#liveforthelaughter

[liveforthelaughter]

It's so hard to say goodbye

[liveforthelaughter]

Why am I always jobless. Is this a sign ? That I need to make my own business. Make my own money. But how I am suppose to do that if I don't have any tools to do that. To buy my tools I need money. Which means I need a job. I really don't want to work corporate though. Cuz it seems that they only care about money and if you smile enough. Because if you don't smile it means you are a bad employee. It means you are not doing a job. It means you are not being a girl because your male employee can do wtv he wants with his face but if you're a girl you must smile. Because girls look prettier when they smile and make people more comfortable when they smile. I just want to do something with food and get paid with it. I want to eat travel and be happy. is that so hard

[liveforthelaughter]

How am I going to go to new York with my broke ass

[liveforthelaughter]

Ok so I'm a bitch to my mom and I know that. It's just that every time I see her I just get horrible flashbacks of the name calling and shit. And I owe her an apology and should just forgive her for everything. But she needs to realize what she did and the scars will always be there.

[liveforthelaughter]

So my mom says that whenever I am disappointed in myself I blame others for it. But she can't give me an example. She says that I should be disappointed in myself . of what I said and their was silence. Why talk when you can't back it up.

[liveforthelaughter]

Coming to terms with what is going on with me emotionally. Is making things better. Makes me confident that things will get better. I really should exercise though. But meh I rather sleep then workout right now

[liveforthelaughter]

Can't even listen to Adele new album cuz i already reached rock bottom. And I don't need anyone to vocalize it. Even if your voice seems to feel my pain

[liveforthelaughter]

No friend zone can be lonely sometimes and liberating sometimes