Dec 25, 2020
The thing i hate most about the way all of this trauma and stuff fucked up my brain is that I Know that you can retrain your brain to see things different and I can still learn how to interact with people and how your supposed to love people and when someone should apologize to you and when your being a petty dick about something but there's no book on that shit!!! There's no book and I'm too old for people to think to explain that to me.
#trauma#neglect#emotional neglect#my brain and me#its like im still a little kis i just got taller and god its so confusing#im superb at staying alive and managing myself by myself#but as soon as you throw other ppl in the mix i dont understand anything#like holidays#i like christmas just fine!!!#and i want to spend it alone#with my boyfriend and maybe our roommate#thats it#but hes really close to his family#so qe had to go over there early christmas eve#and were still here#i love them#i.think rheyre great#I DONT WANT TO BE HERE#why would i wajt to be in someone elses house on a holiday?#i dont want to answer petty questions about my family who i hate and they hate me but i cant Say that#i dont want to talk about politics or the news or corona#i want to sit and wear my funny hat and be high and watch cartoons and not have to spcialis#is it just me#am i just specificallu fucked up#maybe lmao
