I've noticed that my posts on tumblr continue to get longer and longer and longer. They tend to be little rambles about things that inspire me or things that motivate me, anger me, confuse me. Why does life have to be so hard? Why is the sky blue or the grass green? I find myself thinking a lot lately. That and doing laundry, cleaning my room, and watching Master Chef, wishing that I could be cooking in the kitchen. They way these people cook a pan seared steak is phenomenal. Perhaps someday my skills will end up that good. Right now I'm sitting in the library. The quietness brings me uneasiness. It's not the quiet I like to be surrounded with. It's interrupted by occasional whispers and pages turning. The quiet I like to drown myself in, is the quietness of nature. The way the grass rustles in the wind, or the birds chirping from their lofty peaks. I'm trying to get motivated to write. Write something, write anything. Specifically Galileo. The words don't come from my fingers easily and my brain is slaving away trying to find good bits of information I can write a paper about. I missed a meeting with a Professor this afternoon. My forgetfulness gets in my way of living the life I was called to lead. Forgetfulness, and papers. Speaking of leading a life of impact, I had an encouraging conversation with one of my girl friends. We haven't been friends long, but this particular conversation last night inspired me to reach for the stars. We read through Hebrews 11, talking about faith. God calls us to lead a life of impact, whether or not we see the light at the end of the tunnel. We talked about college, classes, our boyfriends, and how these things all tie into the plan that God had called us to pursue. Sometimes it's difficult for me to see the purpose in a higher education. I could start working at a store, not be in debt, and eventually get promoted, right? But then I think about my passions, my dreams. I can't buy horses or own my own business without knowing something owning a business, right? God's teaching me patience, and to be patient. It's difficult, and sometimes I wish things went my way in my own time. But God whispers into my heart, "Daughter, my love, be patient, I know exactly what I'm doing. I'm setting you up for a fantastic life. Just trust me, and through my Spirit I will guide you, and empower you to be able to do more than you can possibly think or imagine. The road may not always be easy, but just keep your eyes on me, and if you fall, I'll catch you. I'll heal your heavy heart, and bring you joy and life again. I love you with everything that I have and I can't wait to see what you can do through Me." The more I hear His whispers, the more I listen to His voice, the more comforted I am. I know that even if this isn't the right college for me, He'll bring me to it. I can't wait until the day He tells me that it's time to marry my best friend. It's so amazing to already know who that person is and how each and everyday, God's showing me why he placed the man in my life that He did. I can't wait to start my ministry and to be able to serve other people. While I am waiting for these things, I need to remember that God also needs me to encourage and inspire others right now. He doesn't want me to wait until tomorrow to start, He wants me to start today. This minute, this hour. I just want to make a difference, in one person's life. If I follow His lead, God's going to use me to do amazing things.