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summary: you see your friend clark without his glasses for the first time. he looks⊠oddly familiar
content: clark kent invents what it's like to be a gentleman time and time again. reader finds herself in trouble quite a bit lol. title from superman by tswift of course. divider from hyuneskkami âĄ
Addy19 @Addison_Malii
Anyone else in Arkham District hear the evacuation sirens turn on and off? Was that a test or should I be running for my life lol
Mark đž @markusup
âł replying to @Addison_Malii
Thatâs what you get for living in âArkham Districtâ bro đđđ
cait (old acc got hackedâŠ) @batmanslawyer
âł replying to @markusup
donât speak on arkham district with metropolis in ur bio lmfao. i hope ur insurance covers ur house the next time superman drops a building on ur ass
Mari ⥠@mightycrabjoysluvr
âł replying to @batmanslawyer
superman haters can not be real. like damn do you guys hate joy happiness fun and rainbows too
cait (old acc got hackedâŠ) @batmanslawyer
âł replying to @mightycrabjoysluvr
are we forgetting the fact that heâs an ALIEN from KRYPTON? i donât care how hot he is i will take batman over him any day
Mari ⥠@mightycrabjoysluvr
âł replying to @batmanslawyer
a vigilante defender in my replies shitting on superman⊠i have really seen it all. bookmarking this tweet for when the police finally catch batmans ass btw
ââyou want some?â
âHm?âÂ
Clark sinks into the couch next to you, his weight tipping you closer in his direction. The edge of the bowl in his hand prods your side.
âYou really shouldnât hold your phone so close to your face. Youâre going to wreck your vision.â
You finally look up at him, unimpressed. âDidnât know you believed in old wivesâ tales.â
âItâs not a myth!â He insists. âPut your phone down. Weâre putting the movie on, and I know youâre going to complain when you donât understand whatâs happeningââ
âI donât complain, you liar.â
ââbut you do, and then youâre gonna beg me to rewind. But then youâre gonna fall asleep and ask me to rewind it again, but I wonât want to because Iâve rewatched the same part five timesââ
âThatâs never happened before,â you lie blatantly. It happened last week and he wonât stop bringing it up. You toss your phone somewhere onto his couch and ignore the look heâs giving you when you take the bowl from his hands. âYou made popcorn? Why didnât you say anything?â
Clark laughs, the sound full and warm. He drapes a throw blanket over your laps â one of yours that he stole from your apartment â and hands you the remote. âI did. You were too busy scrolling.â
âSorry.â You make yourself comfortable on his couch, pressing yourself into his side and stretching your legs out onto the ottoman. âI was busy doing some very important things.â
âSuch as?â he asks, watching you flick through his TV subscriptions. âOh, come on. We arenât watching that one again.â
You frown as you click past one of your favorite movies. âI was just looking at it.â
âIâm sure.â
You kick at his ankles and watch the dimples crease on his face. Itâs hard not to stare too long at the way he looks in the golden lighting from the TV. The blue of his eyes seems warmer.
âWhatever,â you grumble. âYou can pick. As long as itâs not that trashy zombie show you like.â
He takes the remote from you, leveling a look at you from under the frames of his glasses. âItâs not trashy.â
âWe can agree to disagree, babe.â
You fight the urge to laugh. You arenât sure Clark realizes it, but he has the same reaction to that nickname every time â he looks up at the ceiling, and then away from you as the blush creeps up his neck. Itâs even easier to see when his face is lit up like this, his sweet face tinged pink.
The two of you scroll through the movie and show selections in relative silence after. Youâre sitting close enough that you can nudge him in the side when you want him to skip something, and he does so with only some complaints. You make it all the way down to the romcom section before he breaks the silence.Â
He coughs. Then asks, âSo, what were you doing on your phone? Texting someone?â
You hum absentmindedly, inspecting the movie thumbnails. âI was reading through some Superman hate posts, actually.â
Itâs not the most accurate description of what you were doing, but you say it just to get a rise out of him. Clark would never admit it, but youâre almost one hundred percent sure that heâs a secret Superman megafan.Â
Thereâs a look that he gets in his eyes whenever he reads something about him. Itâs hard to place, but it kind of looks like heâs a little kid again, his entire face lit up with emotion.
He looks at you sideways, glancing away from the TV. âYou were,â he says, less of a question and more of a statement.
âKidding. Kinda. You know what people are like. Your friendâs famous, you know. People are going to scrutinize him no matter what he does.â
Clark clears his throat and his eyes dance back to the screen, but you know heâs only half paying attention to it now. âAnd you⊠do you agree with them? With what people say about him?
Something in his voice is odd. You sit up against the couch to look at him properly, though all you can see is his side profile.Â
On the screen in front of you, he clicks past the titles the second they load, uncaring of what heâs scrolling past.
âI think Supermanâs great,â you say honestly. You speak slowly, trying to gauge his reaction. The only change in expression you get is the slight twitch of his mouth. âDonât know why people complain so much about someone who saves lives. Like, who cares if heâs from Kirpton?â
âKrypton,â he corrects.
You smile. âRight, sorry.â
The slight tension in his shoulders release. âYou really think heâs great?â
âYeah.â You slip the remote out of his hands and click play on the first movie you recognize. Surprisingly, Clark doesnât complain. âHeâs gorgeous, too. You think you could introduce us? I hear his harem has quite the waiting list.â
He laughs, tossing the blanket back over your leg where itâs exposed. âHeâs not my friend, and thereâs no harem. And hopefully, you wonât be meeting Superman anytime soon.â
âWhy not? Donât want to mix your friend groups?â
He nudges your side, relaxing into his cushions again. His arms cross over his chest, and you try not to focus on the way his biceps pull against the sleeves of his shirt. âNo. If you ever run into Superman, it probably means youâre somewhere you shouldnât be.â
The two of you sit quietly with the weight of his words. Sure, heâs right, but youâre sure a totally normal Superman interaction isnât out of the realm of possibility.Â
You wonder if the superhero has a favorite coffee shop. And how he would even order from it if he did. Would he wait in line? Maybe heâd have a priority lane specifically for him on the roof.
âWait, what?â Clarkâs voice cuts into the silence. His features have scrunched up in confusion. âWhen did we agree on watching this?â
âItâs Saw.â
âI can see that.â
âI chose it when you were too busy talking.âÂ
âYou sure you want to watch this one? You remember what happened when we watched The Exorcist, right?â
âThe lights went out, Clark. What was I supposed to do, not scream?â
âI was sitting right next to you. Nothing was going to happen. If anything, weâd get possessed together.â
âThatâs so not funny. As long as nothing supernatural happens, Iâll be good with this one, I swear.â
He blinks at you.
âI swear.â
You wake up drooling on Clarkâs t-shirt.Â
Thirty minutes into Saw you were holding onto his arm so tightly that he put you out of your misery and put on National Treasure instead. The last thing you can remember is Nicolas Cage asking for lemon juice before the comfort of Clarkâs shoulder became too much to resist drifting off.
You untangle your legs from his to sit up properly, a different movie playing in the background. Much like you a few seconds ago, your friend is fast asleep, his head leaning against the armrest in a way that canât be comfortable.
His glasses are askew now, resting politely on his chest. You worry about the chances of them getting squished and leave them on the side table for him to find.
Itâs only then, when youâre staring at the black frames on the wood, that you realize something silly.Â
Youâve never seen Clark without his glasses on.Â
He often talks about how his bad eyesight is why heâs so adamant about wearing them. Youâve asked him once before about wearing contacts, and heâd said something about how he has sensitive eyes and didnât like them much.
You donât mind at all. He looks very gorgeous with them on, and you find it very cute how they fog up when he gets flustered enough.Â
Youâre grateful for the light of the TV, because it means you can still somewhat see Clarkâs face. You rub the sleep from your eyes to look at him, andâ
Huh.Â
You wonder if itâs normal to look this different without your glasses on. Sure, they can sometimes change the size of a personâs eyes, and losing a significant feature on anyoneâs face is bound to make them look a little different, butâŠÂ
Clark looks different. Still familiar, but undoubtedly different.
Itâs weird. The changes are so subtle you wonder if youâre hallucinating. The differences are written clear as day on his face, but it feels impossible to put them into words.Â
Is it the shape of his jaw? You donât remember it always looking so carved, and you would know, with how often you look at him. Maybe itâs the shape of his mouth.
Something in the back of your mind twitches, like a memory begging to come to the surface. Itâs a slight tension against your skull, a pressing feeling trying to nudge you in the direction of something.
You have no idea why you do it, but your hand moves without thinking. Your fingers thread through his hair, the same way you do when you tease him for looking like heâs just rolled out of bed in the morning. As you do it, the features of his face shift just so, andâŠ
Woah.Â
Clark doesnât just look familiar.Â
He looks exactly like fucking Superman.
You pull your hand away so quickly the joints in your arm protests. Clark shifts underneath you, his eyes twitching as he rouses from sleep. He pats the fabric of the couch before he feels you under his hand, and he squeezes your thigh when he does.
âYou alright?â he mumbles, voice rough with sleep. âWhatâre you doinâ?â
âNothing. I just woke up.âÂ
The sentence is true in more ways than one. It feels like youâre seeing Clarkâs face for the first time. How had you not noticed just how much he looks like the same man that saves the city for a living?Â
He blinks himself awake, and itâs like your heart flips. Staring at his devastatingly long eyelashes, itâs like everything becomes ten times clearer.Â
You werenât hallucinating â he looks just like Superman. Itâs uncanny.
He pats you as he sits up, still clearly in the last dregs of sleep. His words slur together when he asks you, âWhat time is it?â
âUh,â your eyes search the couch for where youâd ditched your phone earlier, and you find it on the floor next to the ottoman. Itâs covered in spilled popcorn from the bowl that mustâve fallen off Clarkâs lap during the night. âItâs two.â
The reminder is enough to make you yawn, and you rub your eyes to clear your vision. He leans over to the side table to get the lamp, and the room is filled again with warm light.
âGeez,â Clark says. âMy neck hurts like crazy. Is your back okay?â
You turn back to face him, and with the lights on you can see him a lot better. His glasses are back on, and heâŠ
Looks absolutely nothing like Superman anymore.
You must look a little surprised, because he stops massaging the back of his neck to scan you with his eyes. âIs everything okay?â
âHas anyone ever told you that you look just like Superman without your glasses on?â
The words land awkwardly.Â
Clark laughs, but itâs not real. He scrubs his hand over his jaw. âWhat?âÂ
âYouâŠâ It feels like youâve said something you really shouldnât have. âYou just look a lot like him.â
âOh,â he says. His hand rises to adjust where his glasses sit on his face. âThatâs funny.â
If he really thinks so, you arenât hearing much laughter from him.
You arenât sure why heâs so unsettled at the thought. Based on the limited information you have about him, Superman kind of seems like the perfect guy. Heâs kind, selfless, great with kids, andâŠ
Oh no.
Itâd been such a brief stint in your conversation â thereâs no way he remembers it. Itâd been a joke, albeit one wrapped in underlying truth.Â
âHeâs gorgeous, too. You think you could introduce us?â
Clark is one of the most rational people you know. Itâs no question that he knows you were kidding about that â hell, heâd laughed â but your technical confession is enough to make embarrassment rush through your entire body.
He seems completely upended by your comparison between the two of them. You stand abruptly, suddenly wishing you were anywhere but here.Â
âItâs late. I should go back to my apartment.â
Itâs not far. Few people in the world live closer to Clark actually, with your apartment being directly below his. When that dog heâs fostering is running around too much, you can hear his footsteps scurry above your head.
(Oddly enough, youâve never actually seen the dog in person, and Clark refuses to tell you what his name is, but youâre pretty sure heâs real.)
The furrow Clark gets between his brows is so deep you wonder if it hurts. âYou donât want to take the bed?â
You slip your phone in your pocket and start looking for where youâd kicked off your shoes. âNo, itâs okay. Your neck deserves a break from the couch,â you say, busy checking underneath the kitchen table.Â
Thereâs nothing there. You wonder if itâd be weird to leave without them.
Clark places one of his broad hands on your lower back before he passes your shoes to you. He is so irritatingly perfect it borders on unfortunate for you.
âThanks,â you say, quickly. Youâre even faster to slip them on, uncaring of the way the heels fold uncomfortably inward.Â
âHey. Hey.â His hand encircles your wrist when you turn away from him. Heâs frowning, eyes darting over your face like heâs looking for something. âAre you okay? You know I donât mind taking the couch.â
The smile that softens your expression is real. âSo selfless, Clark Kent. I just want to sleep in my own bed tonight. Thank you, though.â
He tries one last time. Glances furtively at the door, like heâs hesitant to let you go. âItâs late.â
You feel evil. It canât be ethical to turn down Clark when he looks like this, sleep mussed and soft and a little worried about you.
âYou can watch me walk to the elevator if youâd like.â
âIâll walk you downstairs,â he offers instead, opening his door for you and stepping out. âItâll help me sleep better.â
Looking at him waiting for you in his pajama pants and his wrinkled shirt, you wonder how you havenât proposed.Â
But when he leans against the doorway of your apartment downstairs, smiling at you with sleep in his eyes and telling you to get some rest, you come very close to it.
Your friendship with Clark Kent kind of started the same way â with him taking you home.
The Daily Planet is a block away from your office building, a much smaller structure with just enough windows that you can watch the next world-ending threat from anywhere inside. Once, you got to watch Superman save an entire floor of people in the building across from you before some creature gutted half the skyrise.
Youâve witnessed enough extraterrestrial villains to not be too surprised when you see them on the news, or catch a glimpse of them in real life.
The one thing you didnât expect, though, was to run into one from this planet.
Itâs late when youâre walking to the metro after work. Youâre barely half awake, exhausted after dealing with some data issue that had you and a few other people on cleanup duty late into the night.
Youâre digging around in your purse, searching frantically for your phone. To make a bad night even worse, you come up empty.
âShit,â you say under your breath, stopping to press your fist to your forehead. You remember it vividly, now. Youâd left it on the counter when youâd cleaned up the cup of coffee you spilled when you were dead on your feet.
You let out a few more curses under your breath as you continue walking, hoping that you didnât throw out that old alarm clock you found in your closet.
It happens a few minutes later, and itâs nothing like in the movies. Thereâs no anticipatory music, or a suspicious sound that makes you turn your head, or the hair on the back of your neck standing up. Youâve walked down this street countless times before, one well-lit by the street lights and store signs, and felt safe every time.
The universe gives you no warning. It only lets you make it three blocks before someone seizes your arm and tugs you into a damp, dark, Metropolis alley.
You donât have time to scream. A hand, grimy with sweat and something else clamps hard over your mouth, muffling any sound you couldâve let out.
Your back presses into the rough brick of the alley. You recognize where you are immediately â a small deli that you and your coworker frequent. You donât know how youâre going to tell her that youâre never coming back here ever again.
âIâm going to take my hand off your mouth. And youâre not going to scream, or lie to me, because I will stab you.â The manâs voice is thick and gravelly, almost as sharp as the blade he presses into the give of your stomach. âNod if you understand me.â
You jolt when he presses hard enough to nick your skin. The nod comes immediately after.
âYouâre going to give me all the money in that purse of yours, and your phone. I need your phone.âÂ
You glance over to your purse where it sits on the pavement. It mustâve fallen when heâd pulled you into this alley.
