#lifefic

[everemme]

Games

Word Count: 301

It was never meant to be like this, he thought. It was never meant to be a game where blood was a currency, where people scrabbled like animals at each other's throats. It was never meant to be so violent, so careless.

But it was, influenced by hands unseen. In many ways he regretted it, but in many ways he did not. Each betrayal, each death, each pair of blood-soaked hands fed the things above, fed Grian. It kept them at bay, sated at the low cost of a two months' worth of anguish.

There were consequences, he knew. Dangers to suppressing memories and acting as if nothing had taken place. There were dangers to throwing them back into the games, over and over again, triggering past memories to surface and letting grievances rot and fester.

It was fine, even if this wasn't what Grian had planned. Even if he had to watch those he loved get hurt. Even if it ruined him time and time again.

It was fine, he told himself. It was okay when he saw his friends back home, horror lurking just under their thoughts and in the depths of their eyes. It was okay when he noticed them constantly checking their backs for a threat unknown. It was okay—he had to keep reminding himself—when they woke up screaming and nobody could figure out why.

It was fine. It was all good when he dreamt of scorching air and ceaseless loneliness. It was all good when his hands shook in the dark of nights alone. It was all good when he found himself wanting more, to do it again.

He promised himself in the wake of the games. He would never do it again.

He would always do it again.

And again.

And again.

[entergore-blog]

5 years waiting[Part 1]

This is a story of what happens when I meet my girlfriend :)~ Today was the day, the day I would finally meet Katie. My bestfriend and other half. After five years of talking over the Internet, skyping, and snapchatting. She would finally be here. I got up and brushed my bright green hair. It was going to be blue, but it turned into a dye disaster. I put on my heavy steel makeup and Disasterology snapback then looked over at the clock; 5:33am. I quickly grabbed my keys and ran outside. Katie's flight landed at 6 and it would take awhile for me to get to the airport. *arriving at the airport* I parked my car, got out, and locked it. I took the path to the 'pick up section' and headed to Ward 7. I stood in a crowd of 22-30 people, but saw her right away. She noticed me and jumped into my arms. Her light body wrapped tightly around me. She jumped down and smiled. "Hi," I said, my voice cracking "Hi" she said, sounding even more nervous than me. We got her bags and headed to my car. Not many words being said on the way back to my house. I grabbed one of her four bags in my right hand and in my left hand I held her. We walked to my back door and marched inside. My dogs, Chonny and Yoda, greeted us at the door. My mom sat in the living room, watching the news, and sipping a cup of coffee. "M-mom," I studdered "This is Katie" "Katie!" My mom sprang up "so this is the girl that makes my daughter so happy!" My mom gently hugged Katie. I gave Katie the grand tour and introduced her to my dad. We went back up to my room and settled in. "Welcome home," I smirked then pecked her cheek. It was June and school was over, but I graduated in 2 days. Katie sat on the edge of my bed and picked a little black box off my floor. "What's this?" she asked softly "Needles" I made a derpy face a flicked my septum piercing with my right index finger "it's a lot cheaper to do it yourself" *later that day* We sat still in my bed watching TLC's My Strange Addiction, one of my favourite shows. "We should get to bed soon," Katie stated I agreed and led her to the bathroom where we did our nightly routines. We went back to my room. I locked the door and turned off the nights she slipped into my bed then snuggled into my chest. I woke up around six, still in my school routine. Then I grabbed my MacBook and began answering questions off tumblr. I was a pretty popular YouTuber, about 300,000 subcribers, so there were quite a few asks in my box. Most of which were about Katie. I started a post: 'Thank you all for the Katie-revolved questions :) she's here, and great. I promise we'll make a video ASAP. I love you guys, ~CaeFlame<3