#life record

[asanoamane]

[secretlysilentrune]

Hi Tumblr 👋

这是我人生中的第一篇博客。 刚刚注册好账号，想试着在这里开启一些新的记录。 我是一个平凡又热爱表达的人，喜欢文字、图片、还有一切带点故事感的东西。也许会分享一些：

📸 生活里随手拍的照片

🎨 自己画的小图、配色练习

📝 偶尔的想法、碎碎念、梦境笔记

💭 可能还有一些关于成长和焦虑的杂谈

说不清未来这会变成一个什么样的空间，也许只是我对自己生活的某种存档方式。

🧠 想法零散但真诚。 📦 内容不定但会努力保持原创。 💬 欢迎路过的你留言或搭话，不管我们是否相识。

第一篇，就写到这里吧。 —— @你的用户名

[failed-prototype]

About my last year(2019) -part1

Well, I have to say it is not good.I feel stomache and heartache, sometimes.

To start with, I briefly introduce myself like following

My mom insisted me to give in my offer as a c programmer in a big and decent company last year when I graduated. Well, as you are a Chinese, parents and family play a veryyyyy big role in life decisions. So after so many scolding from my relatives and my parents’ colleagues and acquintances, I gave in.

I have to admit that during that time I am so weak that I gave in, I am really regret. So I have to move to my mom’s life design.

To simply describe that, emmm,is like this. My mom secretly got connect with the recruit guy in an insitution, or rather, a company. That place is like, you can study as a post graduate student and you must work there for several years. And the diploma is given by an unknown institution, not this one, which is not so widely accepted dipoma.

My mom secretly sent my cv to that recruit guy, during that time I am trying to find a job so I have too many cv. So I didn’t know that. When the recruit phoned me, I was astonished, as he said your cv is so good I am sure you can be here you’r surly be accepted as a post graduate student. 

Well, to speak that, I have to say that my parents and even my gradparents work in that company for whole life.(i will talk about that other day). so I felt like, everyone hoped me to be there, everyone greeted me to congradulation me as a post grad in the time I didn’t accept yet.

To bad, finally I accept.

I quit my c programmer job offer, with a sallary about 180,000 a year. that is a family’s hope.I really do not like that culture in Chinese culture, I think a person should decide he or she life by only him/her self.