training and everything.”
levi set the blade down with a soft clink. he stood, shorter than you but somehow towering anyway. his hand caught your wrist before you could poke his chest. “you talk too much.”
“and you listen too little.” your voice dropped, the familiar heat crackling between you. “but you only let me talk to you like this.”
a faint smirk tugged at his lips. down the hall, someone whispered, “they’re bickering like an old married couple again.”
levi didn’t deny it. he just pulled you a fraction closer, thumb brushing your pulse. “get some sleep. that’s an order.”
you smiled, refusing to move. “only if you do too, captain.”
he clicked his tongue, but didn’t let go.
everyone heard the arguments.
only you two knew how much he needed them… and how you were the only one he let stay.
☆ Summary: Levi Ackerman has never been good at flirting, which is unfortunate, because insulting you is no longer enough to hide the fact that he’s hopelessly, embarrassingly in love with you.
☆ Pairing: Levi Ackerman x Female Reader
☆ Genre/Tags: Canon Compliant, Mutual Pining, Levi Ackerman is Bad At Feelings, Soft Levi Ackerman, Flirting, First Kiss, Love Confession, Humor, Fluff, Smut
☆ Content Warnings: Explicit sexual content, oral sex (f. receiving), unprotected piv, creampie, missionary
☆ Word Count: 9.0k
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☆ a/n: this is day 2 out of 7 for my birthday week celebration! thank you to my beta reader @slaytherinthoughts <3 also please don't ask for a part two i will take a sledgehammer to my laptop if you ask for a part two
Levi first sees you in the morning in the hallway outside of Erwin’s office. You’re holding a stack of reports tucked under one arm, your cloak clasped crookedly, and a half-finished piece of bread pinched between your teeth because you realized eating breakfast and walking to your briefing is an efficient way to multitask.
Levi sees you from the end of the hall and stops walking. His entire body locks up for the stupidest reason—because it’s you. He immediately thinks There she is. Then, because his mind is determined to ruin him, it adds, Her hair looks nice. He almost turns around and walks directly back to his office just to avoid facing you, but because he’s Captain Levi Ackerman, a man who has faced Titans without blinking and therefore shouldn’t be taken down by a woman holding paperwork and chewing bread, he keeps walking forward.
“You look like hell,” he says as soon as he’s close enough.
You stop and look at him, taking the bread out of your mouth as you lift your brows. “Good morning to you too, Captain.”
Levi stares at the bread, then your mouth. He tries to find something else to focus on. Maybe he can tell you your cloak clasp is twisted and Erwin will absolutely notice. Maybe he could ask whether you slept, because the shadows beneath your eyes look darker than yesterday, and yesterday they had already irritated him enough that he left a cup of tea outside your office and convinced himself he only did it because your exhausted handwriting was difficult to read.
“You look better than yesterday, though,” he adds, because he doesn’t know how to shut up around you.
You half-smile. “That might be the closest you’ve ever come to saying something nice to me.”
He feels his stomach drop. Was it? Was that nice? Had he been too obvious? No. No, that’s impossible. No one could hear “you look like hell” and think it was sweet unless they were deranged. But you’re not deranged. In fact, you’re too competent and too observant for his peace of mind.
“You’re insane,” he says, reaching forward before he can stop himself to fix your cloak clasp. The moment he brushes his fingers against your throat, he wishes the floor would swallow him whole.
You freeze out of surprise, then lift your chin slightly as his knuckles graze the skin beneath your jaw. Levi’s mind goes blank in the most humiliating way possible. He hears the scratch of your breath, feels your pulse at your neck, smells the soap you use—because of course you would be the only other person with proper hygiene standards—and everything he’s learned in life to survive abandons him. He steps back as if you’d burned him.
“There,” he says, voice flat. “Try dressing yourself like an officer next time.”
You glance down at the straightened clasp, then back at him, amusement tugging at the corner of your mouth. “Are you always this charming before breakfast?”
“No.”
“Only with me, then?”
He turns and walks away. Behind him, you laugh, and Levi immediately knows by the burning of his cheeks and the repeating Stupid, stupid, stupid in his mind that this is going to be a very long day.
He insults you again five minutes later inside Erwin’s office, where Erwin stands at the head of the table. Hange lounges over a chair, looking as if they’ve only slept for either four hours or not at all. Miche stands near the window quietly, as always. You take the seat across from Levi, who keeps his eyes on the meeting notes. He refuses to look at you. If he does, he won’t be able to stay composed.
“You’re quiet,” Hange says to him after Erwin begins explaining the revised training schedule for the week. “You’re either listening or plotting something.”
“Unlike you, I can do both quietly,” Levi says.
Hange grins. “That’s what I admire about you, shorty!”
You snort under your breath. Levi looks at you without meaning to. You’re clearly trying not to smile, one hand pressed over the bottom half of your face, eyes lowered to the table. He sees it all, because he always sees too much where you’re concerned. That’s the problem. It means he notices the loose strand of hair against your cheek, and the warmth in your eyes when you catch him looking at you. Levi looks away immediately, thinking to himself Idiot.
“Something wrong, Levi?” Erwin asks, quirking up an eyebrow.
“No,” Levi says.
“You were staring into nothing.”
“I was just assessing whether her paperwork is as sloppy as her uniform.”
You mock an offended gasp. “My paperwork is pristine.”
“It’s tolerable.”
“From you,” you say, pointing your quill at him, “that is basically a marriage proposal.”
Everyone in the room goes quiet. Hange inhales like they’re about to burst. Levi goes completely and utterly still. Marriage proposal. You said it as a joke. Obviously, right? It’s just a harmless, casual joke, banter shared between squad leaders when too much paperwork has turned everyone’s brains into horse feed. There’s no reason for his mind to take the phrase, drag it and him into an alley, and start beating him with it.
