Last year I was pulling against everyone plus everything. I wanted my live back, I felt like this really wasn't reality, my problems aren't really there and everything will just go away. Did it? Nope. I pulled and pulled and nothing happen.
Why would anything happen? Both sides are pulling for what they want. Neither will give up, nor will it just rip in half. Besides who would want a rip piece having the whole thing is better. Right now, I do truly had what as happened to me, but it brought me closer to people who I've been fighting to get away from. Made me open my eyes and see that your life can be perfect one day and shit the next. But there is always a way out of it.
Anyways, my moral to my story is, even though we are fighting to change what we have done, sometimes it's better to leave it the way it was and change what is happening now.
Don't dwell on the past when the future can always be changed.