I regret things. I am proud of these things.
Loving my feelings… whatever they are
Fostering my relationships with my family
How ferociously I honored my brother after his death
Doing Bodyful Mind work for 15 1/2 years
Transforming every devastating poisonous experience I have had into great medicine for me
My pride in myself is what rings out here. I feel proud of my life and everything I have done. I have stumbled and fallen and I have gotten up. Every. Single. Time. I am proud of that. And because that is my choice about how to live then every experience gets transformed into value. This is my choice. And this perspective and choice about how to live my life… is my greatest accomplishment.
Neglecting my god-child at the zoo
Being unkind… whenever I have been unkind, especially to my dear friends or family
Locking my brother and sister in the horse stall and every other mean thing I did to them
All the men I have obsessed over
Walking into that motel room with Ram
Not speaking of what happened in that hotel room for almost 3 years
All the time spent being disparaging about my body
All the time spent doubting myself
All the times I have wanted someone else to fix me, make me feel better
My regrets… are important too because the truth is that I would not alter any of these experiences. I trust their purpose, as painful as they were. I would not change them though if they occurred again, I would choose differently. Because I have grown and deepened my wisdom and shifted and changed my life. And then all my regrets become beautiful lines of experience on my beautiful face.