Marriage proposal. His mind races before he can stop himself, supplying a series of images: you standing at an altar, you and him in his office alone, your laughter at breakfast, your hand in his, your mouth on his—
No. He’s not going there again. Not now.
Hange’s grin grows wider. Miche looks out the window, but his shoulders shake with silent laughter. Erwin, who is the worst kind of friend to you both, simply looks between the both of you, silently filing this moment away for later to use against either of you when the time comes.
Levi picks up his teacup. “You’d make a terrible wife,” he says.
You grin and rest your chin on the top of your linked hands, elbows on the table. “Why’s that?”
“You’re loud, annoying, and you don’t even know how to chop a carrot.”
“You notice the strangest things about me.”
Levi drinks his tea to avoid having to answer, and even though the tea is too hot, he refuses to cough. Unfortunately for him, you notice his eyes squinting slightly, and your smile softens so much it nearly kills him on the spot. No, he thinks. I can’t let her do this to me.
He spends the rest of the meeting saying as little as possible, which would work better if Hange didn’t keep sneaking glances at him with barely contained excitement.
Levi expects the week to improve after that. It doesn’t. The problem is that you’re everywhere. You’re in the training yard in the afternoon, walking between your squad members to correct their positions. You’re at the stables in the evening, arguing with someone about your saddle in disrepair. You’re at the mess hall the next morning, laughing with Nanaba over something silly, your head tipped back in a way that fully exposes your throat and immediately makes Levi think of how nice it would be to kiss it.
It’s nothing. It’s not attraction, it’s not a crush, because he’s a full-grown man and he has no use for romantic attraction. It’s just… a normal appreciation of competence. It’s nothing.
Then you bend to pick up a dropped training knife, showing off your ass perfectly, and Levi walks straight into a wall.
So, not nothing, then.
.
By the fifth day, he’s found numerous excuses to pass through the training yard—at least three times.
The first time, he claims he’s merely checking formations and whether the recruits are holding it correctly. The second time, he claims the training dummies aren’t being raised correctly. The third time, he says nothing at all because even he knows another excuse won’t fool anyone.
You catch him near the fence line with his arms crossed, watching as you demonstrate a disarming technique to your squad. “Captain Ackerman,” you call, breathless from your exertion. “Are you here to criticize my form again?”
His mind immediately says Yes, then No. Tell her she moves well. Tell her that her squad trusts her. Tell her she can command a room without having to do anything. Tell her—
“Your stance is less terrible than usual,” Levi says. He slaps himself in his mind. Stupid.
You turn slowly. “Less terrible? Are you praising me?”
“It wasn’t praise.”
“Definitely sounded like praise,” you sing.
“Get your hearing checked.”
You grin. Levi looks away, biting the inside of his cheek. Your squad disperses after another hour, groaning with exhaustion, and you remain behind to gather the practice blades, humming under your breath while the wind blows through your hair.
Levi knows he should leave. He has reports, he has inspections, he has an office to clean and tea waiting for him that’ll oversteep if he continues standing here like some lovesick idiot. He finds himself walking toward you anyway.
“You’re wearing that wrong,” he says.
You look down at yourself, squinting your eyes. “Wearing what wrong?”
“Your harness.”
“No, I’m not.”
“Yes, you are.”
“I’ve worn ODM gear for years.”
“Then it’s embarrassing that you managed to fuck it up this badly.”
You put both hands on your hips, cocking your head at him. “Alright, then. Fix it if it bothers you that much.”
His soul practically leaves his body, but because he has absolutely no self-preservation, he mutters, “Fine.”
He steps behind you and reaches for the strap crossing your back. It’s only slightly twisted, barely enough to matter, but he focuses on it as if the fate of the Walls depends on that strip of leather lying flat. Focusing on the strap is easier than focusing on how warm you are, how close you are, how you freeze when his hands settle at your waist to adjust the lower buckles.
This is normal, he thinks. You’ve adjusted soldiers’ gear before. He pulls and tightens. Then, he finally realizes this is not normal at all. He’s too busy thinking about your waist. How nice it feels under his hands. How nice it would be to hold it while he presses up against you from behind. Goddamnit, get it together. He tightens one strap, loosens another, checks the angle, then checks it again because he can’t bring himself to pull away.
“You’re awfully thorough,” you say.
Levi freezes. He hears the smile in your voice. A small one. Possibly innocent. Probably innocent. He can’t lean forward and investigate, because if he sees your expression, he may just blurt something stupid out like I like standing this close to you, and then he’ll have to desert the Scouts and live alone in a cave for the rest of his life.
“If you fall out of your gear, I’ll have to hear about it,” he says.
“Ah, so this is precaution.”
“Obviously.”
“You’re very thoughtful.”
“More like annoyed.” You laugh softly, and he finishes the adjustment too quickly, stepping away in an attempt to restore whatever part of his dignity just died. “There,” he says. “Try not to embarrass your rank.”
You turn to face him, completely oblivious to the fact that he’s just survived an internal war. “Thank you, Levi.”
He blinks at the use of his name. You usually don’t say his first name. It’s always Captain, Captain Ackerman, or Captain Levi. Never just Levi. He looks away before his expression can give him away.
All he says is a simple, “Tch.”
.
You still don’t realize that Levi thinks of you differently, even weeks later.
Levi is rude to almost everyone, blunt with everyone, sparse with praise and allergic to any kind of emotional displays, so it doesn’t occur to you immediately that the insults he gives you are not the same as the ones he gives everyone else. You just assume Levi tolerates you, perhaps even respects you. You don’t assume Levi watches for whether you’ve eaten, or that he’s memorized how you take your tea, or that he once spent ten minutes deciding whether he should knock on your door with medicine in his hand when you were out sick one day.
Hange assumes all of it, and unfortunately for you, Hange assumes very loudly.
In the mess hall, you sit alone at the end of one table with a bowl of stew, a cup of tea, and a stack of formation notes you’re trying to read without dripping broth on them. Even now, you don’t know how to stop working. Hange slides into the seat across from you so quickly that the table shifts. You look up, raising your brows.
