Nah dude I'm the same way. I was a huge tomboy as a kid and then when I started questioning my gender I just ditched everything that was feminine. I felt like being agender meant I had to present myself as masculine for some reason, as if it were the default. Now I'm like "fuck yeah I love makeup and dresses and I'll be damned if I'm gonna hide my giant tits despite having literally no gender". I think people of all genders just feel guilty about liking feminine things. Not even sexually.
Thats the patriarchy propaganda for sure, being seen as girly is always Bad. Honestly I feel more comfy in more masculine presentation but still wanna be pretty and dabble, just wanna be able to project to the world I am Not A Girl