The Tourist
I have no clue what I'm doing.
That’s the thought loop playing on repeat in my head, louder than the eighty thousand people currently screaming in the stadium outside. It’s a deafening, rhythmic mantra.
I’m standing in front of a full-length mirror in a locker room that smells like Deep Heat, hairspray, and the palpable ego of fifty grown men in spandex. My reflection stares back at me. I look like a superhero. I look like a million bucks. The black and yellow gear is tight, the Prime logo is plastered across my midsection like a corporate stamp of approval, and my hair is coiffed to aerodynamic perfection.
But behind the eyes? Pure, unadulterated terror.
It’s the impostor syndrome to end all impostor syndromes. I’m a YouTuber. I’m a podcaster. I’m the guy who filmed a dead body in a forest and had to claw his way back from the internet’s basement. And in about ten minutes, I’m supposed to go out there and wrestle Seth "Freakin" Rollins at WrestleMania. A guy who has been doing this since he was wrestling in high school gyms for a hot dog and a handshake.
I adjust my wrist tape, pulling it so tight my fingers start to tingle.
"Stop fidgeting, Mav," a voice cuts through the noise in my head. "You’re going to cut off your circulation, and then you really won’t be able to do a Buckshot Lariat."
I look up. YN is leaning against a locker, arms crossed over her chest. She’s in her gear too—silver and blue, looking like a gladiator ready for war—but she’s not on the card tonight until later. Right now, she’s just my cousin. She’s the only person in this entire building who shares my DNA, the only one who really knows the difference between Logan the Content Creator and Logan the guy who just wants to not die tonight.
"I’m not fidgeting," I lie, my voice cracking slightly. I clear my throat, dropping the octave. "I’m calibrating. It’s a process."
YN rolls her eyes, pushing off the locker and walking over. She’s smaller than me, obviously, but she carries herself with this wrestler’s gravity that I still haven’t mastered. I walk like I’m on a red carpet; she walks like she’s trying to crack the concrete beneath her boots.
"You look like you’re about to puke on your boots," she says, reaching out to fix the collar of my entrance jacket. "Breathe, Lo. Seriously. In through the nose, out through the mouth. Don't make me slap you."
"I’m good, YNN. I’m a Maverick. Mavericks don’t puke."
"Mavericks absolutely puke," she counters, her eyes locking onto mine. "Remember the chili challenge? Remember the flight to Dubai?"
"Okay, Princess, low blow," I mutter, finally letting out a long, shaky breath. I slump a little, the superhero posture fading just for a second. "Dude, he’s going to kill me. Rollins. He looks at me like I’m a bug on his windshield. He wants to embarrass me. And let’s be real, I know the spots, I know the choreography, but… I’m a tourist here. I’m a guest in his house."
YN grabs my shoulders. Her grip is surprisingly strong. "Hey. Look at me."
I look down at her.
"You are a tourist," she agrees, brutally honest as always. "But you’re a tourist who happens to be a freak athlete. You’ve got a forty-inch vertical. You picked up the basics faster than anyone I’ve ever seen in developmental. And that’s saying something since I was in NXT fro four years. You’re not a wrestler yet, Logan. Not really. But you are a performer. And that’s half the battle out there."
"The other half is getting punched in the face," I point out.
"You’ve been punched in the face before. You boxed Floyd Mayweather, for God’s sake. You can take a bump." She gives my shoulder a hard shake. "You don’t need to out-wrestle Seth Rollins. You can’t. If you try to go hold-for-hold with him, he’ll tie you in a knot and leave you there. I can tell you right now, his wife is the same way. You just need to out-spectacle him. You need to be Logan Paul. Loud, flashy, annoying as all get out, and undeniably athletic."
I nod, the logic piercing through the panic. "Be annoying. I can do that."
"I know you can. I grew up with you," she grins, a fierce, shark-like expression. "Go out there, make them boo you until their throats bleed, and then hit that Frog Splash so perfectly that they have no choice but to respect you. I’ll be right there at ringside. If you get lost, find me. I’ll steer you back."
"You promise?"
"I promise. Now get your head in the game. It’s showtime."
The walk from the locker room to the Gorilla Position—the area right behind the entrance curtain—feels like walking the Green Mile, if the Green Mile was lined with production assistants shouting about camera angles and pyro cues.