âTake it,â you say quickly, voice wavering with stress. You arenât going to fight with this man over chump change and your lip balm. âYou can have all of it.â
He ducks down immediately to reach for the purse, and sniffs out the money quickly. He shoves the few pathetic crumpled bills into the pockets of his worn out jeans, before turning his attention back to the inside of the bag.
You swallow, glancing towards the entrance of the alley. He wouldnât chase you if you made a run for it, would he?Â
Thereâs a sickening crack as your stuff hits the floor, and your daydream is crushed. The man is shaking his head, pressing his hand to his forehead, mumbling to himself in hushed tones.Â
You press yourself further against the wall, like the extra inch of space between you will save you.
âYour phone. I need your phone.â
Your tongue feels heavy in your mouth. You know he wonât believe you. Youâve never been more scared to speak.
âDid you hear me?â His voice shakes uncontrollably, his eyes narrowed to near slits. âYour phone. I need⊠You have to give me your phone.â
âI donât have it with me,â you choke out. Your hands curl protectively in front of you. âI forgot it at work.â
He turns the knife back at you, though his hand wavers. Spit flies from his mouth and onto the ground in front of you. âYouâre a liar.â
âIâm not lying, I swear. I swear. Please, you can take whatever I haveââ
Another voice pierces the silent street, one firm and so authoritative that both of you turn to look.
The man doesnât waste another second. He turns and flees down the dark alley, taking the few things of worth in your purse with him. You donât feel strong enough to move until heâs completely gone from your sight.
The adrenaline crash doesnât take long to set in. Your head feels light, like itâs filled with helium. You think thatâs why you donât notice yourself walking directly into the other person there with you.
The universe had been the reason why youâd gotten mugged, but the universe also brought Clark Kent into your life.
You had caught glimpses of him at your shared apartment all the time, your similar schedules meaning you often left for work and came back around the same time. Heâd held the door open for you a few times, and youâd seen him help some of your neighbors with their groceries before. Youâd always known he was nice, but you had no idea stopping crime was on his list of talents as well.
After heâd saved you from that man in the alley that night, heâd walked you back to your apartment.
He did the same the next night. And almost all of the nights after that, too.
It didnât take long for the two of you to become close friends, and for your lives to start merging together. Youâd invited him over for dinner as a thank you, and it slowly turned into a regular thing. You soon found yourself splitting your time between your apartment and his.Â
You really like Clark, and can barely remember life in Metropolis without him.Â
Thatâs probably why it feels so terrible to ignore him.
[4:29] farmboy kent: Iâll be running a little late today
[4:29] farmboy kent: White sent us out to Park Ridge and the train back is delayed. Iâll be by your building around 5:20
[4:33] you: No problem!! also no need to swing by today. my cousin invited me over to hers so iâll be in civic city until late
The message is marked as read a few seconds after you send it, making the next few minutes agonizingly long.Â
Around 4:35, Clark finally starts typing, only to delete his message. A minute later, he continues again.
[4:38] farmboy kent: Ok. Be safe
[4:39] farmboy kent: Iâll pick you up at the station later
[4:39] you: Are you okay with that? iâm not sure when iâll get back
[4:40] farmboy kent: Of course. Text me when you know what time your train will get in
You feel like a dick pressing the thumbs up reaction on his last message. What kind of person lies to Clark Kent?
You arenât even sure why you do it. Itâs probably the lingering embarrassment from last night â it was the closest youâve ever come to telling him how you feel about him.
So⊠maybe a Clark-free day is what you need.Â
You canât remember the last day youâve spent without seeing him at least once. On your days off from work heâd come by after his shifts, and even on days that one of you were busy, you would still show up at his place to say hello.
No wonder he makes you crazy. You havenât had a Clark Kent detox since the day you met him.
Surely all good friendships need time apart, right? Youâll just spend a day by yourself and when you see him again tomorrow, youâll be back to normal. There wonât be any more slips where you compare him to one of the most gorgeous people youâve ever seen, or where you tell him heâd be a great husband, or something friendship-ending like that.
Itâll be good for you. Tomorrow will be a great, much needed, neighbor-free day.
Youâre buying a paperweight for Clark when a building falls on top of the Metropolis Museum of Art.
The remorse from your little white lie followed you through every second of your Clark Kent boycott, effectively ruining it. Your plan was to head down to the park and enjoy the weather, but you found yourself making a quick detour to the souvenir store inside the museum.Â
Youâd come here with him a few months ago, and heâd seen the paperweight and loved it. It was a little glass sphere depicting Superman flying over Metropolis, and heâd almost bought it before reading the price tag. The guilt following you around now was enough to choke a horse, and you decided that itâd make for a great apology gift.Â
(Not that he was aware you were apologizing for anything.)
The crash of the building sends plumes of dust into the room, coating everything in a haze of white. The emergency sirens start their crying almost immediately, joining in what sounds like the actual crying of children on an after-school field trip.Â
You cough to clear your throat and find that even the air is saturated in thick dust, the cloud becoming even worse as more debris drops from the ceiling.
The roof of the museum is clearly trying its best, but it seems like the entire structure groans in protest. One of the overhead lights hangs precariously above your head, and you take a few healthy steps back from it.
Distantly, you can see the blinking red light that marks the exit. The cashier you were talking to a second ago makes a mad dash for it, ducking under a fallen beam while she does. Hordes of people crowd by the door as everyone rushes out, eager to flee.
The sun shines through the gaping hole in the museum made by the other building, and through the light it offers, you see it on the floorâ the gift youâd gotten Clark.
The little paperweight sits sadly on the tile about five feet away from you.Â
If you werenât afraid of inhaling too much dust, you wouldâve groaned. Thereâs no way youâre abandoning the thing after all this trouble youâve gone through to get it.Â
Against your better judgement, you move further from the exit to go and pick it up.
In the end, though, it doesnât matter.Â
Thereâs a strong gust of wind and a bright flash of light, and youâre outside again.Â
When your feet hit the pavement, you resist the urge to vomit. It feels like your stomach has been flipped inside out and then put back again. The dizziness makes you double over, but youâre braced by a pair of firm hands around your forearms.
Youâre halfway through a mumbled thank you when you look up.Â
You blink a few times to clear your vision. When nothing changes, youâre forced to wonder if you hit your head somewhere in the museum.
Standing in front of you, with his perfect hair disheveled and windswept, is Superman.
notes: theyre both losers LOL. thank u for tuning into my fic lmk if u enjoyed! :) i do have a part 2 planned bc i think clark kent deserves to be kissed
Strange Reunion| Dark! Baelor x Single mother! Reader x Dark! Maekar
Summary: Maekar and Baelor were shocked to see their sister, the reader, who had disappeared a long time ago. She looked exactly the same as they remembered her, and was holding a child she claimed was her own. You, however, were utterly confused, as you were from the modern world and have no idea who these men were, and how you got here.
"Where are you taking her?"
Your voice raises as you lunge forward, fingers clawing at empty air. The maid, a stern-faced woman in grey linen, has already turned her back, your daughter bundled against her chest like a parcel.
The baby's wail rises thin and sharp above the noise of the tournament grounds, then fades as the woman disappears behind a canvas partition.
Your life has fallen apart twice.
The first time, you woke up in a hospital with nothing. No memory. No name that felt like yours. No explanation for why the doctors smiled and told you that you were pregnant.
They sent you to a women's shelter after that. A small room with thin walls and a door that didn't lock properly. You stayed there for months, staring at a ceiling stained with water damage, trying to remember a life that refused to come back. Eventually, you stopped trying.
You got a job. Saved what you could. Signed a lease on a tiny apartment that was cold in winter and hot in summer.
It wasn't much. But it was yours.
Then came the baby.
She was born on a quiet Tuesday, screaming and angry and perfect. The nurses cleaned her up and laid her on your chest, and you looked down and felt the ground shift beneath you.
White hair. Not blonde, but white, like fresh snow, soft as cobweb. And her eyes, when she finally opened them, were a pale, strange indigo that didn't belong to any family you could remember.
You asked the doctors if something was wrong. They ran tests. Checked charts. Talked in low voices outside your door. No albinism, they said. Probably a genetic mutation. Rare but harmless.
But in the end, you accepted the reasoning, because she wrapped her tiny fingers around your thumb and wouldn't let go, and honestly, that was all the answer you needed.
For a while, things were okay. Steady. Safe, even.
Then you woke up here.
Here makes no sense.
A tournament field stretching out under a sky that's too bright, too wide. The smell of horses and dirt and smoke. Flags snapping in the wind. The roar of a crowd somewhere you can't see.
You were lying in the grass with your daughter in your arms, and before you could even get to your feet, men in leather armor grabbed you by the elbows and dragged you through the camp like they'd been looking for you.
Now you're standing in a tent that costs more than everything you've ever owned. Red and black silk for walls. A carpet thick enough to sink into. A dragon stitched into every surface, coiled around a sword.
And two men blocking your way out.
They are older than you. Brothers, clearly, though the resemblance lives more in their bearing than their features, one has white hair and violet eyes while the other has heterochromic eyes, one dark eye and one violet eye.
The man with silver white hair looks like he is about to explode.
"You have some explaining to do." His voice is low, tight, barely controlled. "Right now."
You take a step back, His eyes, violet, burning, hold something you weren't expecting. Not just anger. Betrayal. The kind that has been waiting years for a target.
"Maekar." The taller brother's voice is calm, as he steps forward, and his hands settle on your shoulders, warm, and steadying.
You flinch, but he doesn't let go. "There is no need to frighten her."
"Frighten her?" Maekar's laugh is ugly, incredulous. He takes a step closer, and you can smell wine on his breath, leather, the sharp tang of someone who has been sweating beneath armor.
"She ran off, Baelor. Years ago. Vanished without a word, without a trace, and now she appears out of nothing in the middle of a tourney field with a childâ" His gaze cuts to the partition where the maid disappeared, and something in his expression shifts, darkens, and becomes harder to read.
"âand looking exactly the same. Not a day older. Not a single day."
His voice breaks on the last word.
Baelor's fingers tighten on your shoulders. Forcing you to turn around and face him, he begins studying your face with an intensity, searching for something, recognition, guilt, an answer to a question he hasn't yet spoken aloud.
"Why are you shouting at me?" The words tear out of you before you can stop them, raw and ragged, fueled by the maternal terror of your daughter being carried away and the vertigo of standing in a place that cannot be real.
"I don't know you." You pull free of Baelor's hands and back up until you hit the tent wall. The silk is cold against your spine. "I don't know either of you. I don't know where I am. I don't know why I'm here. And you took my baby from me."
Maekar glares at you. After the anger drains out of his face slowly, like water through a crack, and what's left behind is worse. Confusion. Then doubt. Then something that looks a lot like fear.
Baelor's hands drop to his sides.
"She doesn't remember," he says softly.
Maekar's mouth twists.
"She's lying."
The words fall hard and flat between you.
Baelor does not look away from your face.
"No," he says quietly. "She isnât."
Maekar scoffs. "You've always been soft with her."
"I know when she lies" Baelor's voice doesnât rise, but something in it sharpens. "She looks to the left when she invents something. Her mouth tightens before she speaks. She cannot hold my gaze."
You realize, with horror, that you are holding his gaze now. Not because you mean to, but because you are too terrified to look away.
Maekar studies you again. Slowly. Carefully.
And then he smiles.
It is not a kind smile.
"Well," he says lightly, "if she has forgotten⊠we know how to remind her."
Your stomach drops.
Baelor's expression does not change, but something dark passes behind his eyes. Not surprise. Not disagreement.
Agreement.
"You were ours," Maekar continues, stepping closer. You press harder against the silk wall of the tent, but there is nowhere left to go. "Long before you vanished. Long before you decided to play at running away."
Your voice shakes. "I didnât run from you. I donât even know who you are."
"You are our sister," Baelor replies softly.
The word hits like a blow.
Sister?!
Your breath almost stops.
Maekar's hand comes down beside your head against the silk, trapping you between him and the wall. He doesnât touch you, not yet, but the heat of him feels suffocating.
"You were promised to no one," he explains. "Given to no man. Because you belonged to us."
Baelor steps closer on your other side. Not crowding you quite as aggressively as Maekar, but close enough that you feel surrounded.
"In the training yard," Baelor murmurs, "you stood at my side. You rode with us. You fought with us. The court whispered that you were more dragon than lady."
"And in private," Maekar adds, voice dropping, thick with something possessive and unashamed, "you were ours in ways no one else was."
Your heart slams against your ribs.
"No," you deny it with pure disgust.
But they arenât looking at you like men spinning a story.
Theyâre looking at you like men who have lost something precious, and finally found it again.
"You swore you would never leave." Maekar reminds you of something you don't remember.
"I. Don't. Know. You!" You repeat.
"You do." His voice cracks with fury. "You vanished. One night you were in your chambers. The next, gone. No horse taken. No guards bribed. No body found. You simply⊠ceased to exist."
Baelor's hand lifts slowly, hesitantly, as though approaching a frightened animal. His fingers brush a strand of your hair away from your face.
"You have not aged," he says quietly. "Not a day. We have as years have passed." His jaw tightens.
Your mind reels. None of this fits. None of it aligns with fluorescent hospital lights and social workers and a cramped apartment with peeling paint.
"I woke up in a hospital," you whisper desperately. "I didnât know my own name. They told me I was pregnant. I've never been here. I have never seen you."
Silence follows after you finish.
Maekar's eyes shift at the word pregnant.
"The child," he says slowly.
A chill snakes down your spine.
"She has the blood of the dragon," Baelor says before you can speak. "Anyone with eyes can see it."
White hair.
Violet eyes.
Your daughter's face flashes in your mind, bundled in the maidâl"s arms.
"She is mine," you say, louder now, something fierce cutting through the fear. "Whatever you think, whatever story you've built in your heads, she is mine."
Maekar studies you for a long moment.
"Of course she is," he agrees. "And if she is yoursâŠ"
His gaze sharpens.
"Then she is ours as well."
"No."
Baelor's expression loosens, but it does not ease your fear. "You were never meant to be separate from us," he asserts.
"Not in rule. Not in blood. Not in loyalty."
"Not in love," Maekar finishes.
"You donât own me," you say, though your voice trembles.
Maekar's smirk returns, "You always hated that word."
Baelor's hand drops, but he doesnât step away. "We do not wish to frighten you," he assures you.
"If your mind has broken itself to survive whatever happened, we will mend it."
The certainty in his tone is more terrifying than Maekarâs anger.
"And if it does not return," Maekar adds calmly, "we will simply start again."
"Start⊠again?"
"With you," he says. "As we did before. Day by day. Until you remember where you belong."
Your pulse pounds in your ears.
"I belong with my daughter."
Baelor nods, smiling at you as he plays with his rings.
"Then you shall remain with her."
You feel relief but it quickly dies as he continues.
You walked along the sidewalk amidst laughter, stretching out the time as much as possible before the group disbanded. You accompanied your friends to the bus stop, listening to their plans for the weekend and promising to send them the class notes. When the bus left and you were left alone on the street, the warmth of the interaction faded quickly, replaced by the cold Gotham air.
They began the walk back to the manor alone. They were in no hurry. You knew that even if you took two hours, no one would be waiting at the door to ask where you had been.
As you walked, you mentally reviewed your week. Bruce hadn't attended the awards ceremony at school, even though you had reminded him three times; Dick had called you "champ" twice in a row because, evidently, he had forgotten your name was Reader; and Tim hadn't even left his office in three days.
You could have been angry, but you weren't.
