#lifewithchae

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One of these days I’m going to take myself on a vacation.

Put my email and phone on DND and just enjoy my own company. Go to a spa, meet new people, just be solely responsible for myself.

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Dark hues.

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Rambling// 5.4

I'm packing up these boxes one by one. I tried to make a home of this place, but I knew that it was all temporary. Though, I have memories in this room. Hangovers, crying, laughing with new friends. Cuddling with the one I love. I've grown in this temporary home. I've learned more about myself here. Lately I've been clinging on to the present a little more tightly than I normally would. Maybe because I was happier here. Not necessarily in this emptying room, but in the memories it held with it in this point in my life. I see myself during my initial move in, and I see myself moving out. How the furniture has changed to make me more comfortable. How the people have gone in and out, until eventually it was just me. It's just going to be me here, at the end of the day and I might as well get used to it. I might as well realize that this body I'm living in is the only flesh that will stay here. I can't make an enemy of myself. I can't keep building temporary homes out of people and places because people leave and circumstances change. So here I am. Packing up my stuff in a temporary home to move to a new location.. that doesn't quite feel like home. Truthfully my home is a person, but I won't be home for a while. What's going to happen next? I'm not sure yet.

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I didn’t lose myself in my relationship, but I did get comfortable with him by my side. That’s not a bad thing either. I just got so used to having that support every waking day, he never left my side and I never left his. I just have to remember how to go through a day without that contact. Those pop ups when he would come to check in me. I have to remember what made life so worth it without him. It’s crazy that I’ve been in a city all my life and one human being can’ come along and rock my world to its core. Leaving an everlasting impression in me that I can’t shake off. I know I’ll drive through the city one night and feel his presence everywhere. We were everywhere. I could travel the world with him.

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Can't think of a caption. But today was great 🔆

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So serious?

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I'm going to post some positivity since I'm kinda stressed right now. I'm very self conscious about my smile, and my hair, and my tummy, and my thighs.. but look how happy I am here. Posing, smiling from ear to ear .. body looking SNATCHED and swinging these faux locs however they please. No matter what like may throw at me, I'll still rejoice every day. These obstacles only make me stronger, so I'll take on every strong hold in my way because I was meant to get through. No one said this road would be easy. But I'll keep smiling through it all.