- Haikyuu Boys Making You Insecure
Includes: Tsukishima, Oikawa, Ushijima, Bokuto
Small Note: uhh- sorry for suddenly disappearing, I had family issues and soon forgot about this acc. Though now I’m starting to make a few stuff as I slowly come back, so here’s some light angst :D
You and Tsuki have been together for about a year now
You two first met when you were struggling on a test and he decided to help you… by cheating
He secretly passed you a pen with a paper of all the answers written on it
Ever since that encounter, you two kicked it off and started talking more
Tsukishima even tutored you on the subject you were having the most trouble on
Currently, school finals were coming up and you had to take a math quiz
Tsuki’s tutoring helped you with your confidence a lot but sometimes, you weren’t to sure about yourself
To gain some extra confidence, you decided to study your ass off
Tsuki also noticed that you were studying a lot more than usual but never mentioned it and went along his day
It was the day of the test and you were sure you were gonna get a good or at least decent score on it
Feeling embarrassed and losing your confidence in yourself, you decided to keep it a secret
However, your boyfriend somehow found out
Now Tsuki loved making snarky comments, no matter the person
That included even you but you would know that he was joking
This comment however, stuck to you
Feeling dejected and depressed about the score you got on your test, you decided to take your mind off of it and go home with Tsuki after school.
You tried your hardest to stay the same usual s/o you always were but Tsuki knew that you were putting up a face.
Once you two got to his house and went to his room, Tsuki decided to ask how your test went.
“It went good,” you lied.
Tsuki raised his eyebrow. “Do you mind if I ask what score you got?”
“I think I left my paper in my locker,” another lie but he didn’t have to know that. “May I use the restroom?”
Nodding his head, Tsukishima watched as you quickly shuffled away out of his room. Just by the look on your face, he knew that something went bad.
Curiosity got the best of him and he decided to check your school bag to see if you had your test. It didn’t take long before he found a crumpled up paper . When he unraveled it, he soon saw the math test… and the score.
Once you came back from the restroom, you walked in on Tsuki looking at your paper. Embarrassment washed over you as you tried to grab it but he raised his arm up so you couldn’t reach.
“Give it back! Please?” You pleaded as you felt your cheeks heat up.
“Damn Y/n, after all those tutoring sessions I gave you and the extra time you spent studying, you really wasted your time just to get a 25% on your test,”
“Give it back you jerk,” you gritted as you bit your tongue back from crying. However, you could already feel the tears welling up in your eyes.
“Y/n, your making me think you are stupid with this score,” tsuki snickered.
He’s joking, he always does.
You fought back the urge to yell and scream at him. Looking at the ground, you avoided his burning gaze. Giving up, you walked to your bag and started to pack up your belongings.
“What are you doing?” He asked but you ignored him.
Once you were done packing up, you walked over to the door of his room but he quickly got up, blocking your way.
“What’s wrong Y/n?” He asked, giving you back your test which you ripped out of his hands.
“Fuck off Tsukishima,” you spat as you finally looked up from the ground with tears welling in your eyes.
Tsukishima’s eyes widened at your sudden anger and tears. He then scoffed and looked away.
Just a joke. A joke that hurt you.
“Move out of my way. I’m going home,” You said as you watched him move slightly to the side.
“Y/n, come on, don’t leave because of what I said. It was obviously not meant to be taken seriously,” Tsukishima tried to convince but you wouldn’t budge.
“Oh yeah? Well I tried my best on that test,” you started with your fist clenched. “You saw how much I was studying. You KNOW that math isn’t my best subject and it made me self conscious but here you are, making fun of me. Now get the fuck out of my way, Tsukishima.”
Tsuki watched as you pushed him to the side and stormed out of his room and then his house. He was to surprised to even move, much to your dismay.
Tsukishima always joked a lot and even made snarky comments at some times. Though despite his pride, he knew that deep down, he fucked up.
He’s a ladies man, what do you expect?
