Dec 17, 2022
Fellas is it neurotypical to treat large social gatherings as a psychological simulation where you are both the scientist and subject
#And when things go well it's like I won the simulation. And I either implemented or observed the right elements for a good time w/ x group#people are so interesting#it's not like people watching bc that's passive. Advanced People Watching ig bc I intend to act in the mix#Like I've been like this since I was a child doing a sociological study of The Boys and how to fit into their hierarchy as a 'girl'#But with social events you have the basic elements like music. Venue. Number of people etc.#Which is the foundation of the night. If elements are lacking ur gonna have to do some maneuvering to keep it lit#and then you add the people. Oh the people.#depending on location I tend to separate them into 3 rough populations: guys girls and gays#And it's so fascinating to see how they interact or stratify#And comparing the reception of peers vs the reception I receive I learn my standing and strategize who I'm around#seeing how the different populations receive me is so interesting. how peers interpret my gender#so I'm constantly collecting data on that#And when I pursue ppl successfully it's like The World Is All A Part Of My Game-meme. I win the strategy application prize#everyone else is dancing and vibing and I'm playing 4D chess conducting psychological experiments. And dancing#and all of this is very very normal#like super normal#everyone does this haha right? ...right...?#my posts#my additions#rambling#neurodivergent