“Hello to you too,” you say.
“You and Levi,” Hange says.
You pause with your spoon halfway to your mouth. “Me and Levi what?”
“Oh, don’t do that.”
“Do what?”
“Pretend you haven’t noticed.”
You stare at them, and Hange stares back, eyes bright behind their glasses, their expression so gleeful it’s almost terrifying.
“Hange,” you say slowly. “I genuinely have no idea what you’re talking about.”
Their smile falters, then returns even wider. “Oh, that’s even better.”
“Why am I scared?”
“You should be. I know something.”
“You say that a lot.”
Hange waves that away, then leans closer. “Levi has a crush on you.”
You almost drop your spoon into your lap. Surely they must be joking, right? The words don’t even make sense at first. They enter your brain, bounce around for a few seconds, then immediately get rejected by every sensible part of you.
“Levi,” you repeat.
“Yes.”
“Captain Levi Ackerman.”
“Yes.”
“Humanity’s strongest soldier. That Levi.”
“Do we have another emotionally stunted short man named Levi wandering around?”
You look across the mess hall at Levi, standing near the far wall, speaking with Erwin. His arms are folded across his chest, face blank as always. Nothing about him suggests he has a crush on you. The man looks like he was born to disapprove of everyone and everything. To be fair, he already does.
“He insulted my uniform,” you say.
Hange leans even further in. “I saw him fix your cloak.”
“He told me my paperwork was tolerable.”
“Levi considers tolerable high praise.”
“He said I would make a terrible wife.”
“He was totally thinking about you being his wife.” You open your mouth, then close it, because you have absolutely nothing to say in response to that. Hange presses on with a devilish smile. “He brings you tea, too,” they say.
“So?”
“Good tea.” That makes you pause. “He corrects your supply forms before Erwin sees them.”
“So? He corrects everyone’s forms.”
“No, he writes ‘redo this garbage’ on everyone else’s. Yours come back fixed.” You can only blink in response. “He always says something when your squad gets stable duty, and somehow those assignments always mysteriously change.”
“That could be Erwin.”
“It’s not Erwin, trust me.”
“Okay, well… he criticized my gear.”
“That was only an excuse to touch you.”
“Hange.”
“What? I’m observant.”
You sneak a glance at Levi again, and as though sensing your gaze, he looks over. His eyes meet yours across the mess hall, and you see the smallest shift in his expression. A fondness you hadn’t seen before. He then notices Hange sitting across from you, sees the wide grin on their face, and he narrows his eyes with immediate suspicion. Hange waves. Levi looks like he’s considering whether he could get away with murder. Then you notice—and you’re entirely convinced you’re just seeing things—the redness blooming across his cheekbones when he looks at you again.
Oh.
Oh?
That is, unfortunately, very cute.
Then you realize. It all hits you at once. The tea outside your office, the fixing of your cloak, the bread that mysteriously showed up on your desk, the fact that he somehow always manages to appear when you’re carrying something heavy, the way his insults land just a little softer when they’re directed at you.
“You’re enjoying this, you naughty thing,” you accuse Hange.
“Immensely.”
“If you’re wrong, I’m going to look very stupid.”
“I’m not wrong.”
“You’ve been wrong before.”
“I’m rarely wrong in matters this entertaining.”
Across the room, Levi pushes away from the wall and starts walking toward you. You feel your stomach drop as Hange stands up.
“Good luck,” they whisper.
You look to them in panic. “Hange, don’t leave—”
“Be gentle. He’s not emotionally housebroken.”
They vanish before Levi arrives, leaving you sitting with your lukewarm stew, your scattered notes, and the sudden realization that Levi Ackerman has been crushing on you for who knows how long now?
Levi stops beside the table. “What did they say?” he asks.
“Nothing.”
He narrows his eyes. “Nothing usually means something.”
“It means nothing, actually.”
“That’s somehow worse.”
You look up at him and, for the first time, allow yourself to study him with the possibility of affection returned. He looks the same as always: tight mouth, sharp eyes, neat cravat, straight posture. But now you see the tiny tells beneath it. He doesn’t look at you directly for too long. His attention flicks to your tea, your food, your notes. His fingers twitch once at his side before he forces them to be still.
He’s nervous. Levi Ackerman is nervous.
You nearly break into a way-too-obvious smile, but thankfully, you manage to just tilt your head. “Captain,” you say, “are you worried about me?”
“No.”
“Well, that was a quick answer.”
“Because it was an easy question.”
“So you’re not worried about me.”
“No.”
“And if I skipped dinner?”
His eyes flick to your bowl. “You’re eating dinner.”
“But if I did.”
“Then you’d be an idiot.”
“You’d notice, though.”
Levi looks at you pointedly, and you smile. You see the visible tightening around his mouth and the subtle shift in his breathing.
“Hard not to notice when someone is being an idiot in public,” he says.
You lean your chin into your hand. “You know, if you wanted my attention so badly, you could’ve just asked for it.”
You swear Levi stops breathing. You see the hitch in his breath. His face doesn’t change as much, but you see the subtle shift in his eyes, the catastrophic collapse happening behind them that he’s so desperately trying to hide.
She knows, Levi thinks, then with rising horror, She knows, and Hange told her. I’m going to kill them. “I have better things to do than ask for your attention,” he says, swallowing through the tightness in his throat.
“And yet, here you are,” you say, smiling widely.
Because he doesn’t know where else to look, he peers at your notes. “Your handwriting is messy again.”
“Deflection.”
“Mere observation.”
“You make a lot of those about me.”
“Someone has to.”
You laugh. Levi wishes he didn’t love that sound as much as he does.
You become an absolute menace after that.
.
You don’t do it immediately—you’re too clever for that, and Levi is too slippery to corner. So, you start with small things, such as sitting beside him instead of across from him at the next briefing, which he notices immediately. He stiffens in response.
