#lisaposting

[rowenagirl]

POV you are Lisa Braeden. guy you hooked up with when you were 19 keeps showing up at your door unannounced and sort of vaguely implying that he's going to be dead soon. And you're like oh wow Jesus Christ do you wanna come inside and have a beer and tell me what's going on and he stares yearningly at you for a moment and coughs and looks away and is like oh i wish i could but I have to go back my car. But don't worry i will protect you..... Goodbye...... and goes back to his car. and you're still standing in the doorway.

[ineirable]

sigh...she lisa on my frank till i...ok

og under cut :3

[pluralrorschach]

aunt in law roommate just said (im assuming to no one in partucular) "merry christmas to all and to all a good night" . ? lisa it is june 7th.

[dyke-terra]

Let’s talk about the Cleo-Abolish parallels, honestly.

- Ancestrally from Oakhurst and came in some capacity to pay respects to that blood line.

- Adopted by powerful parent(s)

- Lost their parent(s) at a young age

- Appears terrifying but doesn’t actually want to hurt people.

- Emotionally attached to the Doc

- Secretly knew about vampires the entire time and involved in an organization related to them

- Crash out about Apo

[il3x]

me and my girlfriend taylor and taylor's boyfriend brian and taylor's girlfriend rachel and rachel's one point four two five ton dog

[the-anemia]

it's okay, honey! It's just that there's something deeply, irrevocably wrong with you.

[buddyapologist]

lisa's cross necklace is so interesting to me. was her mother religious and it was a gift from her? was marty religious? was it a gift from someone else, not because they were religious but because they just wanted to give her something nice? was lisa religious independently of the rest of her family? did she just like the necklace?

it's entirely possible there's no religious meaning behind the cross and it's just a piece of jewelry but the implications of it if we assume it is explicitly a religious symbol are. well. devastating

imagine a girl, she's young, somewhere between 10 and 15, broken and battered and traumatized beyond all belief. and she finds god. she believes in god because she needs to believe that someone is watching her, and that if she is good enough, and she tries hard enough, she will be saved. she prays every night that god or one of his angels will take her away from this place, or make marty change his ways, or anything that will make the abuse stop.

but god and his angels never come. she prays and prays and tries to follow the bible's teachings and begs god to save her. nobody saves her. no matter how hard she tries. and she wonders if there's anyone up there at all, because who would see what happens to her and just let it happen? what kind of god would allow that abuse to continue?not one worth believing in. maybe there is no god.

maybe that's when she resorts to drastic actions, when she gets bernie to mutilate her, when she begs him to save her since god wouldn't. she lashes out because she's a scared abused child whose older brother ran away and left her behind and it haunted him for the rest of his life. and she hangs herself and believes she'll just be dead, but part of her still wonders if there's a heaven and a hell, and which one she would end up in, if they were real.

this all came out of me bc i was listening to inbred by ethel cain and the lyric "i'm not scared of god / i'm scared he was gone all along" is soooooooo lisa it hurts. what if you believed in god so deeply and believed so strongly that he would save you, only for years of pain to drag on and on. maybe he won't save you. maybe he was never there to begin with.

[rowenagirl]

speaking of hunting/dean's belief that civilians inhabit an inherently shallower more static level of reality. just remembered what he did to Lisa Braeden & it strikes me all over again how deeply violent it is to cut out and tear away a year of someone's life as though they won't be able to sense the hollow. but it doesn't occur to him that she would sense the hollow or value the experiences she had with him bc he believes her life when he's not on screen is just one long textureless dream in which linear time does not apply. post-s5 he is delivered to her so he can wait out the rest of his days away from the machinations of the plot, skip to the end of the story via vague domestic montage. as an action hero waiting to be martyred Dean spends most of his life up to that point in the present tense but to settle down with a woman is like using that woman as a shortcut to the Future bc he knows the camera will just skim over all the dull intricacies of domestic life and invisible montage will deliver him to death. it just doesn't occur to him that she will continue to exist linearly after he writes her out of his story.