You knew from the moment he asked you out, you would go through the wrath of his fangirls
And you were ready for anything
You were self conscious about yourself and his fangirls seemed to make it worse
He would usually console you and tell you that you’re the only one he sees, and you believed him
It wasn’t until one day, you walked in on a fangirl confessing her feelings to your boyfriend
Even worse, the girl does something that Oikawa doesn’t stop, and it made you pissed.
It was after school and you decided to head to the gym because you wanted to see your boyfriend practice. You told him beforehand so he wouldn’t get surprised by your sudden appearance.
However, when you arrived, he was nowhere to be found. Even his teammates were wondering where he was. They just assumed he was with you cause you are his girlfriend.
“He’s not with me,” you confirmed. “I just got out of class,”
“Weird, let’s wait another 5, if he’s not here, you’re gonna find him Y/n,” Iwaizumi informed, making you slightly scoff.
“Why me?” You asked as you put your hand on your hip.
“Uh- you’re his girlfriend?” Iwaizumi trailed off as he saw you sigh.
“Girlfriend, not babysitter,” you mumbled.
Five minutes have passed and your boyfriend was still not at practice. Mentally sighing, you went out on a mission to find him.
You look in the hallways, any open classrooms, and even outside. Still no sign. You’ve probably spent another 5 minutes just trying to find him.
Thinking that he finally arrived at the gym, you decided to return back. He was responsible enough to know that he was late, he was the captain after all.
“I’m sorry I brought you out here,”
The sudden sound of a girls voice made you come to a halt. Looking around, you saw nothing. That was until you looked behind a wall and saw a girl standing right in front of your boyfriend.
“Not another damn confession,” you groaned as you thought about walking away. That was until you heard your boyfriend’s voice.
“No no, it’s okay. Practice can wait,”
Now you were invested in the conversation. Oikawa hated skipping practice. Even if someone wanted to confess to him, he wouldn’t go. What made her so different from the rest?
Usually, you wouldn’t care about people confessing to your boyfriend. Whatever makes them sleep at night. It’s been awhile since you’ve felt jealousy and even worry bubble up in you. Even worse, the girl who was confessing knew damn well you were listening. You and her even made eye contact.
“I wanted to confess to you. Ever since I first saw you play volleyball, I was always fascinated by you Oikawa,” The girl bowed as she gave him an envelope with a heart sticker to seal it shut. Pretty cliché.
“Who cares about her,” the girl cut in, making you tense up.
“Excuse me?” Oikawa said, obviously surprised by the sudden change of tone.
“She doesn’t have to know about us Oikawa, don’t worry…” the girl then went closer to Oikawa and he didn’t back away. “You deserve better anyways, someone more… prettier, ”
You felt a pang in your chest. Like your heart has been shattered into little pieces. Your eyes widened as you saw her smirk, her eyes glancing over at you.
Deep down, you knew you weren’t the prettiest of the school. You looked decent but you didn’t care. Oikawa loved you for who you were as a person, though now all of that was crumbled into nothing.
“She won’t even find out, with that dumb little mind of hers,” smirked the girl as she wrapped her arms around Oikawa.
Oikawa froze up. “She won’t know?” He then looked at the ground. “Her looks can use some work…” he mumbled, though the girl heard clear, you didn’t hear a thing.
Your eyes widened even more. Was he actually considering it? Was this considered cheating?
When things couldn’t get any worse, they did for you. The girl leaned in on Oikawa’s cheek, standing on her tippy toes because she wasn’t as tall as him, then kissed him on the cheek.
“Sorry to interrupt,” you sourly said, getting out of your hiding place. “Torū, the team is looking for you, c’mon,”
“R-right!” Oikawa stuttered as he smiled towards the girl. “See you around!”
As the two of you walked away, you kept your eyes away from Oikawa. His smiling demeanor soon disappeared once the girl was out of sight.
“What’s wrong? How much did you hear?”
“I heard enough, thank you,” you spit out as you heard Oikawa sigh.