“Morning,” you say cheerfully.
He looks at the empty chairs around the table. “There are other seats.”
“I like this one.”
“It’s too close.”
“To what?”
“To me, idiot.”
You look at him innocently, batting your eyelashes. “Am I bothering you, Captain?”
Yes, Levi thinks, because you’re too close that he can clearly smell your divine scent, and because your sleeve brushes his when you reach for a report, and because he can see the little crumb that you must not have fully swept away on your mouth and wants to stupidly wipe it off.
“No,” he says.
“Good.”
Hange bites their knuckles across the table.
Later in the mess hall, you ask Levi to pass you a fork. The utensils are closer to you than to him. It doesn’t go over his head, but he reaches for it anyway, because he’s embarrassingly obedient to you. When he hands it over, you deliberately brush your fingers over his. Levi nearly drops the fork. He doesn’t, thankfully, but he manages to keep his hand steady, even though internally, he wants to run face-first into a wall.
You lower your voice. “Careful, Captain. You seem distracted.”
He glares at you. “You’re imagining things.”
“Oh, am I?”
“Yes.”
“That was also a very fast answer.”
“You ask stupid questions.”
“And you still answer them anyway.”
You catch his eyes flicking down to your mouth only once, only for the smallest amount of time, but you see it, and all traces of wanting to tease him escape your body.
For all your amusement, for all the fun of watching him unravel, you’re not immune to him. Levi’s awkwardness is adorable, yes, and his insults are ridiculous as they are normal, but you know how to decipher the way he shows you attention. He’s always fiercely contained. You’d be lying if you said you didn’t want to crack that composure just a little.
After dinner, he follows you in the always-empty corridor outside the mess hall, the one just around the corner. He positions himself in front of you, standing near a window where the moonlight cuts across his face.
“You’re doing this on purpose now,” he says.
You stop walking. “Doing what?”
“Don’t play dumb.”
“I’m not. I want to hear you say it.”
He clenches his jaw. There’s no one else in the corridor, so surely, he can say it with little repercussions, right? Levi looks at you, then shifts his gaze away.
“You’ve been acting strange,” he says.
“I’ve been acting strange?”
“Yes.”
“That’s interesting.”
“No, it’s just annoying.”
You step a little closer, but Levi doesn’t move. “Am I making you uncomfortable?” you ask softly.
“No.”
“No?”
“You’re not making me uncomfortable.”
“Then what am I making you?”
His eyes meet yours, and for once, he doesn’t seem to have an insult resting on the tip of his tongue, ready to strike. The silence stretches for a moment longer than necessary.
“Annoyed,” he says finally, crossing his arms.
“Ooh, that’s the answer you’re going with?”
“It’s the answer you’re getting.”
“Levi.”
His name again. You use it gently, and the effect it has on him is visible in the slight flare of his nostrils and his fingers flexing once against his sleeve.
“You can tell me to stop,” you say.
“I know.”
“And?”
“And I won’t.” Levi looks irritated by his own honesty, but he doesn’t retract. His gaze drops to your mouth, snaps back to your eyes, drops again before he can stop it, and this time both of you know. Both of you feel it. Both of you stop denying it. “I can’t think straight around you,” he says very quietly. The words seem to surprise him as much as they surprise you.
Your smile melds into a softer one. “Do you want me to back off?”
“No.”
You take another step closer. “Do you want me to keep teasing you?”
Levi looks genuinely pained when he says, “You’re enjoying this too much.”
You shrug. “A little.”
“Brat.”
You raise your hand slowly, giving him enough time to move away if he so wishes, and you touch the edge of his cravat, feeling the fold beneath your fingers. He tracks the movement with his eyes as if your hand is a blade.
“Do you want to kiss me, Levi?” you ask.
Levi’s heart drops straight through the floor. There are many things he can do under pressure. He can make impossible decisions with blood on his hands. He can move faster than fear. He can face death with a blank expression. But this—a direct question, so clear in its intent, asked in your soft voice while you stand close enough for him to count your eyelashes—destroys him completely.
But he’s tired of losing to himself.
“Yes,” he says.
“Then what’s stopping you?” you whisper.
He waits a second longer, just enough to make sure you don’t step back or retreat fully, just enough to give you the chance to change your mind. You don’t, so Levi kisses you.
At first, he’s too careful, his mouth pressed against yours with restraint. It feels like he’s holding back an army, one hand hovering near your waist before he places it there. You feel the tension coiled in him, the uncertainty buried inside him. Levi doesn’t kiss you with any sort of confidence. He’s scared. You can tell. So you help him. You step into him, sliding one hand to his shoulder and the other to the side of his face, and kiss him back hard enough that his breath leaves him in a startled exhale.
Then he changes. Some guarded place inside him finally lets down its walls as his hand grips your waist and his mouth moves against yours with deeper intention, having thought about this moment for longer than he’ll ever admit. Every insult and cup of tea has been leading him here, to this corridor, to this moment, to the relief of wanting you and discovering that you want him too.
And goddamit, do you want him.
When you part, you stay close, your noses brushing, his hand still at your waist, having forgotten to let go—and when he remembers, he still doesn’t pull away. He notices your smile first.
“What?” he asks.
“You’re totally blushing.”
“What? No I’m not.”
“You are.”
“Stop it.”
“Levi Ackerman is blushing from one kiss?”
“You and your fucking ego.”
You laugh, and he can’t help the small smile that creeps onto his lips. Then he’s pulled back to exactly how you even got to this point, and his almost-smile curdles into a scowl.
“Don’t flirt with me in front of Hange again,” he says.
“Why?”
“Because they’ll never shut up about it.”
You tilt your head. “And?”
Levi looks down the corridor once, then turns back to you. “And because I’ll probably embarrass myself,” he almost mumbles.
“You didn’t embarrass yourself,” you say. He looks slightly skeptical. “Levi. I asked you if you wanted to kiss me and you said yes. That was actually very impressive.”