You remembered your mother. You remembered how she always said that happiness isn't something that happens to you, but something you decide. She was your example that, in a city that tries to sink you, the best resistance is maintaining a genuine smile. Thatâs why, when Dick greeted you with a generic nickname, you gave him a bright smile and asked how he was doing. It wasnât a fake mask; it was your decision not to let their lack of attention dictate your mood.
If they wanted to believe you were a simple, happy person who didn't notice anything, all the better for you.
Passing near an alley, you saw a couple of figures jumping between buildings. They were fast, professional. You recognized Jasonâs fighting style in the way one of them took down an assailant a couple of streets away. He always said he kept you away because you were "weak," but the reality was that you knew exactly who they all were. You knew the bruises weren't from domestic accidents and that the late nights weren't for partying.
You had simply decided it was easier to let them ignore you. If they thought you were someone distracted, you wouldn't have to give explanations when you "accidentally" moved Bruce's investigation filesâthe ones that seemed to be taking too much of his timeâor when Damian found his equipment sabotaged after being especially rude to you.
You continued your way, turning down a steep street that descended toward the city center. Just as you were halfway down the slope, a sharp scream made you react. A woman, startled by something strange, let go of a strange object that crashed directly into a baby stroller parked nearby.
The stroller began to roll downhill, quickly gaining speed due to the incline.
You didn't think twice. You tossed your backpack onto the sidewalk next to a stunned bystander. "Hold this," you said, already running.
You jumped into the street after the stroller. The wind whipped your face as you forced your legs to go faster. At a middle distance, you spotted something strange. It looked like a toy, a small stuffed animal-shaped creature, desperately floating in front of the stroller, pushing against the chassis with all its might to slow it down. The effort was futile, but the creature didn't give up.
You didn't lose your momentum from the surprise. The stroller was heading directly toward a girl crossing the street on a bicycle; the young woman had frozen upon seeing the danger approach.
A few meters from impact, you managed to reach the stroller. You lunged forward, grabbing the handle with both hands. To stop, you had to dig your heels into the asphalt. You felt the heat burning the soles of your feet and the smell of burnt rubber filled the air as you counterbalanced with your entire body. The stroller stopped centimeters away from the bicycle.
You took a breath, panting slightly. Looking down, the small winged "plushie" was gone. It had vanished into thin air the moment you secured control.
The mother arrived running, pale and trembling, and hugged her baby before showering you with thanks. Your backpack was handed back to you. "It was nothing," you said, forcing your best smile even though your feet were stinging. "Let's just call it my cardio training for the day. It's a good thing Iâm not one of those heroes who wear capes, or I would have tripped."
The woman let out a small, nervous laughâexactly what you wanted. You said your goodbyes and resumed your walk toward the manor. Your smile was still there, but your mind was already wandering. You had seen that creature. It wasn't an adrenaline rush. It was there, trying to help.
As you continued toward the entrance of Wayne Manor, turning over what had just happened in your head, you didn't notice that a small creature was floating a few meters behind you. The fairy followed you in silence, hidden among the shadows, watching your every step.
You entered the mansion with the usual echo of the foyer greeting you. You hadn't even finished crossing the threshold when Alfred appeared, as if he knew the exact second you set foot inside. His eyes dropped for a moment to your shoes, noticing the unusual wear on the soles, but he asked no questions in front of the others.
"Welcome home, Young Reader. Dinner will be ready in an hour," he said in a tone that only you could interpret as an "I'm glad you're okay."
"Thanks, Alfred. I'm starving," you replied with your usual smile.
At that moment, Duke rushed down the stairs, adjusting his watch and checking his phone with a frown. Seeing you, he stopped for just a second, just enough time not to collide with you.
"Hey..." Duke began, searching for the word in his mind. "Sorry, I'm swamped with something Bruce asked me for. We'll talk... later."
He gave you a quick look, one that said he truly intended to come back. You knew Duke was one of the few who made the effort; he would probably show up at your door before bed to try to reclaim those minutes of connection that the vigilante life stole from him.
"Don't worry about it, Duke! Good luck with that!" you shouted as he already disappeared down the hallway toward the Cave.
You walked up the stairs calmly, but as you turned the corner toward your room, you ran into the rigid figure of Damian. He stood with his arms crossed, partially blocking the way.
"You continue to waste your time outside these walls with insignificant people," Damian snapped without preamble, looking at you with a disdain that no longer affected you. "It is pathetic how you strive to fit into such a mediocre society. You are an embarrassment to the Wayne name, even if you technically do not carry it."
You held his gaze for a second, but not to challenge himâinstead, you offered your kindest greeting.
"Hi, Damian! It's good to see you too. Have a nice afternoon."
You gave him a quick wave and walked past him without stopping, leaving him mid-sentence. You didn't bother looking back to see his expression of contained fury; you knew your positive indifference bothered him more than any insult you could hurl.
Entering your room, you closed the door and let out a long sigh. You tossed your backpack onto a chair and collapsed face down on the bed, finally feeling the fatigue in your legs. You closed your eyes, thinking about sleeping a bit before dinner, but the rest didn't even last five minutes.
A bluish flash filtered through your eyelids.
You frowned and sat up in bed. The glow wasn't coming from the window or any lamp. It was coming from your bookshelf. The shelves began to vibrate slightly, and a pulsing light started to emerge from behind the encyclopedias and the books you barely touched.
You got up and approached with curiosity. The light moved like a living thing, pointing to specific gaps between the spines of the books. Following the trail, you began to move the volumes, clearing them out of the way as the light grew more intense, almost blinding.
Removing the last book, you didn't find the wooden wall of the back of the furniture. Instead, the space expanded. The light sucked you forward, and from one second to the next, the ground beneath your feet disappeared.
You stumbled and fell, but not onto the carpet of your room. Your hands touched something soft, like fresh grass, and the air that filled your lungs no longer smelled of the manorâs floor wax, but of wildflowers and something sweet, almost electric. Looking up, the ceiling of your room had been replaced by a sky of impossible colors.
You had arrived at a place you did not know.
Hiiiii! Coconut reporting in! âȘ(ÂŽâœïœ)
I have to admit that while I was writing this, I wanted to write two different parts and had no idea how to link them. So, I figured Iâd start with the "magical hero" transformation firstâI actually drew inspiration from two different seasons for this intro, though Iâm still not 100% sold on itâand then I'll dive into the neglect side of the story.
Anyway, this is just a draft, so I might end up changing it later <( _ _ )> Iâll figure it out as I go
à±šà§ Ę Ë đđđđđ đđŸđ: your best friend is unfairly gorgeous
the kind of gorgeous that makes strangers turn twice
luckily⊠heâs gay
so itâs harmless when he pulls you into his lap during movie night
harmless when he braids your hair while you rant about bad dates
harmless when he kisses your temple before exams
right?
à±šà§ Ę Ë đđȘđ»đ·đŸđ·đ°đŒ: friends to lovers, manipulation themes, emotional dependency, baby trapping, dirty talk, smut, mdni, multiple orgasms, morally gray, obsessive behavior, graduation, families, she has no idea, he has every idea, please read responsibly âĄ
à±šà§ Ë đ¶đđđœđđ đđđđ ⥠hi loves. i had some problems updating tbft, so i really hope the chapter content wasnât altered or deleted.... iâve been trying to update it since yesterday and couldnât, but now it finally seems to have worked!
this chapter isnât exactly how i wanted it to be because i lost my notes for the future chapters of this fanfic -.- so i had to write it based on what i could remember lol. right now iâm finishing the last chapter so i can post everything for you soon! iâll probably be posting the rest within 1 to 3 days, so get ready.
i also have new fanfics active on my profile, the soobin core era is still going strong <3 my asks are open, and if any request catches my attention, i might write it when i have time!
this chapter is the long one. the last semester. the pharmacy. the families. the final stretch before everything changes and neither of them fully knows it yet â well. one of them does. reblogs keep me breathing. i mean it every time ⥠tag list is open for this and all my other works. for now, thatâs it
xoxo, v.
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à±šà§ Ę Ë đđœđ đ đđ¶đđđŸđđ Ë Ędress â taylor swift, shameless â camila cabello, sweater weather â the neighbourhood, killer queen â 5 seconds of summer, love talk â wayv, call it what you want â taylor swift, i wanna be yours â arctic monkeys, peaches & cream â kai, love on the brain â rihanna, do i wanna know? â arctic monkeys, until i found you â stephen sanchez
January arrives like a door swinging open onto cold air â sudden, inevitable, the kind of thing you knew was coming and somehow still aren't ready for. Final semester. Last stretch. The end of something enormous that they've been inside so long it stopped feeling like an ending and started feeling like just the way things are.
The campus wakes up with a different kind of energy â quieter in some ways, louder in others. Seniors move through the quad with that specific expression of people who can see the finish line and aren't sure whether to sprint or stop and look around one more time. She feels it in her chest every morning: the particular anxiety of being almost done, which is somehow more terrifying than being in the middle of it. Almost done means having to figure out what comes next. Almost done means the structure she's been living inside for four years dissolves and something else has to take its place.
She doesn't think too hard about what that something is.
Soobin is already at the kitchen counter when she comes out most mornings â his things, her kitchen, this blurred arrangement that stopped being temporary somewhere around week three and never found its way back. Coffee made before she asks. Her mug on the left because he noticed she always reaches left first. The specific brand of creamer she likes on the second shelf because the first shelf gets too cold near the back and the creamer separates if it gets too cold and she complained about that once, months ago, and he has apparently filed it away alongside every other small detail of her existence.
She stopped noticing the small things. That's the part that matters â not that he does them, but that she stopped noticing, which means she started expecting, which means the absence of them would register as lack rather than normal. He built a floor under her feet so quietly that she forgot there was ever anything beneath her but his hands.
Thesis drafts take up most of January. She works at the dining table most evenings and he works across from her, his own pages spread, and they've developed a rhythm of productive silence broken by murmured questions and the occasional shared snack and the way he reaches over without looking to refill her water glass whenever it gets low. She's told three separate people that she works better with him there than she ever did alone, and she means it the way you mean true things â carelessly, without examining why it's true or when it became that way.
Beomgyu texts her one Thursday: you two are basically married. i'm sending a gift registry.
She sends back a middle finger emoji and doesn't show Soobin.
He already knows what Beomgyu thinks. He's known for a long time. He finds it useful.
The stress peaks in February the way it always does â deadlines compressing, every professor deciding this is the week to assign the difficult thing, her sleep getting thin and her temper getting shorter and the specific hormonal cocktail of finals-adjacent anxiety making her feel like her body is slightly too loud for her skin. She knows this version of herself. She doesn't like her but she recognizes her.
Soobin recognizes her too.
He shows up one evening with a heating pad she didn't ask for â it's not her period, just tension across her lower back â and a packet of the good painkillers and a container of whatever his mother used to make that involves ginger and enough warmth to soften the worst edges of a bad week. He sets everything on the coffee table without ceremony, drops onto the couch beside her, and pulls her sideways into him with one arm while he opens his own laptop with the other like this is just how evenings go now.
"You didn't have to," she says, already reaching for the ginger thing.
"Didn't have to do what?" he says, which is the only answer he ever gives to gratitude, which is the way he makes it feel like breathing â like something that just happens, like oxygen, like of course, why would there be any other option.
She eats the whole container. He doesn't comment. Just keeps working, one hand eventually drifting to her knee where it rests for the rest of the night, thumb making those slow absent circles she's stopped registering as anything except warmth.
Later â much later, the drafts put away, the apartment quiet â she ends up in his lap with her mouth on his jaw and his hands under her shirt and the particular urgency of people who've been sitting very close to each other for too many hours and have reached the natural end of the tension that produces. They've stopped discussing it. It just happens now the same way the coffee happens â naturally, without ceremony, an arrangement that suits them both. She tells herself this because it's comfortable. He lets her tell herself this because it's useful.
"Stay," he says against her throat, the word barely above a breath, which she understands to mean in my bed tonight, because she still sometimes retreats to the pull-out when the evening ends with them tangled on the couch rather than moving to the bedroom, a small preservation of the idea that this is still flexible, still a choice being made, still something she could step back from if she decided to.
She goes to the bedroom.
She always goes to the bedroom.
It starts with the condom conversation.
Which isn't really a conversation so much as a moment, a Tuesday night, the two of them already past the point of slowing down, his mouth on her neck and her hands in his hair and the drawer of the nightstand open where the condoms live, except his hand pauses on the way there and he turns his face against her cheek instead, voice low and careful in the way he gets when he's about to suggest something he's already decided on.
"I want to feel you," he murmurs, and the words land in the specific register he uses when he wants them to bypass her thinking brain and go somewhere warmer and less rational. "Just once. Just us. I'll get the pill tomorrow â the expensive one, the one that actually works. I justâ" his mouth drags to her ear "âI want to know what it feels like."
She should think about it longer than she does.
She doesn't.
"Okay," she breathes, which is the word her body has apparently decided is correct, and then his hands are moving again and the drawer stays closed and the particular desperate warmth of skin without barrier is enough to make the thinking brain go offline entirely.
Afterward â the warmth of him still inside her, both of them slow and wrecked and his face pressed to her shoulder â she thinks: tomorrow he'll get the pill, we'll be fine, this was a one-time thing because he asked so well and she was already too far gone to be sensible about it.
She doesn't notice that the drawer stays closed the next night too.
Or the night after.
What she does notice â weeks later, without connecting the dots she doesn't know are there to connect â is that the nightstand has been subtly reorganized. The things she reaches for most are at the front now. The condoms are still technically there, just toward the back, under some things, slightly less immediately available. She assumes she moved them herself.
She didn't.
He goes to the pharmacy on a Wednesday morning while she's in her 9am lecture.
He knows her schedule. He always knows her schedule.
He takes his time in the aisle â this is not a trip he makes carelessly, this is a trip he has thought about since the baby clothes in the mall, since he felt something unlock in his chest standing behind her at that shop window, since he looked at the tiny Eevee paw shoes and thought: I want this, and the wanting arrived so clean and certain that it frightened him briefly before it didn't anymore.
He picks up her period products first â the right ones, the specific brand she likes, the overnight pads she always forgets to buy herself, the liners because she mentioned once being caught without them. Sets them in the basket.
Then he takes his time with the vitamins.
Prenatal vitamins, it turns out, look remarkably like regular women's health supplements. Same aisle. Similar packaging. He picks up two bottles â compares them with the ones she already takes, the ones she keeps on the bathroom shelf â and selects the ones closest in appearance to her regular brand. Same amber bottle. Similar capsule color. Different contents.
He adds them to the basket without hurry.
He adds the after-pill she asked for too â the expensive one, the one he told her works â and pockets it on the way out of the pharmacy without putting it in the bag.
She never asks to see the receipt.
She never asks about the vitamins.
She takes them every morning the way she takes everything he sets in front of her: because he's always been right about what she needs, because she trusts him completely, because four years of being known this precisely has trained her body to accept care from his hands without question.
He watches her take the first one over coffee on a Thursday morning â still in his hoodie, hair unstyled, squinting slightly at the light â and feels something patient and enormous settle in his chest.
He was always going to get here.
He just had to be careful about the route.
The last semester has a specific quality to it that she can only describe as pressure â everything compressed, every deadline tighter, every emotion closer to the surface. She cries twice over thesis footnotes. She laughs too loud at things that aren't that funny. She wakes at 4am with her heart already going and her mind cataloguing every unfinished thing, and the only thing that reliably puts her back to sleep is the weight of his arm across her waist and the slow even rhythm of his breathing against her shoulder.
