“i never thought you’d be the one to break my heart.” + coliver
Quick note: This is gonna be canon divergent because I’m not caught up, and anyway, I write them best when I ignore the truth.
It feels like everything happens at once, before Connor can even process it, but in actuality, it takes months. As soon as it happens, it feels obvious, but it’s too little, too late.
He promises to see a therapist, to do anything Oliver thinks he should, but Oliver doesn’t budge. His bags are already packed in a corner. Connor’s closets and drawers look mostly empty, and his walls are bare. It only strikes him now how little he actually owns. The plan had never been to stay to Philly, just while he was in law school and then to leave to Los Angeles or New York or maybe even abroad.
They’re dreams of a version of himself that doesn’t exist anymore.
For months, he has felt broken and empty, unable to cry. But as Oliver stands resolute in front of him, he breaks down for the first time in half a year. He gasps, and it comes from deep within him, staccato and painful. His hands ball into fists, and he steps backwards until he feels the bed against the back of his calves and sits down.
Connor had wondered if the fog around his head would ever lift, but now that it has, he wants it back. He’d rather feel like a shell than this searing, belly-aching pain.
“Please don’t do this,” he begs, through tears. “I need you. I won’t make it without you.” It sounds like an exaggeration, but it doesn’t feel like one. He doesn’t even remember to eat half the time when Oliver doesn’t force him to.
Oliver looks like his heart is breaking, but judging by his posture, Connor can tell that he is no less resolute.
“I can’t watch you self-destruct if you refuse to help yourself,” Oliver says. “It hurts too much.” He steps forward and pushes Connor’s hair out of his face before pressing a lingering kiss to his forehead. “I love you more than anything.”
“I don’t believe you,” Connor spits. He knows it isn’t true, but he hurts so much that it feels unbearable, so it feels like the type of thing he should say. “I never thought you’d be the one to break my heart.”
Oliver withdraws. The hurt is written all over his face. “I should go.”
“Just stay one more night.” An image flickers into his mind of him delaying it, day by day, until Oliver gives up. But Oliver must know that agreeing to that is dangerous because he straightens his back as his face hardens.
“No.”
Connor begs until his mouth goes dry and his ears ring. Until snot runs down his lips and every muscle in his face aches. Until he’s nothing but a quivering mess, ready to collapse.
It’s only once he finishes that he notices that somewhere along the way, Oliver started crying as well. He goes to speak again, but the words tickle his throat, and he folds instead, coughing. Oliver disappears for a moment before returning with a glass of water, and Connor hates Oliver even more for somehow managing to be so nice, even as he’s leaving him.
“I’ll stay until you finish,” Oliver says, motioning to the glass and sitting next to him.
“What if I never do?” Connor asks, coughing between words. The dryness in his throat is overwhelming, and some of the water spills on him as he shakes.
Oliver just guides the glass up to his mouth and waits until Connor takes his first sip.
yoo my favorite female character thats like asking me to pick a favorite child but ok currently its hayden, so def teen wolf and /tagged/my face ALSO, this is such an adorable idea holy shit
Thanks!!! Hayden’s my baby tbh. I’m so scared about what’ll happen to her tho. You look like a princess ohmygod how do you do that????
Fancast: Cora
Species (teen wolf only): Banshee!
Affiliation: McCall pack
Family: Lydia (cousin)
BFF(s): Stiles, Scott, and Lydia
Male Ship: Scott
Female Ship: Allison
Short Story: You and Lydia had always gone to the same school, but were in completely different worlds. She was popular, you weren’t. She was social, you weren’t. You only had two real friends, Scott and Stiles. However, things weren’t exactly platonic between you and Scott. You had a big crush on him. But you never did anything about it because he was in love with Allison. You resented Lydia a little bit for what she did to your other best friend, Stiles. When she started being nice to you, you knew something was wrong. After you pried a little bit, you realized that Scott and Stiles knew what was going on with her. You confronted them and they told you everything they knew and apologized for not telling you. Then, the same weird stuff that happened to Lydia was happening to you! Eventually you and Lydia found out you were banshees. After Allison and Scott broke up, you and her started dating, but broke up because both of you were hung up on Scott. You were devastated when she died. You, Scott, and Lydia took comfort in each other. Finally, you and Scott got together! Now you fight against the dread doctors.
following?: no but ily | i am now | obvi | til the end of the line
compliment(s): shipping stackson obviously deserves a follow i mean what more could i ask for and also i was stalking your selfie tag and you are SO CUTE WTF i’m obsessed with your hair
