seen from China
seen from Mexico
seen from China
seen from United States
seen from Netherlands
seen from Pakistan
seen from Netherlands
seen from United States
seen from Algeria
seen from Italy
seen from United States
seen from Malaysia
seen from Russia
seen from Brazil
seen from Malaysia
seen from United States
seen from Sweden
seen from Spain
seen from Germany
seen from South Korea
Mommy and Daddy chat about you like you’re not even in the room, Daddy calmly explaining how far you’ve slipped and what he’ll be doing to keep you there, his voice full of certainty. You’re on the floor at their feet, drooling around your paci, clumsy crayon marks spilling over the page. You’re not allowed to lift your head, not allowed to speak, just sit there and let their words wash over you… reminding you you’re not in control anymore, and never will be. 🖍️
the little insists every frog she sees is related to me.
i have decided not to correct her.
our family is enormous now.
I don’t wanna pretend anymore… just ruin what’s left of me. I don’t want thoughts, I don’t want memories, I want my mind soft and empty, all grown up pieces erased. Turn me into your helpless little thing who can’t do anything without you. Make diapers feel natural… inevitable. Make my paci my lifeline. I want to giggle at nonsense, drool without noticing, and lose whole days in a fog of cartoons and cuddles. I want to forget how to function, forget how to speak, forget my own name if it’s not ‘baby.’ Rewire me. Condition me. Break me so sweetly that being a forever baby doesn’t feel like a punishment, it feels like the only thing that ever made sense 🍼
the little got her nails done today.
pink, obviously.
on the thumb, she asked for me.
i appear as if i had too many monsties. it’s perfect. very accurate overall.
i think being loved gently in these tiny ways changes a frog over time.
the little was away for 10 days.
i did not like it.
it was too quiet. i kept reaching for someone who wasn’t there. very embarrassing for me personally.
i thought about whether i failed as a caregiver. i still don’t fully know.
but she came back home.
she’s resting. i’m supervising.
i think sometimes that’s all you can do. stay nearby long enough for things to settle again.
was resting.
little needed me.
so i’m up.
that’s how it goes.
this is fine.
sometimes i need an energy boost to keep up with the little..