She's also, she notices with a detachment that feels like someone else's observation, the horniest she has ever been in her adult life.
She doesn't analyze this too deeply. Stress, she tells herself. The body compensating. Senior year hormones. The fact that she's been sleeping next to someone warm and large and genuinely excellent at the specific activity for months now and her body has recalibrated its baseline accordingly.
Whatever the reason, the effect is this: they fuck constantly.
Not carelessly â they're never careless, even when they're frantic, even when it's 11pm and she has a 7am alarm and she's the one climbing into his lap instead of sleeping like a reasonable person. There's always intention in it. His, she will understand later, has always been very specific. Hers is just want â uncomplicated, immediate, the particular hunger of a person who has been given something extraordinary and can't stop reaching for it.
Tuesday morning before her seminar â quick, efficient, him sitting on the edge of the bed with her straddling his lap, face in his neck, his hands gripping her hips to set the pace, both of them quiet because the walls are thin and it's 7am and the world hasn't fully started yet.
Thursday night after she finishes her last draft revision â slow, thorough, him taking his time with her in the particular way he does when they have nowhere to be, no urgency except the kind that builds and builds until she's shaking and he's still moving like he could do this forever.
Sunday afternoon â twice, because the first time ends too fast and he pulls her back before she's even caught her breath, mouth at her ear saying stay and his hands already finding the places that make staying the only possible response.
She stops keeping track of what's protected and what isn't. She trusts him. She has always trusted him. He said he'd handle it â the expensive pill, the good brand, we're covered â and she accepted that the way she accepts everything from him, which is to say: fully, without verification, because he's never been wrong before.
He is not wrong now either, technically.
He's just not doing what she thinks he's doing.
The tension doesnât break so much as it simply stops pretending to exist.
It starts on a random Tuesday in late February, the kind of gray afternoon where the light never quite decides to commit. Sheâs been hunched over her laptop for six straight hours, shoulders tight, eyes burning, when Soobin appears behind her chair without a sound. His hands settle on her shoulders first, warm, sure, thumbs pressing into the knots with the exact pressure she likes because heâs mapped every inch of her tension over months.
âYouâve been staring at the same paragraph for twenty minutes,â he murmurs, voice low and close to her ear.
She exhales shakily. âItâs not working.â
âThen stop.â
He doesnât wait for permission. He never really does anymore. His fingers slide under the collar of her hoodie (his hoodie) and peel it upward. She lifts her arms automatically, letting him strip it off her like itâs the most natural thing in the world. The cool air hits her bare skin and she shivers once. He notices. Of course he does.
He turns her chair slowly until sheâs facing him. Then he drops to his knees between her spread thighs like itâs nothing â like kneeling for her is just another Tuesday evening task.
âSoobinââ
âShh.â His palms glide up her thighs, pushing the soft fabric of her shorts higher until his thumbs brush the crease where leg meets hip. âLet me take care of you.â
He leans in and presses an open-mouthed kiss to the inside of her thigh, then another, higher. When he reaches the edge of her panties he hooks his fingers in the waistband and tugs them down with one smooth motion. She lifts her hips to help without thinking. The trust is bone-deep now; her body has learned that his hands only ever bring relief.
He doesnât tease tonight. Thereâs no slow build, no playful denial. He simply spreads her open with his thumbs and puts his mouth on her like heâs starving.
The first lick is broad and wet and perfect. She jolts, one hand flying to his hair. He hums against her, the vibration shooting straight up her spine, and then he settles in, slow, deliberate drags of his tongue over her clit, two fingers sliding inside her without resistance because sheâs already soaked from the sheer relief of his attention.
âFuckâ Soobin,â she gasps, hips twitching.
He doesnât answer with words. He answers by curling his fingers, finding that spot that makes her see white, and sucking her clit into his mouth with steady, rhythmic pressure. The wet sounds fill the quiet apartment, obscene and intimate at the same time. Her thighs start to tremble around his ears. He doesnât let up. He never lets up when he decides she needs to come.
She comes the first time with a broken cry, back arching off the chair, fingers tightening painfully in his hair. He rides her through it, gentling his tongue but keeping his fingers moving until the last spasm fades.
Only then does he pull back, lips shiny, eyes dark and focused entirely on her flushed face. He rises to his feet, towering over her, and strips his own shirt off in one fluid motion. His sweatpants follow. His cock is already hard, flushed dark, the tip glistening.
He doesnât ask. He simply pulls her up from the chair, turns her around, and bends her over the dining table where her thesis pages are still scattered.
The wood is cool against her breasts. She braces her palms flat as he kicks her feet wider apart.
âStay just like this,â he says quietly, one large hand smoothing down her spine.
Then heâs pushing inside her â bare, hot, thick â in one long, steady stroke.
They both groan. The feeling without the latex is overwhelming: every ridge, every vein, the blunt head pressing right against her cervix when he bottoms out. He stays there for a moment, buried to the hilt, letting her adjust, letting himself feel her clench around him raw.
âSo tight,â he breathes, voice rough. âAlways so fucking perfect for me.â
He starts moving â slow at first, deep rolls of his hips that drag against every sensitive spot inside her. One hand grips her hip, the other slides up her back to fist gently in her hair, not pulling, just holding. Anchoring.
The pace builds. The table creaks under them. Her moans turn into whimpers, then sharp cries as he angles his hips and hits that spot again and again. The second orgasm crashes into her without warning. She clenches hard around him, vision blurring, and he curses under his breath, pace faltering for the first time.
He doesnât pull out.
He fucks her through it, harder now, chasing his own release. When he comes itâs with a low, guttural sound, hips snapping forward as he spills deep inside her, hot pulses that seem to last forever. He grinds against her ass, making sure every drop stays where he wants it.
Sheâs still bent over the dining table, chest heaving, when Soobinâs hands slide up her sides with deliberate slowness. His cock is still buried deep inside her, softening only slightly, and the feeling of him twitching against her walls makes her whimper softly. He doesnât pull out. Instead, he leans down, pressing his broad chest fully against her back, caging her between the cool wood and the heat of his body.
His lips find the shell of her ear first.
âYou feel that?â he murmurs, voice low and rough, breath hot against her skin. âHow perfectly you take me?. Nothing between us.â
A shiver runs through her. She nods, unable to form words yet. His hips give one lazy roll, pushing his cum deeper, and she clenches around him instinctively. The wet, filthy sound it makes should embarrass her. It doesnât. Not with him.
Soobinâs mouth trails down to her neck, pressing open-mouthed kisses along the sensitive column. He sucks lightly at the spot just below her ear, the one that always makes her melt, then soothes it with his tongue. His hands arenât idle. One large palm smooths up her spine, fingers splaying wide between her shoulder blades, while the other slips around to her front, cupping her breast and thumbing over her nipple until it pebbles under his touch.
âSuch a good girl for me,â he whispers between kisses, voice dripping with that quiet intensity he only ever uses when theyâre like this. âLetting me have you exactly how I want. Just us.â
He starts moving again â not thrusting hard, but slow, deep grinds that keep him pressed flush against her, his cock stirring back to full hardness inside her slick heat. Every roll of his hips drags against that sensitive spot, making her gasp and push back against him. His free hand leaves her breast to trace down her stomach, fingers brushing lightly over her clit in teasing circles that match the rhythm of his hips.
She turns her head, seeking his mouth. He meets her instantly, kissing her deeply, tongue sliding against hers in the same unhurried way heâs fucking her. The kiss is messy, wet, full of shared breath and quiet moans. His lips are soft but demanding, sucking on her lower lip, nipping gently, then soothing with his tongue again. He tastes like her, and the realization sends another wave of heat through her body.
His hand on her back slides up to tangle in her hair, just holding her head in place so he can kiss her harder. The other hand continues its slow torture between her legs â fingers circling her swollen clit with perfect pressure, occasionally dipping lower to feel where theyâre joined, where his cock stretches her and his cum leaks out around him with every shallow thrust.
âYouâre getting wetter,â he breathes against her mouth, a hint of satisfaction in his tone. âMy cum inside you⊠you like that, donât you? Feeling me drip out while Iâm still fucking it back in.â
She moans into the kiss, nodding frantically. Her walls flutter around him, and he groans, the sound vibrating through his chest into her back. The kissing grows more heated â tongues tangling, teeth grazing, desperate little sounds escaping both of them. His hips pick up a fraction more speed, still controlled, still deep, each thrust accompanied by another slow circle over her clit.
He breaks the kiss only to trail his lips along her jaw, down her throat, sucking another mark just above her collarbone. His fingers in her hair tighten slightly, tilting her head to give him better access. Every touch is reverent and possessive at once â his palm mapping her ribs, thumb brushing the underside of her breast, then back down to pinch her nipple lightly while his mouth claims her neck.
âSo pretty when youâre like this,â he murmurs between kisses and soft bites. âAll flushed and needy. Taking everything I give you.â
Her breathing is ragged now, hips rocking back to meet his slow thrusts. The combination of his cock moving inside her, his fingers on her clit, and his mouth worshiping every inch of skin he can reach is overwhelming in the best way. She feels completely surrounded by him, his heat, his scent, his quiet control.
Soobin kisses the corner of her mouth again, softer this time, then whispers against her lips:
âTurn around for me, baby. I want to see your face while I touch you.â
He pulls out slowly, both of them groaning at the loss, a thick trickle of his release sliding down her thigh. He helps her straighten and turn, his hands gentle but firm on her hips. When sheâs facing him, he lifts her effortlessly onto the table, spreading her legs wide and stepping between them.
His mouth finds hers again immediately, deep, consuming kisses that make her dizzy. His hands roam freely now: one cupping her face, thumb stroking her cheek, the other sliding between her thighs to push two fingers back inside her cum-filled pussy, curling them slowly while his thumb works her clit.
The kissing never stops. Slow and filthy, then soft and sweet, then hungry again. He drinks every moan from her lips, every gasp, every broken whisper of his name. His fingers move in perfect rhythm, scissoring gently, spreading his cum and her wetness, preparing her for more.
He only pulls back when sheâs trembling, lips swollen and shiny, eyes glassy with need.
âLook at me,â he says softly.
She does.
And in that moment, with his fingers buried inside her and his gaze locked on hers, she feels the depth of how completely she belongs to this, to him, even if she still calls it friendship.
Soobinâs fingers are still buried deep inside her, curling slowly, when he pulls back just enough to look at her properly. His eyes are dark, pupils blown wide, but his voice stays soft, almost reverent.
âLook at you,â he murmurs, thumb stroking her clit in lazy circles while his other hand cradles her jaw. âSitting on the table all spread open for me⊠so fucking beautiful.â
She bites her lip, cheeks burning under his gaze. âSoobin⊠you donât have to say that every time.â
âBut I do,â he replies instantly, leaning in to press a slow, deep kiss to her mouth. When he pulls away, his fingers keep moving. âBecause itâs true. Every inch of you drives me crazy. Iâve wanted this for so long⊠wanted you like this.â
Her breath hitches as he curls his fingers again, hitting that spot that makes her thighs tremble. âYou already have me,â she whispers, voice shaky. âYou know that.â
A small, satisfied smile curves his lips. âYeah⊠I do. And Iâm never letting go.â
He withdraws his fingers slowly, making her whimper at the loss, then brings them to his mouth and licks them clean without breaking eye contact. She watches, mesmerized and flushed.
âSoobinââ
âShh. Let me worship you properly tonight.â His hands slide up her thighs, spreading them wider as he leans down. His mouth starts at her collarbone, pressing wet, open-mouthed kisses along the line. âYouâve been so stressed with the thesis⊠let me take care of every part of you.â
He trails lower, lips brushing the swell of her breasts, then down her stomach. Every kiss is deliberate, slow, like heâs mapping her. âThis spot right here,â he murmurs against her ribs, sucking lightly, âmakes you shiver every time.â He proves it by doing it again, smiling when she gasps.
âYou remember everything,â she breathes, fingers threading through his hair.
âOf course I do.â His voice is low, intimate. âIâve been paying attention for years. Every sound you make, every place that makes you wetter⊠all mine to learn.â
He moves back up, mouth finding the sensitive skin just below her ear while his hands roam â one palm smoothing over her hip, the other cupping her ass, squeezing gently. âTell me how it feels, baby. Tell me what you need.â
âIt feels⊠so good,â she moans softly as his fingers trace circles on her inner thigh. âYour hands are everywhere. I canât think when you touch me like this.â
âGood,â he whispers, nipping at her jaw. âYou donât need to think. Just feel. Just let me love on you.â
He kisses down her neck again, slower this time, sucking a faint mark into the hollow of her throat. âThis neck⊠always smells like your shampoo and a little like me now.â He inhales deeply, then licks the spot. âFuck, I love that.â
She arches into him, a soft laugh escaping despite the heat building again. âYouâre so obsessed.â
âWith you? Yeah.â His eyes meet hers, serious and heated. âCompletely. Every curve, every sound, every time you say my name like that.â
His hands slide under her thighs, lifting her slightly as he kisses lower, across her stomach, tongue dipping into her navel. âThis little spot right here always makes your hips twitch.â He demonstrates, and she does exactly that, giggling breathlessly before it turns into a moan.
âSoobin, please⊠I need more.â
He looks up at her, chin resting on her lower stomach, eyes dark with promise. âPatience, baby. Iâm not rushing tonight. I want to taste every part of you first. Tell me, does this feel good?â He presses a kiss just above her mound, then another on the inside of her thigh.
âYesâ fuck, yes,â she gasps, legs spreading wider on instinct. âYour mouth is so warm⊠I love when you kiss me there.â
He hums in approval, the vibration traveling through her skin. âGood girl. Keep talking to me. I love hearing how much you need me.â
His palms stroke up and down her sides, thumbs brushing the undersides of her breasts as his mouth continues its slow worship â kissing, licking, sucking gently on every inch of skin he can reach. He pauses at her hip bone, biting lightly, then soothing with his tongue.
âYouâre shaking,â he observes softly, voice full of quiet pride. âAlready so sensitive for me. Thatâs because your body knows who it belongs to now, doesnât it?â
She nods, breath coming in short pants. âIt does⊠itâs yours, Soobin. All of it.â
His eyes flash with something deep and satisfied. He rises slightly, capturing her mouth in another slow, filthy kiss while his hands continue exploring â squeezing her ass, tracing her waist, thumbs circling her nipples until theyâre tight and aching.
âSay it again,â he whispers against her lips, voice husky. âTell me who you belong to.â
âYou,â she breathes, kissing him back desperately. âI belong to you.â
He groans softly into the kiss, one hand sliding between her legs again to tease her entrance with two fingers. âThatâs my girl. So perfect. So mine.â
The touching never stops â slow, reverent strokes mixed with firmer grips, every movement designed to make her feel completely adored and completely claimed at the same time. His mouth stays busy on her skin, murmuring praises between kisses.
âYouâre so soft here⊠so warm⊠I could spend hours just touching you like this.â
She whimpers, hips rocking against his hand. âSoobin⊠Iâm getting close again just from this.â
âThen come for me whenever you want, baby,â he murmurs, kissing her deeply once more. âBut Iâm nowhere near done worshipping you tonight.â
Sheâs still trembling from his slow worship, thighs spread wide on the dining table, when Soobin straightens up and cups her face with both hands. His thumbs brush her flushed cheeks, eyes locked on hers with that quiet intensity that always makes her stomach flip.
