#liveofourloves

[panticromantic]

Other blogs of mine

@liveofourloves is a more formal blog. I try to post references, positivity, and political junk on there. I also post about school and the occasional signal boost for those in need of donations.

@panticwritten is my art/writing blog. I reblog prompts and works I like here and sometimes post my own work. It’s mostly writing, but I’ll also reblog drawing refs and other forms of art!

I’ll add more as I finish revamping my other blogs!

[maddcastle]

No, you aren't the only one! Most of my daydreams break the fourth wall. The only paras that aren't aware of my 'two planes' of life are the ones that refuse to believe it or that it's easier to keep in the dark. My parame is totes just a super-powered version of me. I have daydreams that take place in other worlds, where most characters don't know about it, but most of them are completely aligned with real life so there isn't even a fourth wall to begin with in those ones lol

phew i thought i was being weird again haha!! anika and i both thank you for this insight 💙

[academla]

I mean most of the time you acknowledge if you're exhibiting unhealthy behavior, so I have no idea what the person is talking about? No one goes through life without making unhealthy decisions, especially not in college. You'll get through this, I believe in you! I would offer to help with editing and stuff for that essay and your other stuff you've been asking about in your posts, but I'm not sure if a high schooler would really be able to give very good input ^w^

Thank you for the message of support! Real quick, I love any help I can get. Honestly, I hate that there’s a level of “discrimination” between high schoolers and college students. Yes, with age and experience come certain skills, but I’ve met plenty of 14- and 15-year-olds who are in my college honors English class, or who are amazing editors, or way better than me at math. There’s a reason @theacademiczine doesn’t care how old you are to apply! So, you don’t need to help, but don’t ever feel like “I’m *just* a high school student, so I probably won’t be helpful.”

I agree though. It made me sad and upset to have somebody accuse me of glorifying unhealthy behaviors, because I really don’t, but more importantly I think it’s important to acknowledge that as you said, nobody goes through life without making unhealthy decisions, and college is kind of THE time period to make a bunch of terrible decisions and get your life back on track in time for higher education and a career, etc.

Do I pull all nighters? Only once or twice, but I do. Do I forget to take care of myself? All the damn time. Do I have a self-destructive streak that causes me to push myself beyond my limits? My mom literally called to lecture me about that this morning.

To talk about these things is not to glorify them. I dislike that people accuse very easily of glorifying things, because then it makes it seem as though if you just talk about your (normal) unhealthy decisions, then that’s bad, and you either shouldn’t make those decisions or you should suffer in silence. I poke fun at myself for those unhealthy behaviors (better than beating myself up) and actively work on them. Either way, I’ve had way more people tell me that my “realness” helps them, and only one anon who said anything negative about it. 

Also: my point in talking about how I struggle with mental illness and engage in unhealthy behaviors, AND how I do well in school is NOT to glorify it and encourage you to go beyond your capabilities, but rather to show that it IS possible to manage school and mental health. I struggle to find the right balance (that’s why I post about it, and I suppose why this person thought I was glorifying it), but I’m working hard emotionally and academically. Everyone should go at their own pace because we’ll all succeed; we just get there in different ways. But I just want to serve to remind you all that if I can fight and stay positive and resilient and motivated (even if it’s like 10% of the time), you can too.

[academiix]

Hey, just followed when I saw your post about going into high school this week! Trust me, freshman year sounds a lot worse than it really is. If you're having trouble finding anything, your school's office should have a map of the campus that you can find your classes on. If you have trouble getting to classes after the first couple days, talk to your teachers! Most teachers will make exceptions for you if the campus is really that big. You'll do great!

Ah thank you! Hopefully I can find everything the first day haha