✆ voicemail oo2. leviparrish
– “ hey, uh, it's rowan. you probably knew that, since all my calls have been going to voicemail, but -- well, first, please hear me out. i promise i won't be long. just listen and then, i promise i won't ever bother you again. if that's what you want. i mean, you could probably still delete the voicemail and i wouldn't know, but now i'm just rambling and not getting to the point. the thing is, i miss you, levs. i miss you a lot and the last thing i ever wanted to do was have things end the way they did. you were so important to me and you still are, even though everything's a mess. you helped me out a lot in so many ways and it's not something i could just forget. i'm sorry if i made it seem like that. when i left it wasn't because of you. it wasn't because i thought any differently of you. if anything, you were a part of why i left. life dealt you a shitty hand, but you still got through it, so i thought i could too. also, i had this crazy idea that maybe we could get out together. that's not the point though. the point is that it was just me, not you. i was the one who got myself all messed up, y'know? i didn't know how to deal with it and i felt like i only had myself to rely on. it was shit, but i never meant to blindside you in the process. i wanted to finally leave my past -- the system, the drugs, my parents' addictions. everything. it was hard, but i couldn't let myself live that way. you weren't ever part of that past. ever. you were a part of my future. or at least that's what it seemed like during that time. i guess i didn't properly think it through and you can hate me for it if you want, but i do think that we're a lot alike. that's why i hope you understand. and i'd like to be there for you as a friend or even an acquaintance if things aren't quite there yet. i want you in my life if you'll let me be in yours. i do care about you and it was nice seeing you. really nice. i could say so many other things, but i don't want to annoy you or anything. or, i could be wrong about everything. maybe you actually don't care and none of it mattered. if that's the case, then i guess you can ignore all of this. it's just not the case for me and i hope you know that. i'll understand either way if you still rather not speak to me. i really do wish the best for you in so many ways. and i'm sorry. i'm really, really sorry. goodbye.”