#lifewithh

[lifewithh]

"it's just a girl harmonizing with a fan"

actually it's the sound of me rocking my son back to sleep when the world is quiet and it's only the two of us

[lifewithh]

I think in 10-20 years when I look back, Purple Monkey and the music from the Handstand episode of Bluey will be the soundtrack to my memories of babyhood.

[lifewithh]

How do I tattoo the weight of my baby asleep against my chest?

[lifewithh]

I'm so tired. But someday I won't be able to hold you anymore, so for now I'll hold you just a little bit longer.

[lifewithh]

Sometimes I get so caught up in how big he's getting that I forget how little he still is

[lifewithh]

Last week I cried because I thought he'd fallen asleep on me for the last time without me realizing. Then yesterday he woke every time I tried to set him down. He ended up sleeping in my arms for three hours and I soaked in every minute.

Sometimes they know what we need, too.

[lifewithh]

I closed my eyes last week and had such a clear vision of him in my mind, a year from now, a little boy with a big smile running barefoot in the yard.

[lifewithh]

slow mornings sipping coffee, cleaning up blowouts, simmering beans, ohfuckitgotontheblanket, watching the wind in the trees