“Tch.”
“For you, I mean.”
He narrows his eyes. You just laugh and kiss his cheek once before walking away with glee in your steps, leaving behind a very miserable, blushing Levi.
.
The days after your kiss are strange, for lack of a better word. You and him don’t announce anything to anyone else, which Levi appreciates, because if Hange finds out, he’ll never know peace again. But privacy doesn’t mean mercy—you’re too evil for that. You’re gentle with him still, but you’re also you, and you’ve realized very quickly that Levi’s composure is a door with a faulty hinge.
You touch his hand in meetings. You call him Levi and sometimes Vi in passing and watch him stop as his face flushes red. You smile at him over your drinks and soup and bread in the mess hall. You tell him, after one long afternoon of reports, “You know, you’re almost sweet when you’re pretending not to be.”
He looks up from his paperwork and accidentally leaves a line of ink across the page. You stifle a laugh. He’s not going to be happy when he looks back down.
“I’m not sweet,” he says.
“Almost sweet.”
“Still wrong.”
“You brought me tea yesterday unprompted.”
“I always do. And you looked dead.”
“Aw, you noticed?”
“Hard to miss.”
“Because I looked pretty?”
“Because you looked dead.”
“Pretty dead?”
He stares at you. You stare back. His mouth twitches first.
Another thing that fits into your long, exhausting days are the stolen kisses. A brief one in the narrow hall outside the records room. A longer, messier one in his office after you bring him corrected notes. One in the shadowed stairwell that ends with him muttering, “You’re going to get us caught,” even though he’s the one who pulls you back by your wrist when you start to leave.
Every kiss teaches you something. Levi likes to pretend he isn’t affected by you, but he’s always betrayed by his hands. They start almost formal, then grow bolder when you respond, fingers spreading along your waist, your back, the side of your neck. He doesn’t make much sound unless you surprise him, and once you realize that, you become silently determined to surprise him every chance you can get.
He learns too. He learns that you like when he says your name softly, in the low, rough voice he uses when he’s too flustered to hide behind composure. He learns that you laugh into kisses when he deepens it out of nowhere. He learns that if he cups your jaw and tilts your face toward his, your breath catches so beautifully that it makes his heart flip.
One night, after a late strategy review, after Erwin dismisses the squad leaders and Hange leaves with an extremely pointed and suggestive look, Levi mutters, “Walk into a Titan’s mouth,” under his breath as soon as the door shuts and returns to his office. You join him because Levi still has your patrol notes. It’s just an excuse—both of you know it.
Rain taps gently against the windows. Levi stands behind his desk with your papers in one hand while he scans the revised schedule. Meanwhile, you lean against the edge of a cabinet and try not to watch his Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallows.
“You changed the rotation,” he says.
“Mhm.”
“It’s better.”
You raise your eyebrows. “Was that praise I just heard?”
“Observation.”
“A positive one.”
“You’re making it weird.”
He looks up, but there’s a different look to his eyes, something worn down by days of wanting you and stopping and wanting you again. You feel your body answer, a warm pull in your lower stomach, the ache that’s been building every time he kisses you longer than you expect. Levi sees your expression shift, and he grips his papers tighter.
“Don’t look at me like that,” he says.
“Like what?”
“Like you’re about to start trouble.”
You push away from the cabinet slowly. “Would you like me to stop?”
He hates that question with a passion. Every time you ask it, it matters. You give him enough space to refuse, to breathe, to get himself together, and it makes him want you more than any stupid flirtatious remark ever could.
“No,” he says.
You approach him slowly. Levi sets the papers down, aligning them with the edge of the desk, as he always does. When you reach him, you don’t smash your lips against his—even though you desperately want to. Instead, you touch his sleeve first, then his wrist, then the back of his hand where his fingers rest against the desk.
“Stop thinking so hard,” you say.
“It’s what I’m used to.”
“I know.”
His gaze drops to your mouth. “You make it worse.”
“Good worse or bad worse?”
“Depends on what you do next.”
You kiss him, and there’s nothing quick about it this time. Levi’s hand rises to cup your face almost instantly, gripping your jaw firmly. The little sound he makes when you press yourself up against him is so involuntary, it makes your pulse jump and heat spread through your limbs. You back him into the desk by accident or maybe not, and he reaches up to grab your waist with his other hand. The desk creaks behind him.
Levi breaks away first, breathing unevenly, forehead nearly touching yours. “Wait,” he says.
You freeze immediately. “Sorry.”
“No, not—” He exhales sharply, frustrated with himself, then looks away. “Not stop. Just wait.”
You nod, sliding your hands down to rest against his chest. “We can wait.”
“That’s—no, that’s not what I—I mean.”
“What do you mean?”
There’s no insult waiting on his tongue this time. Levi looks down at your hands against his shirt, at the simple intimacy of being touched without being grabbed or wanted without being cornered. He swallows. You watch the anxiety move through him, which might not be visible to anyone else, but it’s obvious to you now.
“I’m not…” He stops, then sighs. “I’m not inexperienced, but I’ve only done this once before. A… a long time ago. It wasn’t—” His mouth twists. “It was fine. But it wasn’t this.” Levi looks angry with himself for even saying it. “And now you’re looking at me like that.”
“Like what?”
“I—I don’t know. Like I’m—like you could break me.”
“I don’t think that. But you are nervous, aren’t you?” His silence answers for him. You lift one hand to his face, touching him with enough care that he nearly closes his eyes. “That’s okay.”
His laugh is barely a breath. “Doesn’t feel okay.”
“It is. I promise you.”
“I don’t want to be bad at this.”
You smile and brush your thumb along his cheek. “Levi, you’re not being graded.”
“That sounds like something you say before giving a bad grade.”
You laugh softly. “I’m serious.”
“So am I.”