“I should have known you were the jealous kind of person,”
It was like venom dripped down Oikawa’s tongue as he spoke. Stopping in your tracks, you looked Oikawa dead in the eyes, tears threatening to fall.
“Me being jealous? I have a right Oikawa! She flat out kissed you and you didn’t stop her,”
“It was only on the cheek!” Oikawa argued making you scoff.
“On the cheek or not, nobody else can do that except for me! You’re digging yourself a hole and you can’t climb out,” you said, your tone harsher and louder than before.
“Don’t cause a scene, I have practice,” Oikawa mumbled making you even more mad.
This time, tears did fall down your eyes. Though, you wouldn’t let him see them.
“Oh so now you care about practice? But when that girl was confessing, you said practice can wait?? I’m disappointed in you Oikawa!”
Oikawa started to walk away as you stood still. Your legs didn’t budge. As much as you wanted to chase after him, you couldn’t. You lost him… he lost you.
For people who talk a lot
Despite your guys differences, you guys never broke apart because of it
Though, you have been thinking some thoughts
Ever since you were young, you’ve always been ignored and neglected
Now that you have someone who will actually listen, you take every opportunity you have to talk your heart out
That was until you overheard a conversation with Ushijima and Tendō talking about no one other than you
You had just got back from the convenience store with your friends. While you returned back to your dorm, you decided that you got to much food.
So, you decided to give some to your wonderful boyfriend, Ushijima. He wouldn’t mind you coming to his dorm this late. Plus, everyone should be at their dorms and not wandering around. Totally not you.
As you headed to Ushijima‘s dorm, you made sure that your snacks weren’t dropping. You really did have a hand full.
Finally, after a lot of walking, you made it. Since your hands were full, you couldn’t knock on the door. So to improvise, you were gonna use your head until… you heard something.
“How are you and Y/n? Things going smoothly?”
The voice sounded like Tendō from what you could hear. You wondered to yourself, why was he there in the first place. Though, that wasn’t the only thing you wondered about.
“Smoothly? Yeah we are. There’s just one thing,” a deep voice rang. You immediately knew that it was Ushijima.
“Oh yeah? What’s wrong?” Tendō replied as his full attention was on his friend.
“Y/n… she’s just, I don’t know,” Ushijima stuttered as he tried to find the right words. “Loud…
You felt a sharp pain in your chest. Like someone just stabbed you. Frowning to yourself, you looked at the snacks. Did he really think of that about you? Were you really annoying?
Just as you were gonna walk away, the dorm door opened and you were forced to stay.
“Y/n? What are you doing here?” Asked Ushijima after he opened the door all the way. “How long have you been here?”
You stayed quiet but sighed. Turning around, you shoved the snacks in Ushijima’s arms. Biting your lip, you kept back some tears.
“Do you really think of me like that? Annoying?” You replied as you began to back up.
“Well you can talk a lot and sometimes-“
“Shut up,” you spat out, making Ushijima tense up. “You don’t have to talk behind my back. If I was annoying you, you could have just said it yourself. Y’know, at my face,”
That’s when Tendō walked up to the door to see what was going on. He had no clue you were there. He just thought Ushijima went outside to do whatever.
When Tendō saw your hurt face, that’s when he knew that Ushijima screwed up. Backing up from the door, he minded his own business, even though he was quietly listening.
“Y/n, I’m telling the truth,” Ushijima argued making your run your fingers through your hair out of stress.
“And sometimes, the truth hurts Ushijima! You knew how insecure I was about this. I never got to speak as a kid and now that I have someone to speak to, they even don’t want to hear me,” you said, making sure Ushijima was listening to you.
Ushijima stayed quiet which made you want to yell at him more. Instead though, you turned on your heel and began to walk away.
“Don’t text me, call me, or do anything in that matter,” you harshly said as your figure disappeared.
Once you were gone, Ushijima walked back in his dorm and set down all the snacks. His face then looked at Tendo’s who was also frowning.
