#like stimming

[hearty-an0n]

they should make a version of creepers that dont die when they blow up

[simptasia]

a form of self care: imagining daniel faraday doing Autistic Things

[stimmywombat]

30 days of Autism Acceptance Day 1 (A Bit Late)

My name is Sarah. (I’m not going to post my last name because I like to keep my tumblr private). I am 22. I am self dx (though I have had a therapist confirm that I could be autistic. I haven’t gotten a formal diagnosis). I actually figured out that I might be Autistic last summer, My then girlfriend (it ended badly with her but that’s something for another time) was on the spectrum and I realized that I could really relate to a lot of her experiences with autism and one day I decided to go through the diagnostic criteria and I realized that I fit it. As I continued to do research and read a lot about the experiences of autistic people as well I realized that autism could explain a lot, (a lot) of my experiences especially my childhood experiences. I had always known that I was different, Suddenly with this realization, all these disparate memories made sense, I had always known that I was different, I was bullied a lot as a kid and my childhood involved a lot of concerned teachers wanting my mom to fix me some how. I remembered a lot of things.my mom trying to get me to look people in the eye when we were out in public, me having a fit for an entire day when I was 10 because my mom was trying to get me to wear a bra (sensory hell. I did my bra wearing time for 10 years and when I went to college I decided no more, my boobs aren’t that big. They can be free), the fact that I wouldn’t wear jeans until I was 10 because they were also sensory hell (despite being seen as super weird for it) and that one stretch in 6th grade where I went fuck it and just wore bought one shirt in 7 different colors and that was it, spinning in my room for hours, Having people explain to me how to respond to phrases like have a nice day and what’s up, rocking back and forth on my bed (unfortunately destroying a few mattresses slowly in the process sorry). It all was connected, all these things that I had just dismissed as me being weird or maybe there being something wrong with me. There was a reason for it. Autism also explains a lot about the current me, how I wear headphones all the time , how whenever I have to transition (like before I go on a trip or before breaks or before heading back to school or starting a new job) my anxiety goes through the roof, why I still stim by rocking (and many other things), how socializing can be exhausting for me, why I still don’t make eye contact a lot of the time, why I get bothered by the sound of a tv upstairs when no one else thinks its a big deal but still have to fake my way through most conversations with people I dont know (auditory processing disorder), maybe why I have anxiety (because I definitely have anxiety but I think alot of what I was interpreting as anxiety could be sensory overload), why I’ve found it hard to form relationships with people.

[crazyheronman]

If there is a sudden weird change in my personality now its because I'm trying to stop masking my neurodivergent traits so when it'll be easier when I can see a doctor to find out why my brain is built different Its been very hard because of trauma(if I displayed any of these behaviors in the past i'd be beat or screamed at), and I tend to annoy people when talking about my special interest or this weeks hyperfixation, and I cant handle rejection that well... but I'm hoping this might make it easier for screening, so maybe it'll be worth it

[trans-tsukihanemon]

You ever forget you're autistic and need to do autistic things to survive?

[catthey]

I had so much silly putty as a child and i just now got some as a party favor and its so great buy me more