even the mighty must fall. | @truthfullyideal
Even before he’d finished talking, when he mentioned that she didn’t know what Kirynn was, she flinched. It was true: Kirynn was someone new in Katherine’s life. Looker had told her a bit about her, though, he never mentioned what Kirynn had told Katherine-- yet another person who refused to tell her everything-- and as far as Katherine was concerned, Kirynn didn’t have a reason to lie to her. To make up accusations, did she? Was it possible that... Kirynn had simply told Katherine those things in hopes she would confront Colress about them? Was she trying-- trying to pull them apart? She felt nauseous again. And with Colress turned around and walking away, she could’ve easily done the same. Hell, she felt like she needed to.
She stood there, silent, horrified at herself. Katherine prided herself to be someone who thought about others, and took them into consideration, but she hadn’t even thought that, maybe others weren’t comfortable sharing what their past was like. Unlike her, maybe others weren’t okay with the idea of spewing it all out to anyone who might listen. Just because she may have worn her heart on her sleeve didn’t mean everyone else did. And it was a good thing, too-- imagine a world full of Katherines. People who jump to conclusions, believe almost anything they’re told. She placed a hand on her arm and continued to stand. She wasn’t waiting for attention-- she just honestly didn’t know what to do next. And based on how it worked out last time she simply did without thinking, Katherine really wanted to weigh her options before moving a muscle.
Then there was the subject of River. The poor Espurr, he didn’t deserve to be in the middle of their argument. And he was a Psychic-type, Katherine could only imagine that he must’ve felt their emotions tenfold. Why was it always Katherine asking questions and mucking things up? She swore to herself she would get her jaw wired shut. At least she wouldn’t be able to do this anymore-- this was hell.
“A-at the least... I can help find River.”
She took a few steps toward him, following him more or less; whether that was stupid or smart she would find out in a minute.
“So-- then-- Kirynn... lied? Wh-why, why would she do that?”
Katherine probably sounded like a small child. But she was naive. She believed that if someone told you something, it was likely true. She saw no reason for Kirynn to lie to her-- as she would extend the same courtesy to her-- and yet, Colress had painted a very different picture. Part of her was relieved-- she knew Colress wasn’t cruel. She knew it and yet--... But the majority of her was a amalgam of other mixed feelings. Anger-- both toward herself and Kirynn, if what Colress had said was true-- sadness, that this situation had even happened-- and above all, confusion. She still never got a solid answer from either Kirynn or Colress regarding their past work relation. Or was that a fabricated lie, also, Kirynn?
As she took shaky steps forward in an attempt to be of some use, she realized just how weak she was without someone to tell her it would be alright. Just how weak she was when not even Colress was available to help her. Still, she accepted this. Katherine had, for better or worse, opened up a can of worms and she would see it through to the end on her own, no matter how she felt internally. Even if she just wanted to cry out of frustration, sweep this entire conversation under the rug and apologize to Colress. She refused to allow her emotions to dictate how this ended. After all, bad times, are simply just times that are bad.