“I want you,” you say, and your directness makes him freeze. “I don’t want a perfect version of you who knows exactly what to say or do. I want you. Nervous you, awkward you. A you who insults me because you don’t know how to flirt—”
“I know how to flirt,” he frowns. “I told you that you looked better than you did yesterday.”
“That is the worst excuse for flirting I’ve ever heard, baby,” you whisper. His ears turn red, and you grin.
“Shut up,” he mutters.
You kiss him again. His hand comes to rest on your waist, your fingers slide beneath his jacket, and his breath hitches when you move closer. Levi’s anxiety doesn’t just disappear, but his nerves settle under your touch. With your comfort, he’s able to move through them instead of having them stop him.
When you begin taking off his jacket, you pause, waiting. He nods once, so you continue, and the jacket falls from his shoulders. Levi catches it before it can hit the floor, and in a motion that stuns you, he turns, folds it once over the back of the chair, smooths the fabric out, then turns back to look at you.
You stare at him. He stares back. “What?” he says.
“Are you seriously folding your clothes right now?”
“I’m not leaving them on the floor like an animal.”
“Levi.”
“What?”
“We’re having a moment.”
“And I can have a moment and have basic standards too.”
You look at him for a second, then you start laughing, almost too loudly. It spills out of you before you can stop it. You don’t know what you expected, but you honestly shouldn’t be surprised that Levi Ackerman can be flushed, breathless, visibly aroused, and still be a clean freak.
“If you laugh at me right now, I’m leaving,” he mumbles.
“No, you’re not.”
“No… I’m not,” he says, irritated that he’s proven your point.
You catch his face in both hands and kiss him before he can recover, and that completely breaks his restraint. He grips your waist as he turns you and presses you back against the desk, enough to make you gasp and make his breath shudder in response. You feel him tremble once, or maybe it’s just you, or maybe it’s both of you. When you slide your fingers into his hair, ruining his neat parting, he makes a low, strained sound against your mouth.
“You’re sure?” he asks.
“Yes.”
“You tell me if—”
“Yes.”
He searches your face for any hesitation. “Don’t just say it because—”
“Levi,” you whisper, pressing your forehead to his. “I promise. I’ll tell you. You tell me too.”
He swallows, then he nods. He folds his cravat next, because that’s also non-negotiable, and you bite your lip so hard to keep yourself from laughing that he points at you and says, “Don’t.” You help him with your own clothes and he tries not to stare too obviously until you step closer and guide his hands to you.
“You can touch me,” you say.
He flexes his fingers. “I know.”
“Do you?”
“I’m not trying to be an idiot.”
“You’re doing fine.”
“I haven’t done anything yet.”
“But I trust you.”
Levi pulls you into the adjoining room—his quarters, a space you’ve only seen in glimpses before. He leads you there with your hand in his, fingers laced tight. The moment the door clicks shut behind you, you both stare at each other. You feel your heartbeat in your throat as you both begin shedding the rest of what you’re wearing.
Levi pauses, his shirt half-unbuttoned, eyes flicking over you with that same mix of hunger and hesitation that’s been building for weeks. “Can I… undress you?” He sounds like he’s asking for permission to breathe.
You nod. “Yes.”
He exhales, the sound shaky, and steps closer. His hands rise to your shoulders first, sliding your shirt off. He follows the path of the fabric with his mouth, soft kisses pressed to the curve of your shoulder, then the side of your neck. His breath is warm.
Then you feel the faint tremble in his fingers as they roam lower, tracing the line of your ribs, the dip of your waist, mapping you without looking. He tugs at the rest of your clothes, peeling them away until you’re bare before him. His eyes are dark and wide with want. He can’t believe that you’re real, that you’re here, that you want him. The anxiety spikes again, making his hands shake just enough that you notice.
You reach up, covering one of his trembling hands with yours. You whisper against his ear, “It’s okay, Levi. Breathe. I’m right here with you.”
You see his shoulders loosen by a fraction. He presses a longer kiss to your neck, sucking gently at the skin until a bruise blooms. He then pulls back to finish undressing himself. You don’t pay attention to where the rest of his clothes end up, because by the time they’re off, he’s guiding you back onto the bed, the mattress dipping under your weight as he climbs over you.
He doesn’t hesitate when he shifts lower and settles between your thighs. Without warning, he dives in, mouth hot against you as his tongue strokes in a long, slow lick. It sends a jolt straight through your core. You jump, a gasp tearing from your throat. Your hands fly to his hair, fingers threading through his locks and gripping tight. The sensation is overwhelming despite its lightness.
Levi pulls up immediately, concern flashing across his face. “Do you want me to stop?” he asks, then you see the panic overtake him. “I’m sorry, I should have asked first, I just—”
“Don’t stop,” you breathe out quickly, your grip on his hair easing but not releasing. “I was just surprised. It felt good—really good. Please, keep going.”
You see the relief wash over him. Something hungrier takes its place. He nods once, then lowers himself again. His tongue teases your clit in firm strokes, alternating pressure that makes your hips twitch upward. At the same time, one hand slides between your legs, fingers slicking through your folds before one presses inside, curling just right as he adds a second.
The combination is devastating—his mouth sucking and licking with growing confidence, fingers thrusting in a steady rhythm that gathers heat in your belly. Levi’s thoughts race. He wants you to feel good. He wants to make you fall apart—and it shows in the way he devours you. His tongue flicks faster over your sensitive bundle of nerves while his fingers work deeper, scissoring gently to stretch you.
Your moans threaten to spill out too loud, so you grab the corner of the pillow and bite down hard, the fabric muffling the sounds as your back arches. Levi notices, glancing up with a small, breathless laugh.
“Cute,” he says, the word soft and fond before he doubles his efforts. His tongue presses flat and broad, then flicks rapidly while his fingers pump in time. The wet sounds of it mix with your muffled gasps. Pleasure coils tighter and tighter, your thighs trembling around his head as he pushes you higher.
