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[thekirstenkhaye]

infinities x wormholes (Valentine’s Day 2020)

This is the post on Facebook that I privated there because I have a feeling that what I wrote on it is just too personal and if they want to know them, or just you know, know that much.. there’s no better place to read it and make sure they read them correctly, but HERE. So if you wanna know the content of the said post, just scroll down some more. Hihi.

It's wayyy past midnight here in the Philippines... Well, yknow, it doesn't really matter if it's Valentine's or not actually. I think one way or another, my husband deserves an appreciation post here on Facebook even if it's not at all necessary. One thing I've known and figured is that although it's such a cliche thing to say that "COMMUNICATION IS THE FCKIN KEY", no relationship is still gonna work out if your commitment to communicate is not built with trust and respect. It's been almost 5 years that we're in a Long Distance Relationship, kinasal nlng kami joskoooo hahaha but lo and behold we're still sailing the ship, no matter how undetectable its voyage is, what I think is important is that we both know and feel that we are moving.

Should I say something na nakakakilig pa ba? Or some freakin' heartwarming sheez? LOL. Let's just say that if you do actually know me and us as a couple, you would know how we've been nurturing the marriage. Like may natanggap ba akong valentines gift or what not, basta alam nang nakakaalam. If you don’t know, well I guess, you don’t know. HAHA. Wag na mag-assume pa, ano? I mean, we’re not in a perfect ship, but we're choosing every single day to do our best to keep its buoyancy as we continue in motion. And I thank God every day that I have a partner that has stayed with me holding its steering wheel.

sooooo eto na nga yung message, ahayyzz HAHAHAHAHA

Sorry Dayne if all you did is to understand my indifference before you went to bed. And thank you for ALWAYS being patient with my attitude coz I know, not everyone can (which has been proven and tested already haha) soo yeahh, through infinities x wormholes, eh? 😉🤗😘

Happy Valentine's Day! ❤️

PS: Also thanks for never failing to give me and whoever is around us a vivid memory of why I am laughing and my heart is full of mirth whenever I am by your side in the most genuinely innocent way possible 🥰

[thekirstenkhaye]

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Today had been a lesser stressing day because I got to finally get enough sleep from the all nighter I did to design my uncle’s wedding invitation. Plus, I already have a dress to wear on the event. And everything is seeming to come to their right places for the wedding on Monday. 

Speaking of wedding, while my uncle and his wife were talking with their wedding coordinator, I was on FB with my boyfriend and I couldn’t help but tell him how stressed I am with all the things I also have to deal with for the wedding. Actually I have always been venting on him all my frustrations since day 1 they told me out of the blue that I have to do this, to do that. Because yes, I know I don’t have a job, I don’t go to school but I do have productive things that I do everyday to keep my time not get wasted. Hence, being told to that I have to do things that instant meant to me setting aside all those things that I usually do which means I have to face setbacks at their finest after everything’s finished. I did not complain but of course I was hundred percent pissed off. Man, I am trying to do my best on curing my lazy and procrastinator self here!

Anyways, and thanks the gods, I finished everything that I was told on to do.

So like 2 hours ago, I was talking with my boyfriend and we got to talk about our ‘future wedding’, it’s not like we’re actually sure we’re really getting married soon but nevertheless it’s still a vision of something we would want to happen. Nothing big, nothing extravagant. But I love imagining the image of it.

Through this post, I want to remember: He said I wouldn’t get this stressed out on our wedding because it would be simple, with less guests (which I agreed on whole-heartedly because duh I just want to get married with the man I love and want to spend the rest of my life with, not to show him off to every person we know in our lives), and he’ll marry me and I don’t have to worry because it’s going to be me. And even though I would’ve wanted it to happen in my country or in Banff (which he actually told me about that I would love to visit and spend some time at), I couldn’t complain too when he said it would be fun in Las Vegas. I was skeptical at first because isn’t that a place where almost everyone gets married and like get divorced after? Or maybe it’s just me and my uninformed enough mind thinking that. I got to my senses and agreed with certain conditions. He agreed, that’s why I really want to remember this day if ever we ever get married someday. Because he agreed that after the wedding we would go to the beach or some lake with a nice view, right after the wedding. Like before we even go to the after party or reception, whatsoever. He agreed to not complain when I take loads of photos and put him in front of the camera. And you know what? With just that thought on the last sentence, I’ll be more than happy already. As long as it’s with my newly have been husband.

PS: I’m not that sure if all these would ever happen. But who knows, right? We may or may not end up marrying each other, but for now, I’m thankful that I know exactly what could really make me happy with a certain thing like A WEDDING someday.