“Wait for her to cool down… then speak to her,” was all Tendō said before grabbing the snacks. “Im going back to my dorm, see you tomorrow Wakatoshi,” Tendō then left without another word.
“Bye,” was all Ushijima said before turning his attention back on the snacks.
You and Bokuto have been together for a good 7 months
When he first saw you, something in his mind clicked
As you two began to talk, his feelings for you began to grow
Soon, you found out what type of girl he likes
You weren’t any of those, you were skinny.
At first, you were insecure of it, but ever since Bokuto came into your life, you knew that it wasn’t a big deal
As long as you were healthy
Though, it wasn’t until one day, you walked in on Akaashi, Bokuto, and Konoha playing truth or dare during lunch
Lunch has started and you told Bokuto that you would be late. It was because you had to run to the library to retrieve a book that would help you with your studies.
You ate lunch with Bokuto, Akaashi, and Konoha. It didn’t bother you at all but sometimes, you would be skeptical of what they talked about. One time, you walked in on Bokuto talking about his childhood and how he hit his head on a brick one time.
Now back to the current situation. You were just walking back from the library and was making your way to the cafeteria.
When you arrived, you saw a bunch of people everywhere. It was more crowded than usual but you didn’t care as much.
So, you tried to get past the people but there were a lot of them so you had some troubles. Now it was becoming a bother.
The closer you got to the table, the louder you heard the boys talk. Apparently, they were playing truth or dare and it was Bokuto’s turn.
“Bokuto… truth or dare?” Asked Konoha.
“Hmm…” Bokuto thought. “Truth!”
Smirking, Konoha titled his head. “What is one thing you don’t like about Y/n,”
After hearing what Konoha asked Bokuto, you were invested of how he would answer.
“Uhm… nothing, I love everything about her!” Bokuto smiled making your heart flutter.
“Then what is one thing you wish y/n has but doesn’t,” Konoha asked, making Bokuto‘s face scrunch up.
Sighing, Bokuto lowered his head. “I wished she had more curves. I wished she wasn’t so skinney,”
“Wow.” You said as you finally got out of the crowd. “I thought you knew better Bo,”
All the boys looked over to you with wide eyes. Especially Bokuto who had guilt wash over him.
“Y/n, we were just playing truth and dare and I got asked-“
“I heard all of it,” you said as your fist clenched up.
That’s when you turned around and quickly walked away. Bokuto looked back at his friends, then ran after you who was already out of the cafeteria.
“Y/n, let’s talk this out,” Bokuto tried saying but you tuned him out.
Turning the corner of the hallway, you came to a sudden halt when you felt Bokuto grab your wrist. Still, you didn’t turn to look at his sorry face.
“Y/n, talk to me,” Bokuto pleaded.
“Talk to you? After you said that shit?” You growled back. “Bokuto, you knew how insecure I was about my body, you even comforted me when I wasn’t feeling the best about it!”
“We were playing truth or dare Y/n, it’s a game baby,” Bokuto frowned but you only scoffed.
“Only a game? Oh yeah, it’s only a game. Bringing up my insecurities and how you wished I was the type of girl you want,” you mocked as you began to walk away but was stopped again.
“Don’t tell me what to do, Bokuto,” you muttered making him let go of you.
“Y/n, please relax. It was a truth and…”
“And what?” You cut in. “You told the truth. I don’t know why you’re trying to defend yourself. You’re obviously in the wrong!”
Bokuto was about to say something when you lifted up your hand to slap his face. However, instead of it hitting him, it stopped right before it, hovering.
His eyes were still on yours. Slowly, you caressed his cheek with tears in your eyes. After doing that, you quickly turned around and ran away from him, fearing to turn around.
As for Bokuto? He stayed still. Even his own eyes were tearing up. He knew he was in the wrong but he just wanted everything to be okay.
“Y/n…” he whispered as he felt the lingering touch of your hand on his cheek.