Your orgasm crashes over you in waves. Your body clenches around his fingers as you ride it out, hips rolling against his mouth. He doesn’t pull away, licking you through every pulse, drinking you in with appreciative sounds until the peak fades and you’re left panting. The pillow is still clutched in your teeth.
Only then does he ease back. He presses gentle kisses to your inner thighs before crawling up your body again. His lips find yours in a deep, lingering kiss. The taste of you is shared between you. He presses against you, hard and aching to feel you, but he’s content to just hold you close.
He trails kisses from your jaw down to the middle of your throat. You feel the rapid beating of his heart against your chest, matching your own. When he pulls back slightly, his eyes are dark and wide, but you can see the flicker of anxiety within them—the hesitation that he's been dragging with him the moment you stepped into his quarters.
“I want to,” he says. His fingers trace your hipbones. “But I don’t want to hurt you. I don’t—” He stops, clenching his jaw, searching for the right words that won’t make him sound as vulnerable as he feels inside.
You reach up, cupping his face in your hands, forcing him to meet your gaze. “You won’t hurt me,” you whisper. “We go slow. We stop if anything feels wrong. I trust you, Levi.”
The sound of his name seems to unlock something in him. He exhales shakily, nodding once, and shifts his hips to align with you. His length presses against your entrance. You feel the tremor that runs through his arms as he braces himself above you. He’s trying so hard to be controlled, to be careful—but you can see the strain in his shoulders and his breath hitching.
He pushes in slowly, and the stretch is intense. Your breath catches, back arching slightly as your body adjusts. He’s thicker than you anticipated, filling you almost overwhelmingly. Levi notices instantly and freezes, his eyes snapping to yours with panic.
“Are you—should I stop?” he gasps, already starting to pull out.
“No!” you manage to say, gripping his shoulders tight. You wait a moment, letting yourself relax around him. Then you let out a breathy laugh that’s half wonder and half sensation. “You’re just… you’re big. Really big.”
Levi scoffs, though the sound is strained and his face is flushed. “Stop exaggerating,” he mutters. He’s still holding himself perfectly still, afraid of causing you pain by moving.
“I’m not exaggerating,” you insist, squirming slightly beneath him, which makes him groan low in his throat. “I need a minute to adjust. You’re filling me up so much, Levi.”
The explicit confirmation completely breaks him. His face goes red—truly, deeply red, even coloring the tips of his ears—and he lets out a choked sound of embarrassment. He ducks his head down, burying his face in the crook of your neck, hiding from you. You feel the heat of his blush against your skin and his chest rising with mortified breaths.
You can’t help the small giggle that comes out. You thread your fingers through his hair, holding him close. “Hey,” you whisper. “It’s a good thing. I promise. Just… give me a second.”
He mumbles something unintelligible against your neck. His hands slide down to grip your waist. You feel the slight shaking of them. Even now, while he’s joined with you, he can’t shake his nerves. It’s almost endearing.
Once the initial burn eases into a pleasant ache, you wrap your legs around his hips and pull him deeper. “Okay,” you breathe. “Okay, move. Please.”
Levi lifts his head slowly. His expression is still flushed, eyes glassy with arousal. He searches your face for any sign of discomfort. When he finds none, he begins to move. His first thrusts are almost torturous in their gentleness. He rocks into you with shallow rolls of his hips, testing the rhythm and depth, watching your face carefully for any adverse reactions.
“You feel,” he starts, then stops, letting out a sharp breath. “You feel too good. I can’t—”
“Then don’t hold back,” you tell him, dragging your nails down his back. “Let go, Levi. I can take it.”
The leash around his neck snaps. His pace quickens, thrusts deepening as he loses himself in the sensation of you wrapped around him. The bed shifts beneath you, the frame groaning as he moves faster and harder. The sound of your skin meeting grows louder in the quiet room. He’s still trying to maintain some control—you see it in the strain of his neck muscles. But it’s slipping, eroding with every clench of your body around him.
You look up at him, watching the first bead of sweat forming on his forehead. His hair has fallen into his eyes. He’s beautiful like this—undone and desperate.
“Captain,” you whisper.
Levi’s eyes flash. He responds with a single, brutal thrust that drives the air from your lungs and causes you to throw your head back against the pillow. You cry out, hands flying to grip his biceps. Your nails dig in hard enough to leave marks.
He doesn’t apologize. He leans down, kissing you as he continues to drive into you. His tongue sweeps through your mouth, devouring, and you meet him eagerly. Your fingers tangle in his hair as he increases his pace. The kiss becomes messy, teeth clicking, breaths mingling in gasps. He pistons his hips, each thrust rocking the bed against the wall.
You’re his. That’s the only thought in his mind now, primal, washing away the last of his nerves. You’re here and you’re his and you want this, want him. He can’t focus on the kiss anymore, can’t split his attention between the taste of your mouth and the heat gripping him so perfectly. He breaks away with a low sound, forehead dropping to rest against yours. His eyes squeeze shut. He surrenders completely to the need pounding through him.
His hips become relentless, a rhythm that has you gasping and clutching at him. You feel the tension coiling low in your belly again. The friction of him drags against your walls, building you toward another peak. The sounds coming from you are embarrassingly loud—moans and whines that seem to echo. You instinctively raise a hand to cover your mouth, trying to muffle the noise.
Levi’s hand shoots out, grabbing your wrist before you can hide your sounds. He pins your arm back against the pillow, then does the same with the other. He traps both wrists in one of his hands above your head. His eyes open, burning into yours.
“Don’t,” he growls, voice gravelly. “Don’t cover your mouth. I want to hear you. Need to hear you.” He ruts in particularly hard, angling his hips to hit that spot inside you that makes your vision blur. “Louder,” he demands, practically begging. “Please, let me hear how good I’m making you feel. Let me—fuck—let me hear it.”