My heart is hammering against my ribs like a trapped bird. Thump-thump-thump.
I can hear the crowd now. It’s a low, ocean-like roar that vibrates through the floor. The announce team is talking, their voices amplified over the PA system, muffled by the curtain.
"And now..." the ring announcer bellows.
My music hits. The Maverick.
The reaction is instantaneous. A wall of noise hits the curtain. It’s a mix—maybe 70% boos, 30% cheers from the kids who buy my merch. But it’s loud. It’s passionate. They hate me, and they love to hate me.
"Go," the stage manager yells, slapping the curtain open.
I step through.
The world explodes. Pyrotechnics blast off to my left and right, the heat washing over my face. The lights are blinding, thousands of LEDs swirling in purple and gold. I throw my arms out, soaking it in, putting on the mask of arrogance. I strut. I bounce. I point at the camera and scream something unintelligible about being the greatest.
Inside, I’m thinking: Don’t trip. For the love of God, do not trip on the ramp.
I slide into the ring, hop onto the turnbuckle, and do the pose. Flashbulbs pop like lightning storms. I look down at ringside and spot YN. She’s standing near the timekeeper’s area, looking stoic, arms crossed. She catches my eye and gives a barely perceptible nod. You got this.
Then, Seth Rollins’ music hits.
The energy shifts. The boos turn into a choir of "Whoa-oh-oh!" The crowd sings his song. He walks out wearing something ridiculous—a lace suit with oversized sunglasses—and he looks like a god. He dances down the ramp, laughing. He’s not nervous. He’s playing. This is his playground; I’m just the kid who hopped the fence.
He slides into the ring and gets right in my face. He smells like expensive cologne and sweat.
"Welcome to the big leagues, kid," he sneers, not even waiting for the mic.
The referee holds up the belt. The bell rings. Ding ding ding.
And immediately, I have no clue what I’m doing.
We circle each other. My brain is scrambling through the weeks of training at the Performance Center. Lock up. Left arm over, right arm under. Head placement. Watch his feet.
We lock up. His strength is deceptive. He’s wiry, but he feels like a hydraulic press. He twists my arm, wrenching the joint. Pain shoots up to my shoulder. This isn’t the soft mat training; this is live TV. He cranks it. I yelp, flipping forward to alleviate the pressure, trying to kip up like I practiced.
I land on my feet, feeling a surge of pride—I did it!—and then immediately eat a dropkick to the mouth.
My head snaps back. I taste copper. The canvas rushes up to meet me. The mat is harder than people think. It’s wood and steel with a thin layer of foam padding. It’s like falling onto a carpeted sidewalk.
I scramble up, disoriented. Rollins is laughing. He plays to the crowd, conducting their boos like an orchestra.
"Is that all you got, YouTuber?" he shouts.
I check my mental hard drive. What’s next? The sequence. The sequence.
I charge him. I duck a clothesline. I leapfrog over him—my vertical leap saving me—and drop down. He runs over me. I pop up, looking for a hip toss. He blocks it, effortlessly, planting his feet. He looks at me, shakes his head, and chops my chest.
THWACK.
It feels like being whipped with a wet towel that’s been frozen. The sound echoes through the stadium. The crowd goes "WOOOO!"
I stumble back, clutching my chest. My skin is already burning. I look for YN. She’s leaning over the barricade, her eyes wide. She mimes an elbow. Elbow.
Right. I need to hit him.
I swing a wild haymaker. Sloppy. Amateur. Rollins ducks it easily, slipping behind me. He wraps his arms around my waist—German Suplex.
The world flips upside down. I see the lights, the rafters, the upside-down crowd, and then—CRASH.
My neck and shoulders slam into the mat. The air leaves my lungs in a violent whoosh. I’m staring at the lights, gasping like a fish out of water.
I can’t do this, I think. I actually can’t do this. I’m going to get paralyzed. I’m going to look like an idiot.
Rollins is on me, grinding his forearm into my face. "You don’t belong here," he hisses. "Go back to your podcast."
That sparks something. Not bravery, exactly. But pettiness. I possess a world-class level of pettiness.
I shove him off, scrambling to the ropes. I pull myself up. I’m wheezing. My chest is bright red. My neck hurts.
Rollins charges.
