#lizzardspeaks

[penandswords]

Update number 2 So On April 9th I was informed that My job of 5 years will be closing at the end of may. And I have a little Under 2 months to find a way to make up for the Loss of Income.

ON top of that DUE to the closure, My next few paychecks will be inconsistent. Which is only going to Stretch my finances even more than they already are, and add MORE stress with an emotionally and mentally overwhelming situation.

I am beyond heartbroken. I have been with this place for 5 years, My BOSS mentored me and hand trained me. I was READY to give this place another 5 years. So this sudden change has left me in a bit of a bind. As I have to find a way to make up for the inconsistent Paychecks, and ALSO figure out how to prepare for a sudden drop in income.

I am not normally the type to ask for money, but in this situation I am stuck bracing for impact, while also stuck making a bunch of decisions I wasn't planning on making in a short amount of time.

so in Anticipation for these changes, I have opened a tip jar up. If you can donate I will appreciate it greatly, and if you can't. I will Understand.

But please do NOT donate if you are also struggling financially. The Second I get back on my feet I will start sending people who have donated money back to people.

Link to Tip Jar can be found here.

What am I doing Currently?

I am currently working with a career advisor and advice from my boss and co-workers who've been in my field much longer than I have. I am planning to remain with my work place until the very last day, and that gives me under 2 months to form a plan.

I do Have a small outline of what my next steps are going to be, but these next 2 months will be rocky, and the path I'm leaning towards is going to come with extra expenses I was not anticipating.

As of this moment I am getting professional guidance to help navigate this unexpected change.

- I will update this post and Reblog as things change.

[leadthemissing]

Update

/I kind of fell off of the internet, and wanted to give you guys an update on what’s been going on with me.

Long story short, I'm in the middle of a mental health journey. It was a sudden decision to the point that I forgot to say anything.

As of right now my activity on here will be jumpy, there might be times where i’m very active, OR there might be periods of time where I don’t post anything at all. 

If you ever really need to contact me your best bet is to message me through discord. (I am pretty much always logged in)

Under the read more there is an even longer version, but I will warn you. If topics about depression or mental health bother you, Please don’t read it.

(There is not any graphic details or anything though)

Some of you may or may not be aware, but I struggle with depression. I have for years, but never really talk about it. (It’s part of the reason I disappear every now and again)

For the most part I do pretty well with keeping it managed, but every now and again I do struggle with it. In most cases I can pick myself back up pretty quickly.

Except this year, I noticed my depression was affecting me more then usual. For a number of reasons. (but we won’t get into those)

A few months ago I decided it was time for me to really get a grip on my mental health, so I decided to unplug in order to start my own mental health journey. And it’s been a JOURNEY.

I don’t know WHEN I will be done, but I do know I want to slowly come back here.

Except my activity will be very sporadic. There are going to be days where I post a lot, and then there might be big chunks of time where I won’t post at all.

Which also means threads will probably be lost. (I’m sorry in advanced for this)

But that’s it that’s what’s been going on behind the scene.

LIke I stated above it might be easier to contact me through discord if you need me.

[pathtothemissing]

Where The Hell Have I been?

I thought I had posted this up.... BUT APPARENTLY I did not. -clears throat-

I poofed again, and I WAS planning to make a post... I forgot. ANYWAYS. Long story short.

I took on a writing challenge where I was suppose to step away from fandom work, and Focus on personal wiritng projects. (outside of fandom work) and not only was no fandom work allowed... but  I was also suppose to do it by hand.  -so much hand writing-

THE challenge isn’t over officially until the end of May. So I won’t officially be back until june 1st.

Bright side: I have learned a lot, and I am READY to come back and put what i’v learned into my writing on here.

Sorry to anyone who has been waiting replies. I will get to them on june 1st when the challenge is over.

[wedonotblastoff]

shadcwball mentioned you in a photo

@wedonotblastoff PARDON .....?

/No joke! I have 3...4... Beyblade blogs! The fandom is really small now though! @rookierima @cupidsbey​ @petrovsergei​ @ralfjurgens​ are all me! (I rp in the old old old series though/

My blogs are pretty quiet though due to how tiny the fandom and activity is.

Beyblades was the center of My childhood alright! I can’t help it./

[drag0njax]

HELLO I am back again with another POKEMOn muse. (IT WILL NEVER END)

It is I Lizzard The one who said I wouldn’t make another blog (which we ALL KNOW THAT was a freakin lie cus here I am)

Any ways can you give this a like or reblog if you want to interact with my boy. Jax... He’s a good nugget with a big ego. (LORD help him)

This is a side blog follow backs will happen from @wedonotblastoff​

[penandswords]

Isn't it kind of God-moddy to have Rima trying to antagonize Endeavor? Or push him into anything for that matter.

/I NEVER said she would WIN, I just said she will TRY.

Also please know this is VERY dependent on WHICH Endeavor. She won't do it to every single one. (It depends on mun on mun conversations. BUT for those IT APPLIES To ;) You know who you are)

but no, It is not god-moddy. If she comes running in like that I have either cleared it with the mun before hand. ORRR there has been some kind of conversation in the past.

I would never just YEET rima at someone like that without knowing the other mun very well. OR Talking to the mun's of the muse she's going for. ;) /

[penandswords]

Contemplations FOR THE dash

AND please give me Opinions (maybe I will make a poll dunno)

SO I have gone back to the beginning of Rima's story, and I have considered when exactly she would leave home.

I know she is in her last year of middle school when she decides to bite the bullet and run.

The japan school terms are set up with 3 terms Summer Break is in part of july, and August (which is the bigger break) and then there is the Winter Breaks that starts Last week of December, 1st Week of January

Summer Break is the longest If she leave home then It gives her the most time to actually achieve something. the downside that also leaves a lot of time for her to be stagnant (which can be a good thing, or a bad thing depending on how I handle that) With such a big stretch her sneaking off isn't AS big of a deal. So it's easier for her to get away. But it would give plenty of time to handle logistics of her problem. Winter Break is the shortest. The pacing of that entry point would be faster since she would have 2 weeks to handle her business. and people will notice her absence almost immediately. The stakes are a lot higher with the Winter Break.

So, My question is should she leave during the Summer break? Or should she leave during the Winter break

Summer break or Winter Break?

Summer

Winter

Voting ended onMar 17, 2025

[penandswords]

-taps the mic until it SCREEEEECHES-

yeah i'm talking about health under the read more!

Long story short: I woke up feeling worse than when I did yesterday, and waking up a little more has only made me more aware of how bad I feel.

so my attention here will be limited.

(more details are under the read more)

SO turns out my stomach not cooperating with me, and my developing ear infection was indeed a warning I was coming down with something.

Now, My Ear is slightly swollen, and you can imagine the pain i'm feeling from it. (don't worry I actually get ear infections pretty often. I'm going to run out to the store later to try and get a handle on it before It evolves into an inner ear infection)

While I am able to keep food and stuff down now, I have traded that feeling for clogged sinus's and ear pain.

SO yeah. not having a good day.

Like I can handle the sinus's, and the upset stomach, but COME on body. Did you HAVE to give me ear pain?