#lindumb

[yurinluck]

thats the last time i try to explain asexuality to a friend haha i just freaked him out and ruined the conversation.

i just want to be normal.

[yurinluck]

every aspect of my life is going to shit.

[yurinluck]

i see you in so many things, so many places, so many people. why can’t i just let you go?

[yurinluck]

i don't understand why the last seven followers i’ve gained have been nasty porn blogs :(

[yurinluck]

i suppose i should update yall about my life before i lose even more followers lel

first off, an apology. i know i disappeared from tumblr kind of suddenly with no warning. i have no proper explanation other than the fact that junior year completely swallowed me and i had to put all my focus into studying and extracurriculars. that, and i became closer with people irl so my attention was pulled from tumblr into the real world. i also became disinterested in anime, which was the main thing i was into when i used tumblr so i really had no need to stay on here. oh, and i deleted mobile tumblr from my phone so i couldnt check up on this site as much

i suppose i miss this website a lot since i met a lot of wonderful friends and the posts were cool until a lot of the website fell to shit. ive become more active on twitter!! if any of you still care about me, then ill be on twitter as @spindalee and i’d be so happy if i started talking to yall again ;; unfortunately, ever since my tablet broke, i dont think i’ll be making digital art ever again so if you followed me for that, im sorry. i rarely even doodle now yikes

oh right heres the actual life update: it is now summer break and i will be a senior!! idk if yall remember but i went to apylp, a conference for asian and pacific islander youth up in norcal, and i met a very special person there. his name is ian and he’s now my boyfriend!! THATS RIGHT YOUR TRADEMARK SAD SINGLE ASIAN GIRL HAS A BOY NOW IDEK HOW BUT GUESS I MANAGED TO TRICK HIM WELL ENOUGH. thats probably the biggest update i have of 2016; nothing really else happened lmao. but yeah hes the light of my life and i really like him so ye heh<3 okay thats all im out. i’ll probably still lurk on this site occassionally but ye

[yurinluck]

it is my birthday tomorrow

i am not expecting anything

[yurinluck]

prom night:

a) go to prom

b) hang out with other friends who aren’t going to prom

ERROR: friends are all hanging out with each other. choose option c)

c) take a lyft to the local bookstore and study for hours and then come home to an empty house until midnight

[yurinluck]

i have not used tumblr in a long time. i don't care if i lose followers but this is a big deal to me so i’d like to make a post about it.

homestuck ended and i just. I'm not into it anymore so the ending didn't have as big of an impact on me as it would’ve years ago. but homestuck has been one of the greatest influences on my life and has steered my path in a direction that would not have occurred had i never touched the webcomic. something that has such a great presence in my life, even when i denied it, even when i moved past it, has been with me for years. it’s shaped my entire adolescence and teenhood and allowed me to meet people and create art and so much more. it was something that i always believed, despite my rational side, would never end. but it’s ended. no matter how much i forgot about it and how much i’m not into it anymore, i cannot change the fact that it is one of the most important things in my life and forever will be. i feel as if a chapter in my life has closed. 

i know i don’t go on tumblr anymore. i’ve lost tens of tens of followers. i guess i’m just talking into the void about this? i feel as if i needed to make some sort of statement about the fact that something that has been with me for so long has come to a close. it is disheartening that i am no longer into the comic because the ending probably would have impacted me more, although it’s greatly impacted me right now. 12 year old me thought homestuck would be eternal and that it would be forever my greatest passion. 12 year old me was wrong, but i suppose in a way that she was right to some extent.

so long, homestuck. thank you for making me into the person i am and for allowing me to find both people and myself. even though you’ve ended, in some ways you have not. you spring eternal, and despite not having the defining charm of continually updating, you will continue to influence people in the future as they grow from adolescence to young adults. i know that you will touch them, as you have done to me, in a way that they will never forget.