âBaby,â he murmurs, voice low and rough around the edges, âyouâre so good for me. Letting me touch you everywhere⊠but I need your mouth now. Can you do that for me?â
Her breath catches. She nods quickly, lips parting. âYes⊠I want to. I love making you feel good too.â
A slow, satisfied smile spreads across his face. âThatâs my girl. Come here.â
He helps her slide off the table, legs still shaky, and guides her gently down until sheâs on her knees in front of him. The apartment floor is cool against her skin, but the heat radiating from his body makes her forget everything else. His cock stands hard and flushed in front of her, still slick from being inside her earlier, the tip glistening with a mix of their arousal.
Soobin threads his fingers gently through her hair. âLook at me while you do it,â he says softly. âI want to see your eyes.â
She looks up at him, heart racing, and wraps one hand around the base of his thick length. Heâs big, always has been, and the weight of him in her palm feels familiar and intoxicating. She leans in and presses a soft, open-mouthed kiss to the head, tasting the salty tang of him mixed with her own wetness.
âFuckâŠâ Soobin hisses, his grip tightening slightly in her hair. âJust like that. Start slow, baby. I want to feel every second.â
She obeys, licking a long, slow stripe from base to tip, swirling her tongue around the sensitive head before taking him into her mouth. The groan that escapes him is deep and guttural, his hips twitching forward just a little.
âOh shit, your mouth feels incredible,â he breathes, watching her with dark, hooded eyes. âSo warm⊠so wet. You always take me so well.â
She hums around him, the vibration making his cock twitch against her tongue. Encouraged, she takes him deeper, bobbing her head slowly while her hand strokes what she canât fit. Her other hand rests on his thigh, feeling the muscle tense under her palm.
Soobinâs breathing grows heavier. âThatâs it⊠just like that. Use your tongue more on the underside â yes, fuck, right there.â His voice drops lower, almost reverent. âYou have no idea how many times Iâve thought about this. You on your knees, looking up at me with those pretty eyes while you suck my cock.â
She pulls back for a moment, lips shiny, breathing hard. âDo you really think about me like that?â she asks, voice husky, giving him a few slow pumps with her hand. âEven when weâre just⊠hanging out?â
âEvery day,â he admits, thumb stroking her cheek. âSometimes when youâre studying across from me, all focused and biting your lip, I imagine pulling you under the table and letting you worship me while you try to stay quiet.â He guides her mouth back to him gently. âBut this is better. This is real. Suck a little harder, baby â yeah, just like that. Good girl.â
She moans around his length, taking him deeper until he hits the back of her throat. She relaxes, swallowing around him, and Soobin curses under his breath, head tipping back for a second before he forces himself to look down again.
âGod, youâre perfect,â he groans, hips starting to rock shallowly. âThe way your throat squeezes me⊠fuck, I could stay in your mouth forever. You like tasting us together? My cum and your pussy all over my cock?â
She nods as best she can, eyes watering slightly but never breaking eye contact. The filthy words send heat straight between her legs again. She hollows her cheeks, sucking harder, tongue working the underside while her hand twists gently at the base.
Soobinâs grip in her hair tightens, but heâs still careful, never forcing her. âSlow down a little or Iâm gonna come too fast,â he warns, voice strained. âI want to enjoy this. Want to watch you take every inch. Youâre so fucking eager for it⊠my sweet best friend on her knees sucking me like she was made for it.â
She pulls off with a wet pop, stroking him firmly while she catches her breath. âI was made for you,â she whispers, pressing sloppy kisses along his shaft. âI love how you feel in my mouth⊠how heavy you are on my tongue. Tell me what else you want.â
His eyes darken further. âLick my balls while you stroke me. Then take me deep again.â
She does exactly that â tongue laving over his sack, sucking one into her mouth gently while her hand works his cock in long, steady strokes. Soobinâs thighs tremble, a low moan escaping him.
âFuck yes⊠just like that, baby. Youâre so good at this. No one else could ever make me feel this way. Only you.â
She switches to the other side, then licks back up to the head and swallows him down again, taking him as deep as she can. Soobinâs hand guides her rhythm now, gentle but firm.
âLook at me,â he says again, voice rough. âI want to see how much you love having my cock in your throat.â
Their eyes lock. Tears cling to her lashes, but she doesnât stop, humming and swallowing around him. Soobinâs breathing turns ragged.
âYouâre gonna make me come if you keep that up,â he warns, though his hips keep moving in shallow thrusts. âBut not yet⊠I still want to fuck you properly tonight. Want to fill you up again while youâre moaning my name.â
She pulls back just enough to speak, lips brushing the tip. âThen use my mouth however you want first. I can take it.â
Soobin pulls her up from her knees with gentle but firm hands, his mouth immediately claiming hers in a deep, messy kiss. He can still taste himself on her tongue, and the thought makes him groan softly into her mouth. He walks her backward until her hips hit the edge of the dining table again, then lifts her effortlessly so sheâs sitting on it once more, legs wrapping around his waist.
âYouâre incredible,â he murmurs against her lips, breaking the kiss only to trail his mouth along her jaw. âThe way you looked up at me with my cock down your throat⊠fuck, I almost lost it.â
She smiles breathlessly, hands sliding up his chest. âI love making you feel like that. You always take such good care of me⊠I want to do the same for you.â
His eyes soften for a moment, something deep and possessive flickering behind the heat. âYou do. More than you know.â Then his voice drops lower, hands sliding up her sides. âBut right now, I need to taste you again. Spread your legs wider for me, baby.â
She obeys instantly, leaning back on her elbows on the table as he drops to his knees between her thighs once more. His large hands grip her inner thighs, spreading her open, and he stares at her glistening pussy with open hunger.
âLook at this pretty little pussy,â he says, voice rough with want. âAll wet and swollen from my cock and your mouth. Still leaking my cum⊠thatâs so fucking hot.â
She whimpers, hips twitching. âSoobin⊠please.â
âPlease what?â he asks, pressing a soft kiss to the inside of her thigh, then another higher up. âTell me. I want to hear you say it.â
âI want your mouth on me,â she breathes, cheeks burning. âPlease lick me⊠make me come with your tongue.â
A low, satisfied sound rumbles in his chest. âGood girl. So honest for me.â
He doesnât tease this time. He dives in, licking a broad, slow stripe from her entrance up to her clit, tasting the mix of their arousal. She gasps sharply, one hand flying to his hair.
âOh godâ Soobin!â
He hums against her, the vibration sending sparks through her body. âYou taste so good,â he murmurs, pulling back just enough to speak. âSweet and a little salty from us⊠I could eat you for hours.â
His tongue circles her clit with precise, firm strokes, then flattens to lap at her entrance, pushing inside her as far as it can go. She moans loudly, back arching off the table.
âYesâ right there,â she pants. âYour tongue feels so good inside me⊠deeper, please.â
He obliges, fucking her with his tongue while his nose nudges her clit. Two fingers replace his tongue after a moment, curling upward to hit that perfect spot as his mouth latches onto her clit and sucks gently.
âFuck, Soobinâ Iâmâ Iâm close already,â she cries, thighs trembling around his head. âDonât stop⊠please donât stop.â
âI wonât,â he promises, voice muffled against her. He looks up at her, eyes dark and intense. âCome on my tongue, baby. Let me feel you fall apart. Youâre so beautiful when you come for me.â
His fingers pump faster, curling perfectly, while his tongue flicks rapidly over her clit. Sheâs gasping, moaning his name like a chant, hips grinding against his face.
âSoobinâ oh fuck, Iâm comingâ!â
Her orgasm hits hard, walls clenching around his fingers, a gush of wetness coating his tongue. He doesnât pull away, riding her through it with slow, soothing licks and gentle thrusts of his fingers until sheâs shaking and oversensitive.
When she finally slumps back, breathing hard, he rises to his feet, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand. His cock is rock hard again, flushed and leaking.
He leans over her, kissing her deeply so she can taste herself on his lips. âDid that feel good?â he whispers.
âSo good,â she sighs, wrapping her arms around his neck. âYou always make me come so hard⊠I donât know how you do it.â
âBecause I know you,â he says simply, nipping at her lower lip. âEvery spot, every sound, every way you like to be touched. Youâre mine to please.â
She pulls him closer, kissing him again. âThen please fuck me now. I need you inside me again.â
He smiles against her mouth, voice low and promising. âNot yet, baby. I still want to play with these perfect tits first.â
Soobinâs words hang in the air, low and heated, as he leans over her on the table. His hands slide up her sides slowly, cupping her breasts and lifting them slightly, thumbs brushing over her already sensitive nipples.
âThese perfect tits,â he murmurs, eyes dark with hunger. âIâve been dying to give them the attention they deserve.â
She arches into his touch, a soft moan escaping. âSoobin⊠theyâre not that special.â
He shakes his head, leaning down to press a reverent kiss to the swell of one breast. âDonât say that. Theyâre fucking gorgeous. Soft, full, and they fit perfectly in my hands.â He squeezes gently, watching her reaction. âSee? Made for me.â
He lowers his mouth to her left nipple, sucking it into his mouth with slow, deliberate pulls while his hand kneads the other breast. She gasps, fingers threading through his hair again.
âOhâ that feels so good,â she breathes. âYour mouth is so warm⊠suck a little harder.â
He does exactly that, hollowing his cheeks and flicking his tongue over the stiff peak. âLike this?â he asks, pulling back just enough to speak before switching to the other nipple, giving it the same treatment.
âYesâ fuck, yes,â she whimpers, back arching off the table. âI love when you play with my boobs⊠it goes straight between my legs.â
Soobin hums in approval, the vibration traveling through her nipple. âGood. Because I could do this all night.â He switches back and forth, licking, sucking, and gently biting, leaving faint red marks on the soft skin. âThey get so hard for me⊠look at them. So pretty and sensitive.â
His free hand continues kneading the neglected breast, rolling the nipple between his fingers, pinching lightly until sheâs squirming beneath him.
âTell me how it feels,â he says, voice rough as he looks up at her, lips shiny. âTalk to me while I worship these.â
âIt tingles⊠everywhere,â she pants, hips rocking uselessly against nothing. âEvery time you suck, I feel it in my clit. Youâre making me so wet again, Soobin.â
âThatâs exactly what I want,â he growls softly, sucking harder on one nipple while twisting the other. âI want you dripping for me. Want your pussy aching while I take my time with your tits.â
He presses them together, burying his face between them, licking and kissing the valley. âSo soft⊠so warm. I love how they spill over my hands.â He nips at the underside of one, then soothes it with his tongue. âYou have no idea how many times Iâve stared at you in those tight shirts, imagining doing exactly this.â
She laughs breathlessly, tugging his hair. âPervert.â
âYour pervert,â he corrects, grinning against her skin before sucking a nipple back into his mouth. âOnly yours. And you love it. Say it.â
âI love it,â she moans, voice breaking as he bites down gently. âI love when youâre obsessed with my body⊠love how you touch me like Iâm yours.â
âYou are mine,â he says firmly, switching breasts again, lavishing the same slow, filthy attention on the other. His hips press forward, letting his hard cock rest against her inner thigh, hot and leaking. âThese tits are mine to play with, to suck, to mark. Every time you wear that blue dress, Iâm going to remember how they look right now â all flushed and covered in my mouth.â
She whimpers louder, one hand reaching down to stroke his cock slowly. âThen mark them more⊠please. I want to feel you tomorrow when Iâm trying to study.â
Soobin groans, hips bucking into her hand. âFuck, baby. Youâre going to kill me.â He sucks harder, leaving a visible hickey on the inner curve of one breast, then another on the other side. âThere. So everyone knows who these belong to, even if they canât see.â
His tongue swirls around her nipples again, alternating between soft licks and firm sucks while his hands squeeze and mold her breasts. Sheâs panting now, thighs clenching around his waist.
âSoobin⊠I need you inside me,â she begs, voice shaky. âIâm so empty⊠please fuck me.â
He pulls back slightly, lips red and swollen, eyes blazing. âNot yet. Turn over for me first. I want you on your hands and knees.â
Soobin steps back just enough to give her room, his hands steady on her hips as she turns over on the dining table. She braces herself on her forearms, arching her back instinctively, ass presented to him. The position makes her feel exposed and desired at the same time, completely open for whatever he wants.
âFuck, look at you,â he breathes, voice thick with lust. One large hand smooths down her spine, then cups her ass, squeezing firmly. âSo pretty like this. Bent over and waiting for me.â
She glances back at him over her shoulder, cheeks flushed. âIs this how you want me?â
âExactly like this,â he replies, stepping closer until his cock rests heavy against her ass. He rubs the thick length between her cheeks slowly, teasing. âAss up, back arched⊠my perfect girl. Youâre dripping down your thighs. All that from me playing with your tits?â
âYes,â she admits, pushing back against him. âEverything you do makes me wet. Please, Soobin⊠I need you inside me now. Iâve been waiting.â
He groans, gripping her hips tighter. âYou beg so sweetly. How can I say no to that?â
He lines himself up, the blunt head of his cock nudging her entrance, still slick from her earlier orgasm and his precum. With one slow, deliberate push, he sinks into her from behind â bare, deep, stretching her perfectly.
Both of them moan loudly at the feeling.
âOh my godâ Soobin,â she gasps, fingers curling against the table. âYouâre so deep like this⊠I can feel every inch.â
âThatâs right,â he says, voice strained as he bottoms out, hips flush against her ass. âFeel how well you take me? Your pussy was made for my cock bunny.â
He stays still for a moment, letting her adjust, one hand rubbing soothing circles on her lower back while the other grips her hip. Then he starts moving, slow, powerful thrusts that drag against every sensitive spot inside her.
âFuck, youâre tight,â he groans, picking up a steady rhythm. âSo warm and wet⊠gripping me like you never want me to leave.â
She pushes back to meet his thrusts, moaning with each deep stroke. âHarder⊠please. I can take it. I want to feel you tomorrow.â
Soobinâs grip tightens, and he gives her what she asks for â snapping his hips faster, the sound of skin slapping against skin filling the apartment. âLike this? You want me to fuck you like I own you?â
âYesâ yes, just like that,â she cries out, head dropping forward. âYou do own me⊠fuck, right thereâ donât stop!â
He angles his hips, hitting that perfect spot over and over, one hand sliding around to rub her clit in tight circles. âThatâs my good girl. Taking my cock so well in this position. Your ass looks incredible bouncing against me.â
He leans over her, chest pressing to her back, and presses open-mouthed kisses along her shoulder. âTell me how it feels, baby. Tell me you love getting fucked like this.â
âI love it,â she moans, voice breaking with every thrust. âI love when you fuck me from behind⊠so deep, so rough. Your cock is hitting everythingâ Iâm gonna come again if you keep going.â
âThen come,â he growls against her ear, thrusting harder. âCome on my cock while Iâm buried inside you. I want to feel you squeeze me.â
His fingers move faster on her clit, and his pace turns punishing â deep, relentless strokes that make the table creak beneath them. Sheâs whimpering and moaning, pushing back desperately.
Her second orgasm crashes over her, walls clenching hard around his cock. Soobin curses, slowing his thrusts to ride her through it, but not stopping completely.
âThatâs it⊠good girl. Milk my cock with that tight pussy,â he praises, voice rough. He keeps moving through her spasms, drawing it out until sheâs shaking.
