#limerence posting

[femaleavoidant]

being limerent is one of the worst parts of my avpd. like, on a logical level i know that my high school crush has long forgotten about me, but i still pine for him like i'm still 17. like a part of me is still stuck at that moment in time.

you know what is funny, i went to my laundry and there was an advert (poster) hung up with him on it. i wish i were kidding, the first time i saw it i thought i was having a mental breakdown. but he is involved in some local creative field, so there he was beaming down at me from the poster like some cruel joke. and due to covid the poster stayed up for literally 2 or so years.

anyway, avpd gave me brain damage, it really did.

[hereticallyeverafter]

yall I don't have anything to say I'm stuck in a limerence spiral

[theclumsysuccubus]

[femaleavoidant]

i‘ve been having dreams about him again. idk where this is coming from, probably deep from my subconscious or sth, because i‘ve long cut my losses and written him off. but then i dream about him. in the one last night i would even say i was semi-lucid. i kept asking myself, is this real? this couldn‘t possibly be real, while he held my hand and kissed my forehead. a war in my (delusional) brain lol 😭

[femaleavoidant]

i dreamt of my crush last night. that hasn’t happened in a very long time, many years. the fact that this perfect memory of him is stored away in my brain like that is terrifying. i wish i could forget about him properly.

i feel like such a creep even remembering him after such a long time. at the same time i‘m also trying not to feel shame, because even though i was never able to reciprocate his feelings for me, my feelings for him at the time were honest and pure. what can i say.