Instinct takes over. Not wrestling instinct—survival instinct. I drop down, pulling the top rope with me. Rollins, expecting a solid object, goes tumbling over the top rope to the floor outside.
The crowd gasps.
I’m alone in the ring. I have a second to breathe. I look at YN again. She’s clapping, pointing at the turnbuckle. Fly, she’s mouthing. Fly, you idiot.
The script says I’m supposed to dive. My brain says, Are you insane? It’s ten feet down.
But the red light on the camera is glowing. Millions of people are watching.
I hit the ropes. I rebound. I run across the ring. I step onto the middle rope, then the top rope, launching myself over the corner post.
For a split second, I’m flying. The noise fades. It’s just me and gravity. I tuck my body, flipping forward—a somersault senton.
I crash into Rollins on the outside. We both go down in a tangle of limbs on the thin black mats. The impact rattles my teeth. My hip bone smacks the concrete floor through the padding.
"Holy shit! Holy shit!" the crowd chants.
I lie there, staring at the underside of the ring apron. My whole body is throbbing.
"Get up," a voice hisses near my ear. It’s YN. She’s right there. "Sell the ribs, grab your side, and throw him back in. You’re doing great. He’s ready."
"I’m dying," I wheeze.
"You’re not dying, you’re wrestling. Get up."
I groan, clutching my ribs—which isn’t hard, because they actually hurt—and grab Rollins by his wet hair. I roll him back into the ring.
I slide in after him. The adrenaline is starting to flood my system now, masking the pain. I feel lighter. I feel... electric.
I go for the cover. One... Two... Kickout.
Rollins gets his shoulder up. I sit up, running a hand through my sweaty hair. The crowd is buzzing. They didn’t expect me to hit that dive.
I get to my feet, waiting for Rollins. He groans, pulling himself up using the ropes.
Now we enter the deep water. This is the part of the match called "The Heat." Rollins takes control again. He beats me down. He throws me into the corner. He stomps me. He puts me in a chin lock that feels less like a hold and more like a strangulation attempt.
I’m fading. The conditioning required for this is insane. It’s not cardio; it’s burst energy, over and over again. My lungs feel like they’re filled with cement.
"YN!" I yell, reaching for the ropes. It’s part of the act, but it’s also real. I want my cousin.
She’s pounding on the mat. "Come on, Logan! Fight up! Don't let him keep you down!"
Her voice cuts through the crowd noise. I feed off it. I feed off the hate from the guy in the front row wearing a "Logan Sucks" t-shirt.
I fight up to my feet. I elbow Rollins in the gut. One, two, three times. I break the hold.
He swings. I duck. I hit the ropes. I come back with a flying forearm. He goes down.
I nip-up. The crowd actually cheers. A confused, reluctant cheer, but a cheer nonetheless.
"Do the Buckshot!" YN screams.
The Buckshot Lariat. It’s Hangman Page’s move, but I stole it because I can. It requires perfect timing. A flip over the ropes into a clothesline.
I wait for Rollins to stand. He’s groggy.
I hop over the apron. I grab the top rope.
Don’t slip. Don’t slip.
I launch myself. I flip over the top rope. The rotation feels slow, heavy. My legs clip the rope slightly—a mistake—but I compensate. I land on my feet and swing my arm.
WHAM.
I connect. It’s not the cleanest lariat in history, but I take his head off. Rollins does a 360-bump, landing face-first.
I scramble for the pin.
One... Two... Th—NO!
He kicks out at 2.9. The crowd erupts. I sit back on my heels, eyes wide. That was it. That was the finish. Or was it? My brain is foggy. Did we change the finish? No, wait. He kicks out. We have one more spot. The Table.
I look at the announce table. It’s stripped. The monitors are gone.
Rollins rolls out of the ring, collapsing onto the announce table. It’s the setup.
I look at the turnbuckle. I look at the table.
I have no clue what I’m doing.
"Climb!" YN yells. She’s pointing to the top rope. She looks terrified for me, which isn't comforting.
I climb. My legs feel like lead. I step onto the bottom rope. Middle rope. Top rope.
I’m so high up. The stadium looks different from here. It’s a sea of faces. I can see the fear in the commentators' eyes as they scramble away from the table.
Rollins is lying prone on the table.