When she starts to come down, he straightens up, hands gripping her hips again. âIâm not done with you yet. I want to fill you up one more time⊠but first, turn over. I need to see your face when I come inside you.â
Soobin doesnât let her catch her breath for long. He slides his arms under her, one beneath her knees, the other around her back, and lifts her effortlessly off the dining table. Her legs wrap around his waist instinctively, arms looping around his neck as he carries her through the apartment. His cock, still hard and slick with her release, brushes against her ass with every step, making her whimper softly against his shoulder.
âWhere are we going?â she murmurs, pressing lazy kisses to his neck.
âTo bed,â he answers, voice low and rough. âI want you spread out properly under me. I want to look at you while I fill you up one more time.â
He kicks the bedroom door open with his foot and lays her down gently on the center of her bed, their bed now, really, the sheets already rumpled from the night before. The room is dim, only the soft glow from the hallway light spilling in, casting warm shadows across her body.
Soobin climbs over her immediately, settling between her spread thighs in missionary. He braces himself on his forearms, caging her in, his broad frame hovering just above hers. His cock nudges her entrance again, hot and insistent.
âLook at me, baby,â he says softly, one hand brushing damp strands of hair from her face. âI want your eyes on me the whole time.â
She meets his gaze, her own eyes glassy with lingering pleasure and fresh need. âIâm looking⊠I always look at you.â
He smiles, that small, secret smile, and slowly pushes back inside her in one smooth thrust. They both moan at the familiar stretch, the wet heat, the perfect fit.
âFuck⊠still so tight,â he groans, bottoming out and grinding his hips in slow circles. âEven after coming⊠your pussy keeps pulling me back in.â
She wraps her legs higher around his waist, heels digging into his lower back. âBecause I need you there. Deeper, Soobin⊠please. I want to feel you everywhere.â
He starts moving â long, deep strokes that press her into the mattress. Unlike the rough pace, this is slower, more intentional, every thrust deliberate and grinding. His hips roll against hers, pubic bone pressing against her clit with each downward motion.
âSo good,â she gasps, hands sliding up his back, nails lightly scratching. âThis position⊠I can feel all of you. Your cock is so deep⊠hitting everything.â
âThatâs the point,â he murmurs, leaning down to kiss her deeply, tongue sliding against hers in time with his thrusts. âI want you to feel every inch. Want you to remember exactly whoâs inside you, whoâs taking care of you.â
He breaks the kiss to trail his mouth down her neck, sucking lightly at the marks he left earlier. One hand slides between them to cup her breast again, thumb circling the nipple while he continues those deep, steady rolls of his hips.
âTell me how it feels now,â he whispers against her skin. âBeing in your own bed, legs wrapped around me while I fuck you raw.â
âIt feels⊠safe,â she breathes, then moans as he hits a particularly sensitive spot. âAnd dirty. And perfect. I love having you on top of me like this⊠love how heavy you are, how you fill me completely.â
Soobin groans, pace faltering for a second before he steadies again. âYou have no idea what you do to me when you say things like that.â He thrusts a little harder, making the bed creak. âYour pussy is clenching around me so nicely⊠youâre going to make me come soon if you keep squeezing like that.â
She tightens her walls deliberately around him, smiling breathlessly when he curses. âThen come inside me. I want it. I want to feel you spill deep⊠want you to stay there after.â
His eyes darken. âYeah? You want me to breed you tonight? Fill this pretty cunt until itâs overflowing?â
The word âbreedâ makes her whimper loudly, hips bucking up to meet him. âYes⊠do it. Fill me up, Soobin. Iâm yours.â
That seems to snap something in him. He kisses her hard, messy and desperate, while his hips pick up speed, still deep, but faster now, chasing his release while making sure she feels every thrust. His hand stays on her breast, squeezing and playing with her nipple as he drives into her.
âCome with me,â he pants against her mouth. âOne more time, baby. Come on my cock while I come inside you.â
She nods frantically, one hand slipping between them to rub her clit in quick circles. The combination â his thick cock pounding deep, his weight pressing her down, his mouth on hers, his hand on her breast â pushes her over the edge again.
âSoobinâ Iâm comingâ fuck!â
Her third orgasm hits her hard, walls fluttering and clenching rhythmically around him. Soobin groans loudly, burying his face in her neck as his own release crashes over him. He thrusts deep one final time and stays there, cock pulsing as he spills hot and thick inside her, filling her completely.
Soobin stays buried deep inside her, his weight a comforting blanket as their breathing slowly evens out. He presses soft, lingering kisses along her collarbone, her jaw, the corner of her mouth, never pulling out. The feeling of him still thick and warm inside her makes her hum contentedly, legs still loosely wrapped around his hips.
He shifts carefully, keeping them connected, and rolls them both until sheâs on top, straddling him. But instead of letting her ride him hard, he pulls her down so her chest is flush against his, arms wrapping around her back to hold her close. Their faces are inches apart, breaths mingling.
âLike this,â he murmurs, guiding her hips into a slow, rolling grind. âNice and deep. I want to feel every little movement.â
She rocks gently against him, the new angle letting him press even deeper. A soft moan escapes her as the head of his cock nudges that sensitive spot inside with every subtle shift.
âSoobin⊠you feel so good,â she breathes, eyes half-lidded as she looks down at him. âSo fullâŠâ
His hands slide up and down her back in long, soothing strokes, one eventually cupping the back of her neck while the other rests possessively on her ass, encouraging her slow rhythm. âThatâs it, baby. Just like that. No rush tonight. I want to make love to you until you forget everything except how we fit together.â
He lifts his head to kiss her, slow, deep, unhurried kisses that match the lazy roll of their hips. Their tongues slide together gently, savoring, tasting. Every time she sinks down fully onto him, he groans softly into her mouth, the sound vibrating through both of them.
âYouâre so warm inside,â she whispers between kisses, forehead resting against his. âI love feeling you throb like this⊠like your body is telling me how much you need me too.â
âI do need you,â he replies, voice husky but soft. âEvery day. Every night. This â being inside you, with nothing between us⊠itâs everything Iâve wanted.â He thrusts up gently to meet her next roll, grinding deep. âFeel that? Thatâs me loving you. Slow and deep, just like you deserve.â
She whimpers quietly, clenching around him as the pleasure builds in a warm, steady wave rather than a sharp peak. âSoobin⊠itâs so intimate like this. I can feel your heartbeat inside me.â
His arms tighten around her, one hand slipping into her hair while the other traces her spine. âGood. I want you to feel all of me.â He kisses her again, slower this time, then trails his lips to her ear. âYouâre my safe place. My home. Let me stay right here and love you like this for as long as you need.â
They move together in a gentle rhythm â not frantic fucking, but something softer, deeper. Making love. Her breasts press against his chest with every roll, nipples brushing his skin. His hands never stop touching her: stroking her back, squeezing her ass lightly, cradling her face so he can look into her eyes.
âKiss me again,â she murmurs.
He does, pouring everything into it â the years of quiet longing, the careful way heâs built this life around her, the overwhelming tenderness he only lets show when theyâre like this. Their hips keep that slow, sensual grind, his cock sliding in and out in long, luxurious strokes that make her toes curl.
âYouâre clenching so sweetly around me,â he whispers against her lips. âSqueezing me like you never want me to leave your body.â
âI donât,â she admits breathlessly, nipping at his lower lip. âStay inside me forever if you could.â
Soobin lets out a low, pleased sound, thrusting up a little deeper on the next roll. âOne day I will. But tonight⊠just feel me loving you. No ending yet.â
He flips them once more with careful strength, settling back on top of her in missionary without ever fully pulling out. Now heâs the one setting the slow pace, hips rocking in deep, unhurried circles while he holds her gaze.
âTell me you feel it too,â he says softly, brushing his nose against hers. âTell me how much you love having me inside you like this.â
âI love it,â she gasps, legs tightening around him. âI love you inside me⊠making love to me. It feels like weâre the only two people in the world.â
âWe are right now,â he murmurs, kissing her deeply again as their bodies continue that slow, intimate dance.
He doesnât chase his orgasm. He simply savors her â every flutter of her walls, every soft moan, every time her fingers dig into his shoulders. The pleasure builds gradually, warm and overwhelming, like sinking into something endless and safe.
In the quiet of her bed, with the last semester pressing in from outside, they make love like time has stopped â slow, deep, and dangerously close to something far more permanent than either of them is admitting.
They stay locked together for a long time, bodies still joined, hips moving in that same slow, lazy rhythm. The pleasure has built into something warm and endless, a gentle wave rather than a crash. Soobinâs forehead rests against hers, their breaths mingling in the quiet dark of the bedroom.
âIâm close,â he finally whispers, voice rough but tender. âBeen holding it for you⊠but I need to come now, baby. Need to fill you one last time.â
She nods, legs tightening around his waist, fingers stroking the back of his neck. âCome inside me. Please. I want to feel it⊠all of it.â
He kisses her deeply as his pace shifts â still deep and intentional, but with a little more urgency now. One hand slides between them to circle her clit with slow, perfect pressure while he thrusts. Their mouths stay connected, soft and open, sharing every moan and gasp.
When her fourth orgasm finally washes over her â slow, rolling, and devastatingly sweet â she clenches hard around him, whimpering his name into his mouth. Thatâs all it takes.
Soobin groans low and broken, burying himself as deep as he can go. His cock pulses inside her, spilling hot and thick in long, rhythmic waves. He keeps rocking gently through it, pushing every drop deeper, like heâs sealing something between them.
âTake it all,â he breathes against her lips. âThatâs it⊠good girl. All for you.â
They stay like that, trembling and connected, until the last aftershocks fade. Only then does Soobin carefully pull out, a thick trickle of his release following. He doesnât let the mess bother either of them. Instead, he rolls onto his back and pulls her on top of him, wrapping both arms around her body like he never plans to let go.
The aftercare begins without words at first.
He strokes her back in long, soothing lines, fingertips tracing her spine, then her shoulders, then down to the curve of her ass. His other hand cups the back of her head, threading gently through her damp hair. Soft kisses land on her forehead, her temple, the tip of her nose, quiet, reverent presses of his lips that say everything he doesnât voice yet.
âYou okay?â he murmurs eventually, voice low and warm in the darkness.
She nods against his chest, ear pressed over his heartbeat. âMore than okay. I feel⊠floaty. Safe. Like nothing bad can touch me when Iâm with you like this.â
A small, satisfied sound rumbles in his chest. âGood. Thatâs exactly how I want you to feel.â He presses another kiss to the top of her head. âYou were perfect tonight. Took everything I gave you so beautifully. Iâm so proud of you, baby.â
She smiles sleepily, nuzzling closer. âYou always take such good care of me. Even when weâre⊠like that. Especially when weâre like that.â
âBecause youâre mine to take care of,â he says simply, one hand continuing its slow strokes down her back while the other reaches for the nightstand. He grabs a soft towel heâd left there earlier (always prepared) and gently cleans between her thighs with careful, tender wipes. âThere⊠better?â
âMhm.â She sighs contentedly as he finishes and tosses the towel aside, then pulls the blanket up over both of them. âStay like this? Donât move away yet.â
âIâm not going anywhere,â he promises, shifting them so sheâs tucked perfectly against his side, head on his chest, one of her legs thrown over his. His arm curls protectively around her waist, hand splaying wide over her lower back. âIâve got you. Sleep if you want. Iâll be right here.â
She traces idle patterns on his chest with her fingertip. âYou always know what I need before I even ask. The towel⊠the way you hold me after⊠everything. How do you do that?â
He chuckles softly, the sound vibrating under her ear. âI pay attention. To every little thing about you.â His fingers keep stroking her hair, slow and rhythmic. âYouâve been carrying so much with the thesis and finals. You deserve to be taken care of like this. Deserve to feel loved and safe every single night.â
The word âlovedâ lands softly between them. She doesnât pull away from it â just lets it settle in her chest like something warm and familiar.
âI do feel loved,â she whispers after a moment. âWith you. Even if we still call this⊠whatever it is between best friends.â
Soobinâs arms tighten around her just a fraction. His voice stays calm, but thereâs a depth of satisfaction underneath. âThen keep feeling it. Because Iâm not stopping anytime soon.â
He reaches over and turns off the small lamp on the nightstand, plunging the room into comfortable darkness. The only sounds are their breathing and the distant hum of the city outside. He keeps holding her close, one hand never stopping its gentle caresses, down her arm, across her back, along her hip, grounding her, soothing every last bit of tension from her body.
âClose your eyes,â he murmurs. âIâve got the whole night. Tomorrow Iâll make you breakfast, run you a bath if youâre sore, whatever you need. But right now⊠just let me hold you.â
She yawns softly, already drifting. âLove you, Soobin⊠thank you for always being here.â
He presses one final, lingering kiss to her forehead, eyes closing as he breathes her in.
âI love you too,â he whispers, so quietly she might not fully register it. âMore than you know. Sleep now, baby. Iâm right here.â
In the quiet afterglow, with his cum still warm inside her and his arms wrapped securely around her body, she falls asleep feeling completely cherished, completely safe, and completely his â even if she still believes itâs all harmless.
Soobin stays awake a little longer, listening to her breathing even out, one hand resting possessively over her lower stomach.
He smiles into the dark.
Everything was going exactly as planned.
The notebook gets a new entry around week six of the semester, written in the bathroom of her apartment while she's in the shower, his handwriting smaller than usual like he's containing something:
*Ovulation window opens Thursday. She has a seminar until 6. I'll have dinner ready. She always relaxes after eating. Be patient. Let it happen naturally. It always happens naturally with her.*
*She took the vitamins again this morning. Third week. She thinks they're the same ones.*
*She said I don't know what I'd do without you last night when I fixed her laptop. She said it like it was nothing. She doesn't know it's everything.*
He closes the notebook. Listens to the shower running. Thinks about the Eevee onesie and the tiny paw shoes and the annotated map of the city with the good school district circled in blue pen.
He thinks: we're so close.
He thinks: she just needs a little more time to catch up.
He puts the notebook back in the bag where it always lives â deep, under folded clothes, the corner just barely visible if you know to look for it â and goes back to the kitchen to finish dinner.
She comes out of the shower in his hoodie twenty minutes later, hair damp, smelling like her shampoo and a little like him, and the sight of her in his space, in his clothes, building a life in the shape he's been quietly constructing around her for years â it lands in his chest the way it always lands, like coming home.
"Smells good," she says, dropping into her chair at the table.
"Chicken," he says. "You said you were craving it."
She said that Tuesday. Offhand. In the middle of a different conversation.
She doesn't remember saying it.
He does.
It happens on a Thursday afternoon â late sun cutting through the crooked blinds in narrow gold strips, the apartment carrying the stale-coffee smell of a day spent working at home, the ceiling fan doing its slow whining rotation. She's curled on the couch in his hoodie, phone face-down on the armrest, something unresolved sitting between her shoulder blades that she can't quite name.
He's on the floor with his back against the couch, textbook open across his lap, thumb tracing the edge of page 187 the way he does when he's reading but also thinking about something else.
She drops the phone onto the armrest and exhales through her nose.
"So," she starts, and stops. Tries again. "Have you ever â been with a girl and a guy, like, at the same time in your life? Overlapping?"
His thumb stills on the page. He tilts his head two centimeters left â that listening posture she knows â and lifts his eyes slowly.
"Why now?" he asks, voice soft with a tiny hook at the corner of his mouth.
She shrugs inside the oversized sleeves, pulling both cuffs down until her hands vanish. "Just thinking. You talk about hot guys the same way you talk about hot girls. It feels easier for you. More natural."
