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I'm rxhausted, but I can't sleep. I seemed to have forgotten what sleep is. To be comfortable in a state of rest and safety. To actually let go and feel like nothing bad will happen to you. I need that. someone teach me how to sleep.

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Secret:

I don't know if I can take this anymore...

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I should probably get up and do something with my life. But laying in bed just seems so much safer.

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So I suppose I should get out of bed now... I donno though... Its a scary world out there.

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How do I tell those around me that I don't want to die, when I think about is death? Maybe I am an enigma. A confusion. An illusion. People assume I am okay, when I am actually lost, alone and confused. These people who study in psychology cannot understand me, then how can I understand myself... I just want to slowly disappear in the hope that no one will look for me....

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Back to Aus... :(

I don't want to go...  Away from my beautiful girl. Who knows when I'll see her again... 

Back towards the shit of my day to day life in Australia.

Uni, Family, Heat, Responsibilities....

Wahhhh!

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Choerographing

I just managed to choreograph a dance in 4 hours. With a partner.. Gee, I'm amazing. :)

A little bit proud of myself.

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The Past.

Sometimes, I picture what my life would have been like if "the trauma" didn't happen. Would I be a different person? Would I still have the same friends? Would I still like the same things? Would I be standing in this exact moment?

I guess I'll never know...