Medication change
Over the last year I’ve been taking about 30mg worth of dexamphetamine a day (dex and lisdex). Yesterday I started the transition to methylphenidate after finding out that the country I’m moving to doesn’t allow either of the medications I’ve been taking. As with most medications it’s best to start at a low dose and ramp up. I’m starting on 20mg for a week. So far I hate it. Day 1: Severe lack of capacity to think. Doing anything was extremely difficult due to insane levels of lethargy and complete lack of motivation (to eat, go pee let alone do anything useful around the house). Day 2: Lack of motivation, slight anhedonia that’s shifted into a COMPLETE lack of enjoyment as the day has progressed. Now feeling so depressed it physically hurts , randomly bursting into tears. Not environmentally related. Negative self talk started about an hour ago and has been worsening. Weirdly I’m getting the warm top/back of head feeling that I have come to associate with increased dopamine. But only right after I’ve had caffeine? I also felt okay-ish in the morning before the medication would have started working.