He closes the book carefully. Sets it beside his thigh, edges aligned.
"Easier with what?" His torso shifts toward her; his knee brushes her calf where she's curled on the cushion above him and stays there, warm.
She doesn't move her leg. "With bodies. Touch. Everything. You don't flinch. Guy or girl â it's the same to you."
He rests his elbow on the cushion by her knee, face tilted up toward hers. "Does that bother you?"
"No." She shakes her head, a loose strand falling across her eye that she pushes back with a sleeved knuckle. "I think it's nice. You just exist like that. No categories."
The fan whines once. A gold bar of light slides across the bridge of his nose.
"So what do you think I am?" he asks, barely above a whisper.
She swallows. "Someone who likes people. In different ways. At once, or one after the other. Doesn't matter."
His thumb traces a slow circle on the book cover. His gaze flicks to her mouth for half a second.
"Would knowing change anything for you?"
Her stomach executes a slow, rolling flip. "No." Fast, then softer: "I mean â it wouldn't change what we're already doing."
He lifts his right hand. The backs of his fingers brush the inside of her wrist where the hoodie sleeve has slipped â dry, warm, almost accidental. Almost. His thumb settles over her pulse â no pressure, just resting, feeling the quick rhythm underneath.
"Good to know," he murmurs.
She feels the last piece click into place in the back of her mind and slide a drawer shut: bi. Of course. That explains the way he talks about bodies, the way he's never had a label that fit, the way he dated that one guy in high school and then no one seriously after. That explains all of it. She's not his girl â she's his safe person, his most trusted body, the one constant in a life that keeps its real desires in a quieter room.
She breathes out slowly.
"You're really good at being human," she says, trying for playful, landing somewhere rougher.
He smiles sideways â small, secret. "And you're really good at letting me be."
His thumb stays exactly where it is over her pulse.
The light shifts from gold to orange and neither of them moves and she settles into the version of him she's just constructed â bi, complicated, hers in the way that doesn't require explanation â and feels the relief of it, the neat click of a label that makes everything make sense.
She doesn't see him watching her settle.
She doesn't see the small satisfied thing that moves across his face when he feels her relax.
He was never bi.
He was never gay.
He is a man who has been in love with one specific woman for four years and has been willing to be anything she needed him to be in order to stay close enough to matter.
He keeps his thumb on her pulse a little longer.
Feels it slow.
Feels her trust him completely.
March.
The period tracker app on his phone â the one synced silently to hers since September, the one she has no idea he has â shows a seven-day window starting the fourteenth.
He doesn't change anything about how he acts during those seven days. That's the discipline of it, the thing he's practiced and refined over months of quiet watching: he doesn't become different during the window, he just becomes more of what he already is. More present. More warm. More inclined to touch her without reason, to pull her into him from behind in the kitchen while she's reading something on her phone, to end evenings by pulling her into the bedroom instead of letting her drift to the pull-out, which she almost never uses anymore but still theoretically could.
The fourteenth falls on a Friday. She has a seminar until six. He has dinner ready at six-thirty. She comes through the door already half-unraveling from the week â bag dropped, shoes kicked, the exhale of someone who has been holding herself together through a long day and can finally let the seams loosen â and walks straight into the kitchen where he's plating food and leans her forehead against his shoulder blade without a word.
He reaches back and puts his hand on her hip without turning around.
"Hard day?" he asks.
"The worst," she says into his shoulder.
"Sit down. It's ready."
She sits. He brings everything over. They eat with the window cracked, the early March air just beginning to smell like something other than winter, and she talks about the seminar and he listens the way he always listens â fully, with his eyes on her face, asking the questions that extend what she's saying rather than redirecting it. This is one of the things she tells Lia about him when Lia asks â he actually listens, like, actually â and she doesn't know that she's describing something he cultivated deliberately over years because the research he did on emotional connection in long-term partnerships said that attentive listening was the highest-rated quality in relationship satisfaction across all studies.
He did the research.
Of course he did the research.
After dinner she ends up on his lap on the couch â not because she made a decision, just because the gravitational pull between them at this point is essentially physics â and his hand finds the back of her neck and she closes her eyes and his mouth finds her ear and it proceeds the way it always proceeds from here: inevitable, warm, without ceremony.
She doesn't think about protection.
She doesn't think about anything except the warmth of him and the weight of the week leaving her body and how this, right here, is the only place in the world where everything quiet down.
He thinks about the window.
He thinks: this is how it was always going to happen â naturally, warmly, in the middle of an ordinary evening, without her knowing what it is.
He thinks: she'll understand later. She'll choose this later. She always chooses me eventually â I just have to be patient enough to let her arrive.
He pulls her closer.
She melts into him without question.
Outside, early spring comes in quietly through the cracked window, carrying the smell of something new beginning.
April arrives and the thesis is submitted and the relief of it is enormous and clean and she screams in the apartment at 11:47pm when the portal confirms receipt and Soobin picks her up from the floor and spins her once, laughing, and she's laughing too and the apartment smells like the celebration dinner he started at ten in case it finished early â because he knew it would finish around now, because he checked her submitted draft schedule three days ago and calculated the revision time she'd need â and everything is warm and good and full of the specific joy of something enormous finally being done.
They're drunk by one. Not sloppy-drunk â happy-drunk, the kind where everything is funny and the music is too loud and she ends up on the kitchen counter while he dances extremely badly in front of her and she's laughing so hard her stomach hurts, and he grabs her hands and makes her dance with him standing on the floor while she's on the counter so they're almost the same height and she cups his face and kisses him â sweet this time, soft, grateful â and feels the whole weight of this year, of this person, of this strange warm life they've built in the space between what she thought he was and what he actually is.
"We're going to graduate," she says against his mouth, the fact of it landing new each time she says it.
"We're going to graduate," he agrees, hands on her waist, steady.
She leans her forehead against his. Thinks about May. Thinks about the families coming and the gowns and the photographs and what comes after and the particular terrifying freedom of after.
"Are you scared?" she asks.
"No," he says, which is true. He has been building after for years. He knows exactly what it looks like. "Are you?"
"A little," she admits.
He pulls her closer. "I'll be there," he says. "Whatever comes after. I'm there."
She believes him completely.
She has no idea how literal he means it.
May arrives in three weeks and leaves a month of chaos in its wake â final presentations, departmental dinners, the strange suspended quality of last things, last lectures, last times walking routes she's walked four years of mornings. She takes photos of things she never photographed before: the library window. The bench near the science building where she ate lunch a hundred times. The coffee place two blocks over where he introduced her to the order that's been hers for two years now.
She texts one to him with the caption: this is because of you.
He texts back: all the good ones are.
She screenshots it and doesn't tell him.
He already knows.
The families arrive the Thursday before graduation.
It's been planned for weeks â both sets of parents, a restaurant in the city, the kind of dinner that requires a reservation and actual shoes and the specific performance of adulthood that comes with presenting your life to people who remember when you were smaller. She spends an hour getting dressed and changes twice and Soobin sits on the edge of her bed watching her with the patience of a man who genuinely does not care which dress she wears as long as she's in the room.
"The blue one," he says, when she holds up two options.
"You always pick the blue one."
"Because you always look best in the blue one." Flat. Obvious. Like this is not a compliment but a fact, which is exactly how he always delivers compliments, which is exactly why they land.
She puts on the blue one.
The restaurant is warm and candlelit and the tables are close enough together that everything feels intimate whether you want it to be or not. Her parents are already there when they arrive â her mother standing up immediately, arms open, the specific warmth of a hug from a woman who has been waiting to see her daughter for months and is not going to underdeliver on the reunion. Her father shakes Soobin's hand â firm, measured, the handshake of a man who is taking stock â and Soobin meets it evenly, which her father notices, which is the first point in Soobin's favor.
His parents arrive five minutes later. His mother is warm and effortlessly elegant in the way of women who have been comfortable for a long time. His father has Soobin's height and Soobin's quality of stillness and the specific observant quiet of a man who built something and would like to see who his son is becoming.
The table settles. Wine is poured. The conversation finds its feet.
She watches it happen without fully understanding what she's watching â the way the two sets of parents orient toward each other with a comfort that feels less like strangers getting acquainted and more like people who already have an opinion and are spending the evening confirming it. Her mother laughs at something Soobin's mother says and touches her arm and the gesture is too warm for first meeting, like they've been in the same orbit before and simply haven't occupied the same room until now.
She goes to the bathroom midway through the main course and comes back to find her father and Soobin in the corner of the conversation, the rest of the table temporarily occupied with something else, her father leaning forward slightly â not hostile but focused â and Soobin meeting every question with the easy confidence of a man who prepared for this meeting long before it was scheduled.
She watches from across the room for a moment before they see her.
Her father nods once. Deliberate.
Soobin catches her eye over the table â quick, barely a flicker â and she can't read it from here, except that it's warm.
She sits back down. Her mother squeezes her hand under the table.
"He's wonderful," her mother says quietly, very close to her ear. "He's always been wonderful."
She thinks: she means as a friend. She means it the way she always means it â Soobin is wonderful, what a good friend, what a lucky thing you found him.
She doesn't think anything more careful than that.
After dinner â families separating, hotel directions exchanged, hugs distributed â she and Soobin walk back to the apartment in the cool May evening with the city noise low around them. He has his jacket over her shoulders because she was cold three blocks ago and he took it off without being asked, which is, she thinks distantly, so completely him that she doesn't even think of it as remarkable anymore.
"My dad asked you about your plans," she says.
"I know. I told him."
She glances at him. "What did you tell him?"
"The truth." His hands are in his pockets, step unhurried. "That I have a position with my father's company starting in July. That I'm looking at apartments in this city. That I plan to be around."
She absorbs this. The position she knew about. The apartments â she hasn't heard about apartments. "Looking at apartments?"
"Casually," he says, which is not true at all, but he says it so evenly that it lands as true. "Just thinking about the next step. It makes sense to stay near campus for a while. We both have reasons to stay near campus."
She nods slowly. She doesn't ask why he's framing it as we â it just sounds right, it slots in beside all the other things that have started sounding right without her consciously deciding they should.
"He seemed to approve," she says.
"He asked good questions. I respect him." A pause. "He loves you. Wants to know you're taken care of."
The phrase lands softly and she doesn't examine it. Just walks beside him with his jacket over her shoulders and the city lights turning everything amber and thinks: this is what after looks like, maybe. This warm ordinary thing. This person walking beside her who knows her schedule and her coffee order and her worst fears and her best jokes and who has made himself so completely necessary that she stopped being able to locate the seam between where she ends and where he begins.
She hooks her pinky through his â the old habit, the childhood reflex, the one that means crowds and closeness and I don't want to lose you in this.
He hooks back.
They walk the last three blocks in comfortable silence.
The night before graduation she can't sleep.
This is not unusual â she's been a bad sleeper before big things her whole life â but the particular shape of this restlessness is different. It's not the thesis anxiety or the seminar-deadline 4am alarm-heart. It's something lower and stranger, something in her body rather than her mind, a low-grade wrongness she can't locate precisely. She's been a little off for the past week. Not sick exactly â nothing she could point to and name â just slightly not herself, a degree or two off her usual temperature, a faint nausea some mornings that she blames on stress and then forgets by afternoon.
She chalks it up to the enormity of tomorrow.
Soobin is asleep behind her â arm over her waist, face close to her shoulder, breathing slow and even. He fell asleep fast the way he always does after she stops moving, like her stillness is the signal his body was waiting for.
She stares at the ceiling.
She thinks about four years. She thinks about the girl who arrived at this school with a perfectly organized planner and a very clear idea of what the next four years would look like, and looks for the seam between that girl and this one â lying in a bed that has become shared so gradually she couldn't tell you which night the pronoun changed from his bed to our bed â and finds the seam is very thin. Almost invisible. The kind that a good tailor makes deliberately so you can't see the work.
She thinks: I'm really happy.
The thought arrives simply, without the guilty hedging she might have expected. She's really happy. This is her life and she likes it and tomorrow she's going to wear a gown and her parents will cry and Soobin will be right there the way he always is and after after comes and she'll figure it out â they'll figure it out, the we that has become natural â and everything is going to be fine.
She doesn't think about the slight wrongness in her body. She's tired and stressed and tomorrow is enormous and everything strange is explainable.
She turns over. Faces him.
In the dark his face is soft the way it gets in sleep â the careful composure he carries through waking hours gentled down to something younger, the boy inside the man, the person who has apparently been in love with her since they were nineteen and showed it in every way except the most obvious one.
She thinks: I love you.
The thought arrives without fanfare. Not a revelation â just a recognition, quiet and deep, like something that has been true for a long time finally being acknowledged in the right language.
She doesn't say it out loud.
But she tucks it close.
Closes her eyes.
And finally, finally, sleeps.
The next morning she wakes up to the smell of coffee and the sound of him moving quietly in the kitchen and the pale particular light of a May morning that is going to be a beautiful day. She lies there for a moment â ceiling, light, the distant sound of campus beginning to wake â and notices, without urgency, that her stomach feels faintly wrong again.
She ignores it.
Gets up. Gets dressed. Puts on the earrings he picked out last week when she held up options â simple silver ones he said would catch the light under the ceremony tent, because of course he thought about that.
He appears in the doorway with two mugs. "How do you feel?"
"Good," she says, and mostly means it. "Nervous. Ready."
He hands her the coffee. His thumb brushes her wrist when she takes it â just a second, just contact â and she feels it move through her the way it always moves through her, warm and sure and impossible to locate properly because it's everywhere now, woven into the whole fabric of her days.
"You're going to be great," he says.
"We're going to be great," she corrects.
He smiles â small, real, the one with the dimples â and it's a smile she doesn't quite have the context for, layered with a satisfaction she can't fully see.
"Yeah," he says quietly. "We are."
She drinks her coffee.
Outside, the May morning opens up clear and warm and full of beginnings.
And in her body, very quietly, something has already begun.
âł Stuck in a toxic relationship reader finally realizes what love should feel like when Paige shows her what it means to feel safe, seen, and cared for.
The first meeting was⊠awkward, to say the least. It was a week after the draft, no one was supposed to be in the training facilities but you. The job of the day was to get B-Roll footage of the place, stuff that can be used and recycled for social media, and show the facilities to the viewers without anybody there. So with a coffee in hand, and headphones on, you made your way through the building - starting in the offices then the medical and treatment rooms before getting to the court.Â
The first thing Paige saw when she entered was someone mid dance with big headphones on and a phone in a tripod pointing around the big indoor court.
âHello?â
Nothing. Oh yeah, the headphones.Â
Slowly, as if she was approaching a wounded animal, Paige made her way over to you, softly tapping your shoulder. But her careful try was useless as you let out a yelp, stumbled over the tripod before it fell over and ripped off the headphones mid fall. But like in a cheesy rom-com you never hit the ground as the pretty blonde in front of you caught you by the elbow, keeping you up.
âUh⊠hi?â she tried again.
âYou canât just sneak up on people like that! I think you gave me a heart attack!â your chest moved up and down rapidly, trying to work through the initial shock.
âYouâre fine,â she grinned, âdidnât even fall. Thanks to me.â The wink was too much to comprehend as you were still trying to catch your breath. âI thought this place was locked anyways.â She continued.
