Jul 20
strange to look back at my childhood + teen years & remember how everyone seemed to just take it for granted that I'd grow up to be a mother someday. for a while I viewed it as an inevitable thing too. I obviously don't anymore, but I do think it's kinda fucked up that it ever felt inevitable like that.
#because apparently I was good with younger kids. maybe I was. I don't know#looking back at my own childhood I'm not actually inclined to believe any of the people that said that about me#because they thought they were doing a good job with me#like... hm..#oh but just.. I don't know! something so crazy about it all. y'know one of my brothers called me and our grandmas 'mama' when he was a baby#he had a different nickname for our mom so like.. he knew I wasn't his mom. but he called me mama. I would've been 9 or 10 at the time#I hated that he called me that. he didn't do it for very long but... why...#I still don't know what to think of it all
