Agusiakavsiakamsbshsika
I refuse to let this go, you have changed my sights and senses, and that’s not something you can shake. I breathe wonders about you, I dream your lips, I think your smile. That giggle. I saw something in your eyes that I can’t describe, but it looked mirrored. You say you’re not that good with following up with people, I would wait forever for that text back and that hint that I’m not crazy, this isn’t just me rambling on, there was something there. I didn’t imagine the heat of our touch, I didn’t dream our kiss and our night. Neither of us could even help it, we both laughed at our lack of thinking and the lack of control we both had. I’ve been doubting myself, but I can’t drop this, I can’t walk away, without suffocating anything I need to build a ladder to climb to the top of your walls, I need to call down to you and invite you to the clouds with me because there is nothing you need to be afraid of from me. I’ve never laid eyes on someone so beautiful. I have never felt the magnetic pull to someone like this. I have never looked at someone and forgotten everyone else in the room. I don’t want anyone else. I don’t want to talk to anyone else or look at anyone else. I want to treat you how you should be treated. I need to show you what love is. I need to be the first love. I’ve already been a first for something at least, I can at least say that I’ll be a milestone for you, always. You will always remember me even if it doesn’t go further. I still can’t believe I’ve been lucky enough to meet you and have all of this with you already. I am privileged, and you deserve me. You deserve my love and my care and my everything, you can have it. I promise I would never hurt you. No one with a face like that should ever cry or be upset. I would fight all of your demons, all of the shit in your life which I’m yet to hear about. I don’t need to break down your walls, I don’t want to break anything for you, but maybe I’ll convince you to open a door for me. Absolutely no pain should be brought to your life. I would gladly lay my heart beneath your perfect feet for you to stomp if this goes bad, you needn’t shed a breath of guilt or hatred for me. Because I want this, I am inviting the risk of having you and losing you just to have you. How did I ignore you in the beginning? How the fuck was I that blind to overlook you?!? I must be retarded. You snuck up on me, showed your interest which I didn’t notice at first but then you hit me like a bus. And now I’m fucked. I am just still so surprised I can even say I’ve had what I’ve had with you. I pray that whoever your soulmate is, that they treat you the way I want to treat you. You deserve nothing less than the entire world. These feelings don’t happen for nothing, that tension isn’t nothing, everything happened for a reason and you’re special. Please. Please be true.
Even in my drunken night, I found myself telling complete strangers about you.