I pull out my phone. Because I’m Logan Paul. I record a selfie video from the top rope. "WrestleMania, baby!" I scream into the camera, tossing the phone to the ref.
Then, I focus.
Don’t rotate too much. Don’t rotate too little. Land flat.
I take a breath. And I jump.
For the second time, I’m flying. But this time, it feels like an eternity. I’m suspended in the air, arms and legs extended. The Frog Splash.
Gravity reclaims me.
I crash through Seth Rollins and the Spanish Announce Table.
The sound is sickening. Wood splintering, plastic shattering, bodies colliding. The impact knocks the wind out of me so hard my vision goes black for a second. Everything hurts. My ribs, my chest, my knees.
I’m lying in the wreckage. I can’t breathe.
"Logan!" YN is there. She’s leaning over the barricade, her hand reaching out but not touching me (disqualification rules). "Logan, sell it! You’re okay! Just sell it!"
I don't have to act. I am selling it because I am broken.
But I hear the chant.
"THIS IS AWESOME! THIS IS AWESOME!"
Eighty thousand people chanting. For me.
I roll over, clutching my midsection. Rollins is groaning next to me. We lock eyes. He gives me a tiny wink.
We got ‘em.
The ref counts. We both struggle up. The match has to end in the ring.
We crawl back inside. It’s the home stretch.
I go for a superkick. Rollins catches my foot. He spins me around. Kick to the gut. The Stomp.
He drives my head into the canvas.
Lights out.
He covers me.
One... Two... Three.
The bell rings.
I lie there, staring at the ceiling again. My chest heaving. Sweat stinging my eyes. The music plays—Rollins' music. He won.
But as I lay there, listening to the roar of the crowd, the panic is gone. The mantra—I have no clue what I’m doing—has been replaced by something else.
I just did that.
Rollins celebrates. He leaves the ring.
I struggle to sit up. The referee tries to help me, but I wave him off. I need to do this myself.
I roll under the bottom rope and fall to the floor. YN is there instantly. She ducks under the barricade (security lets her through now that the match is over) and grabs me. She puts my arm over her shoulder.
"You alive?" she asks, her voice tight.
"I think I broke a rib," I groan, leaning my weight on her. "Maybe two."
"You didn't break a rib, you big baby. You just got the wind knocked out of you." She starts walking me up the ramp. "But that splash? That was insane. You got incredible height."
"Did it look cool?" I ask, wincing with every step.
"Yeah. It looked cool."
We get to the top of the ramp. I turn back to look at the ring one last time. The crowd sees me turn. And this time, the boos are different. They’re respectful boos. They’re "we hate you, but damn, you’re crazy" boos.
I smirk, giving a little salute, and limp through the curtain.
As soon as we’re out of sight, the facade drops. I practically collapse. YN catches me, grunting with the effort, and lowers me onto a crate.
"Water," I gasp.
She grabs a bottle, cracks it open, and hands it to me. I down half of it in one gulp, splashing the rest on my face.
Production crew are clapping. The producer, a legend of the business, walks over and gives me a nod. "Good work, kid. Great timing on the finish."
"Thanks," I wheeze.
YN sits down next to me, unlacing her boots, preparing for her own match later. She bumps my shoulder with hers.
"So?" she asks. "Still feel like a tourist?"
I wipe the water from my chin. My body feels like it’s been run over by a truck. My ears are ringing. I have a massive bruise forming on my thigh.
"I still have no clue what I’m doing," I admit, leaning my head back against the concrete wall. "I was terrified the entire time. I forgot half the spots and just improvised."
YN laughs, a genuine, warm sound. "Welcome to wrestling, Mav. Nobody really knows what they’re doing. We’re all just throwing our bodies at the ground and hoping the other guy catches us."
She stands up, offering me a hand.
"Come on. Let’s get you to the trainer’s room before the adrenaline wears off and you start crying about your manicure."
I take her hand and pull myself up. "My manicure is fine, thank you very much."
I limp down the hallway, YN at my side. I hurt everywhere. I’m exhausted. I’m terrified of doing it again.
"Hey Princess?"
"Yeah?"
"When's the next show?"
She looks at me, seeing the spark in my eyes—the addiction setting in. She grins.
"Monday Night. See you there, Superstar."
