His words, the desperation in them, the way he’s holding you open and vulnerable while he pounds into you, has your toes curling and back arching off the bed. You let the sounds come freely, cries of his name breaking from your lips. He groans in response, a visceral sound of satisfaction. His free hand slides between your bodies, thumb finding your clit and rubbing in circling strokes.
“Levi—” you gasp, straining against his grip. “I’m close, I’m so close—”
“Cum for me,” he pants. His own rhythm falters slightly as his own peak barrels down on him. “Cum on my cock, let me feel you—”
The coil snaps. You cry out loudly as the pleasure crashes over you in waves. Your cunt clamps down on him so tightly he curses, a strained, filthy sound. He keeps thrusting through your climax, dragging out the bliss until his own control breaks.
With a final thrust, he buries himself to the hilt, his body locking into place above you. You feel him pulse inside you, feel the heat of his release flooding you as he cums with a ragged groan. He collapses forward, but catches himself on one arm. The other releases your wrists to cradle your face instead.
He kisses you messily as he empties himself into you, his hips giving small, involuntary jerks with each pulse of his orgasm. You wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him down. He kisses you through the falling peak, his tongue languid against yours now. When he finally pulls back slightly, his eyes are half-lidded and dazed. The anxiety has been completely washed away and replaced by something sated.
“You okay?” he mutters, thumb stroking your cheekbone.
You laugh and press a kiss to his jaw. “Better than okay. You?”
He huffs out a sound that might be a laugh. He hides his face in your neck again. “Yeah,” he breathes against your skin. “Yeah. I’m good. We’re good.”
When he pulls back again, you see the color high on his cheeks again. He slowly withdraws and falls beside you. The room is dark except for the grey light from the window. Levi lies stiffly at first—as if sharing a bed with you is somehow more intimate than the sex. You almost laugh again, but then you see the uncertainty in his expression.
You touch his bare chest, fingers stroking his skin. He looks at you. “You can relax,” you whisper.
“I am relaxed.”
“You’re all tense like you’re on trial.”
His mouth twitches, so you move closer, resting your head on his shoulder. After a moment, his arm wraps around you, tentative for half a second before it relaxes, drawing you against him.
“There,” you say. “Wasn’t so difficult, was it?”
“Tch. You’re annoying.”
“You like me.”
He’s quiet for long enough that you think he’s either asleep or just ignoring you, but then his arm tightens around you.
“Yeah,” he says.
.
Morning arrives. You don’t know where you are at first. There’s a strange warmth at your back, light pouring through at an angle that you usually don’t see in your room, the faint smell of black tea and clean linen, and an arm resting around your waist.
Then Levi shifts behind you, and everything comes rushing back to you so fast your only response is a small squeak. You remember the office, his confession, his stupid folded jacket, his mouth and hands, his body fitting against yours.
You turn carefully. Levi is awake, his hair slightly disheveled as his eyes fix on you, less guarded than usual. “Morning,” you whisper.
He stares at you for a few seconds, then, because he’s Levi and doesn’t know what else to say, he says, “You drool.”
You open your mouth in offense. “I do not.”
“You did.”
“I absolutely did not.”
“On my pillow.”
“You’re lying.”
“Badly, apparently, since you’re not convinced.”
You shove his shoulder lightly, but he grabs your wrist without the intent to stop you. He brushes his thumb over your inner wrist once. You look past him and notice his boots aligned near the wall, his pants half-folded on the chair beside it. Then, on the floor near the foot of the bed, you see his shirt. Wrinkled and abandoned and scandalously unfolded. Your eyes widen with joy. He follows your gaze, then freezes.
“Oh,” you say softly, “Captain.”
“No.”
“You left that on the floor.”
“Stop.”
“Like an animal.”
He groans and closes his eyes. You start laughing before you can help it, and he rolls onto his back with a long sigh. He knows it’s way too early in the morning for such nonsense. You know it too. Will you stop? Absolutely not.
“I—I was distracted,” he stammers.
“You? Distracted?”
“Don’t sound so happy about it.”
“I’m incredibly happy about it.”
“You’re lucky I love you,” he mutters.
Levi realizes what he said at the exact same moment you do. He opens his eyes, but he doesn’t turn to look at you yet. He stares at the ceiling, wondering if it’s possible to just disappear off the face of the earth forever. You turn toward him slowly, your grin widening and softening at the same time.
“You love me?” you tease.
His face changes in increments: irritation, realization, horror, resignation. “No.”
“Really? You just said it though.”
“I’m tired.”
“So am I, and I’m talking just fine.”
“Fine. Then I was… vulnerable.”
“That’s even worse for you.”
“Shut up.”
You prop yourself up on one elbow, looking down at him while your heart beats hard. “You love me.”
Levi stares at the ceiling, hoping it’ll fall on him and crush him at this very moment. Then, with a sigh that sounds like it was dragged from the very bottom of his soul, he reaches for you and pulls you down against him, hiding his face near your neck where you can’t see the color in his cheeks.
“You’re making this weird,” he says.
“It is weird.”
“Doesn’t have to be.”
“It definitely does. You insulted me for months because you had a crush.”
“I brought you tea.”
“You called me sloppy.”
“You were sloppy.”
“You also fixed my cloak. What was that about?”
“It was crooked.”
“And you told me my paperwork was tolerable.”
“It was.”
“Marriage proposal,” you whisper.
He groans into your shoulder. You laugh, smiling into his hair. Levi doesn’t tell you to stop, and instead just holds you there, letting the morning continue in all its noise and duty, while the two of you exist in the aftermath of your surrender to each other.
Levi still has no idea what to do with romantic feelings. They’ll remain inconvenient for now. Messy and, quite frankly, a nightmare. But when you trace circles over his shoulder and whisper that he’s the sweetest man you know, when you laugh softly against his mouth after he tells you not to push your luck, when your hand finds his beneath the blanket and he squeezes without thinking, he decides that maybe being terrible at feeling doesn’t mean he can’t learn how to feel.
After all, if you’re the one teaching him, he might just survive it.