Finally you got a grip back on life, standing straight and picking up the tripod, âYeah, but I work here, one of the media girls.â As if to get your point across you motioned to the phone, checking for cracks. âIâm allowed to be here. You on the other hand...â The teasing smile on your face was a stark contrast to the panic Paige saw before.Â
âGuess weâre both rule-breakers.â You nod in agreement before coming to your senses and rapidly shaking your head, âNuh uh, Iâm allowed to be here!â The blonde laughed,â You know who would say that?âÂ
âWho?âÂ
âSomeone thatâs not supposed to be here.â
An offended gasp filled the empty court, as you crossed your arms over your chest and eyes narrowed in mock betrayal. âIâll have you know Iâm very professional. I only enter empty gyms in artistic circumstances.â
Paige hummed, a smirk on her face âMhmm. Artistic. Sure.â
âWhat, you donât think my danc-â Your personal phone buzzed in your pocket - loud, urgent. Paige notices the furrow in your brows and how your smile slips for just a second as you glance on the screen.Â
[6 texts from: Jared]
†Where the hell are you
†Answer me
†You said youâd be back 30 mins ago
†Iâm not playing with you rn
âUhm. Sorry I gotta go.â Paige blinked at you, âWhat, already?â
âYeah. Got what I needed.â You shoved your phone into your bag, rushing to pack up your tripod without looking at her. âCourtâs all yours.â
She tilted her head, long hair swishing gently to one side, âAre you okay?â
âOh yes, no worries!â The smile on your face seemed⊠off. âIâm just on a very tight schedule of mild chaos.â
You started backing away, already halfway to the tunnel exit. âOh, and Paige?â She perked up, still watching you carefully. âYeah?âÂ
You gave a weak little grin. âNext time, bring coffee. Scaring people earns you caffeine tax.â
Then you turned and walked off, your steps a little faster than before. Paige stood frozen, her gaze trailing you until you disappeared around the corner.
She frowned.
Something didnât add up.
And for the first time since she got to Dallas, Paige Bueckers wasnât thinking about basketball.
â
Meeting Paige for the second time was a lot more like you had originally planned it. First day of training camp. The entire facility was buzzing like a hive, excited, nervous - especially the rookies. They already had a press conference the day before, as well as a photoshoot, so now the fun could begin. This was also your first day with the full, new team, the last few functions had been covered by your colleagues.Â
Sneakers squeaked and whistles echoed through the big indoor court as coaches yelled instructions and teammates tried to communicate with each other over the music.Â
It was day 1 and you were already sweating, obviously not from playing basketball but from running around the gym trying to get shots of everyone. It was way too warm to wear a hoodie, but you couldnât change that now.Â
âSunshine!â Maddy Siegrist called out to you across the court, she was entering her third season. âYou get a shot of me doing that sick reverse layup or do I have to redo it?â
The smile on her face was cheeky enough to get a laugh out of you. âGot it in burst mode, Maddy,â you said, adjusting the camera around your neck, the strap getting uncomfortable after a time, âI even got your ugly concentration face if you wanna see it again?â
âRude,â Maddy said, grinning. âSee if I let you get my good side again.â
âYou have a good side?â DiJonai chimed in, drawing a laugh from the group.
Paige couldnât stop staring, not in a creepy or weird way, she was just... Observing. She saw how you zipped around the court like you belonged there, bantering with her new teammates as they called out âsunshineâ to get your attention on them, hoping youâd get a good shot of them attempting something.
You were cracking jokes and all smiles, you were - on. But she couldnât stop thinking about the way you bolted out of the gym just a couple of days ago, the way your entire demeanor had drastically changed at one look at your phone.
âAlright, grab some water, catch your breath for a second!â Chris, the head coach yelled out. Naturally the blonde drifted over to where you stood on the sidelines, two water bottles in her hands.Â
Let me guess,â she said casually. âYouâre gonna post the worst picture of me, huh?â You didnât jump this timeâbut your eyes flicked up in surprise, not expecting anyone to come up to you as you reviewed shots on your camera.
âWell, you did come into the league with a reputation. Gotta keep expectations realistic,â you teased, your camera already swinging up toward her, getting a horrendous angle on her as you crouched down to put a lens away.
âI literally just got here,â Paige said flatly, not impressed at all at the flash that went off.
You grinned. âExactly.â
She smirked. But then your phone buzzed â three short, sharp vibrations in your pocket. You didnât even look at it this time. Just silenced it with a practiced thumb swipe and tucked it back into your bag like it didnât matter.
But your shoulders had gone tense. And Paige caught it. Of course she did. "You alright?" she asked quietly, not joking anymore.
You looked at her a beat too long, then blinked and smiled. That same, slightly-too-sunny smile.
âYup. Golden.â You gestured vaguely toward the team. âNow hydrate, Rookie. Youâve got a whole training camp to impress me.â
âMe impress you?â Paigeâs eyebrows shot up as she opened one bottle and handed it to you before opening her own and taking a big gulp.
âExactly.â You winked and took a sip. âIâve got the camera. That means I control the legacy.â
With the back of her hand Paige wiped her mouth while chuckling. âSo I gotta earn your approval and try not to look stupid on the internet?âÂ
Your head tilted as you shrugged. âBasically, yeah. High-stakes game. Emphasis on not looking stupid online.â
She gave you a glance as she nudged your water bottle, telling you to take another sip before closing her own. âAnd what do you get out of this?â
Your mouth opened for another sarcastic answer but you got interrupted by new buzzes of your phone. These seemed louder, more intense, more persistent.Â
âI get to make magic,â you shrugged before lifting the camera again and pointing it at her face. âNow go stand near the hoop and look natural.â
Paige didnât move right away. She just watched you. Watched how quickly you slipped the mask back on. Then, finally, she turned and jogged off toward the baseline, calling over her shoulder, âDonât make me look short.â
You laughed, the sound carrying across the court. âBetter grow an inch then, Bueckers!â
Before Paige could fire something back, a voice called her name from the free throw line - âP! We need a fifth!â
She lingered just long enough to catch the way your smile dropped before jogging back onto the court.
â
Game days have always been hectic, stressful and chaotic. But not the bad kind of chaos but the kind that makes your blood rush with adrenaline and the smile stay on your face for so long that it hurts. The exciting kind of chaos, where you felt your heart in your throat - you lived for days like this, camera in one hand, press badge around your neck, running on caffeine and nerves.
The first game of the season was against the Las Vegas Aces at Joyce Center Notre Dame, Indiana. The Pavillion was already buzzing with fans and students as you slipped past security and into the tunnel. Today's fit was all black, trying to be as much in the background as possible. Comfortable, invisible. You liked it that way - a photographer's uniform.
Players were warming up on the court. Media circled like sharks. Lights were blinding. Music thundered. It was all familiar.
And stillâyour hands were a little shaky.
âSunshine!â NaLyssa jogged over, her warm-up jacket half on half off. âTell me youâre getting my walkout? I want tunnel footage that looks like Iâm about to drop 30.â
You grinned. âOnly if you do drop 30. I have integrity, Smith.â She threw a quick âI gotchuâ in your direction before running off again. In her stead, Paige emerged from the locker room in full uniform, earbuds in, head low. The rookie buzz was thick around her. She was trying to look calm. She wasnât and you knew it.
Your eyes met. And for a second, neither of you moved. She gave you a tiny nod. Not a smile. Just... acknowledgment.
You lifted your camera. Snapped one quiet photo. Caught her mid-stride, jaw set, spotlight just catching her cheekbone. It would be a great shot. Her shots always were.Â
Then it happened again, your phone buzzed. No subtle ping just sharp, angry vibrations again. You checked the screen, instinctively.
[3 texts from: Jared]
†Where are you.
†I saw your story.
†You think Iâm fucking stupid?
Your fingers clenched so tight around the phone you nearly cracked it. The heat drained from your face. You backed up into the tunnel. Just for a second. Just to breathe.
âHey.â
Paigeâs voice cut through the noisy atmosphere, shutting it all out. She must have put down her bottle, headphones and towel on the bench before following you the few steps into the darker tunnel. Her brows were furrowed, and she looked like she wanted to say something. Same look she wore at camp. Like she knew something.
âYou good?â she asked. You nodded too quickly letting out the fakest laugh she had heard from you as of yet. âYeah. Just... bright lights. Low blood sugar,â you waved it off, âYou know, media girl problems.â
She didnât laugh. She just watched you. And then, like she couldnât help it, she leaned closer, keeping her voice low.
âIs someone messing with you?â
The question felt like a slap â not because of the words, but because it was the first time someone asked it out loud.
You blinked. Then smiled â brittle and brilliant. âNope. Just showtime jitters.â You raised your camera again, angling the lens so she couldnât see your face. âNow go be a star, Bueckers.â
You didnât see her eyes stay on you. Didnât see the way she lingered. Didnât hear her whisper to herself as she walked back toward the court: âLiar.â
â
The hotel room was quiet, almost too quiet after the loud crowd at the game. Due to an odd number of staff you had gotten your own room while most others were paired up. It was quiet like before a storm. Your gear bag was still packed next to the door, you hadnât even taken your shoes off or changed out of your outfit.
The game ended with a loss for the Dallas Wings but that wasnât too bad, it was only the first of the season with an entirely different team. For you it had been a good game, the footage was clean and you can feel the energy in them.Â
And yet here you were, sitting on the edge of the hotel bed like a glitch in the system.
The only light came from your laptop, halfway open and flickering with edits of the nightâs media dump. You were supposed to be uploading clips. Sending previews. Drafting captions.
Instead, you were staring at a single photo - Paige mid-drive, focused, powerful. You had caught her in perfect motion, backlit by the bright lights.
Your phone buzzed again.
[5 texts from: Jared]
†You think I donât know where that hotel is?
†Iâm not an idiot.
†Answer me.
†I said ANSWER ME.
†You think this little game makes you better than me?
You watched the messages roll in, but didnât answer. You sat your phone down on the nightstand, the screen down, but it kept buzzing. You could feel the angry vibrations through the cheap wood like a second heartbeat.Â
Instead of checking it you stared straight ahead in the dark room, jaw locked and chest feeling way too tight. You kept swallowing. But it didnât work.Â
Thenâlike some dam had quietly cracked - you reached up and wiped your eye. Just once. Then again. And suddenly, tears spilled fast, like they had been waiting their turn all day or even longer.
You didnât sob. You didnât scream. That would require energy you didnât have. You just leaked, silently, as your shoulders folded in and your shaking hands pressed to your face.
The kind of crying that didnât look dramatic. Just tired. Just⊠done. The ugly kind. Your laptop screen timed out. Darkness flooded the room. Still, the phone kept buzzing.
Eventually, you turned it off. Not silenced. Not ignored.
Off.
You slipped on your team issued hoodie, grabbed your room-key and left the dark room.Â
The stairwell was stuffy and dim, lit by one flickering bulb, but you kept climbing.
One flight.
Then two.
Then the heavy metal door to the roof gave way with an eerie creak, making your bones shudder.
Cool air hit your face, sharp and quiet.
Up here, the world felt a little farther away. Just lights in the distance, the hum of AC units, and a faint breeze that tugged at your sleeves. You needed a moment before pulling your phone out and dialing while leaning on the metal railing.
The line rang onceâthen connected.
âFinally,â Jaredâs voice snapped through like a blade. âYou screen me all night just to call me now?â
You didnât say anything. Not right away. You stared out into the blur of headlights and halos. And all of a sudden the air wasnât refreshing anymore. It was just cold, metallic and heavy.Â
âWell? You gonna speak or just breathe heavy?â
ââŠHi, sorry I was working,â you murmured. Your voice was so soft it barely reached your own ears.
âWorking. Sure. Where the fuck is my money?â You winced and curled up in your hoodie, pulling the hood over your head trying to shield your face from the cold wind. Tears stinging in your eyes.
âIt was supposed to be yesterday. You promised me yesterday.â
âI know,â you said quickly, automatically. âI tried to move it early, but-â
âI donât want your excuses. You think Iâm just sitting here waiting around while you play dress-up with basketball Barbies and your little media job and feel all important?â
You didnât even hear the door creak behind you, as it opened further than you had left it open. You just lowered your voice even more, barely above a whisper. âPlease donât do this right now.â
Jared didnât even hear it. Or maybe he did and didnât care. âYou made a commitment. Youâre not just gonna flake because you got a new backdrop for your sad little life. You owe me.â
âI know,â you whispered. âI know.â
A pause.
âIâll get it to you. I just⊠I need a little more time.â
He laughed - that hard, bitter kind of laugh that made your blood feel cold.
âYouâre always saying that. You always âjust need time.â I shouldâve known better than to count on you. You always act like youâre doing me a favor - you should be grateful I havenât shown up and taken it myself.â
Something behind you shifted. A soft scuff of sneakers. But still, you didnât turn, didnât hear it or just didnât care.
âIâll fix it,â you said. Quiet. Small. Mechanical.
There was silence on the line for a beat. Then Jared spat, âYeah. You better,â and the call went dead.
You stayed frozen. Just stood there, phone still in hand, like it might ring again.
From the shadows near the exit, Paige had stopped mid-step. She hadnât meant to eavesdrop - she was just looking for air, same as you. But now she stood still, watching your hunched figure against the skyline.
She didnât interrupt. She just looked. Saw. She saw the real you.
And after a long moment, she turned and slipped quietly back down the stairs.
â
The restaurant looked warm and inviting - bright but not in the blinding way. Bright in a golden way, that made everyone look a little softer than the harsh lights on the court. The team had taken over the back of the place, pushed 2 long tables together to fit everyone semi-comfortable. After all, basketball players do need a bit more space than ânormal sizedâ humans.Â
You were late, not fashionably late, but a hurried late.Â
It was NaLyssa that had texted you earlier âYouâre coming, no excuses. Weâre family now.â
It took longer to get there than you had expected or wanted. Without a car you depended on Jared in that department. But he was already irritated that you were going out, so why would he drive you? He only accepted after you offered to pay for his gas at the nearest station. So after getting gas he had dropped you off two blocks away. After watching his car (which was really yours but thatâs a different story) drive off, you walked the last bit fast, heart pounding the whole time like it might outrun your nerves.
Slipping through the door of the restaurant you felt a bit out of place in some jeans and a hoodie, so you tried to blend in with the shadows.Â
âHeyy, she made it!â Maddy shouted, lifting her glass. A small round of cheers rose up.
Bye bye shadows.
DiJonai waved you over, patting the empty seat beside her. The one opposite Paige.
You smiled tightly and offered a quick, âSorry, sorry. Hope I didnât miss dessert.â
âPlease,â DiJonai said, sliding a menu in front of you. âYou missed the worldâs slowest appetizer order. Sit. Eat.â You sat. Your hoodie still smelled faintly like the car. You didnât take it off.
The waiter came over, and when he asked what you wanted, you barely looked at the menu.
âJust the⊠house salad, no dressing. Thanks.â There was a beat - just long enough for someone to notice. âYou sure?â NaLyssa asked gently. âTheyâve got good pasta here. You love pasta.â
âIâll steal bites from all of you,â you deflected with a small smile. âProfessional moocher.â
They laughed. The tension moved on. But Paige didnât.
Her sharp eyes stayed on you as you made good on your promise, eating a fork full of someone's Carbonara and stealing a piece of garlic bread. Laughing at DiJonaiâs commentary on wine snobs. Listening as Maddy tried to impersonate the head coach and nearly choked on her soda, sending the whole table into a fit of laughter.Â
A laugh so good it made your stomach hurt and eyes well up with tears as you tried to get some air.
At some point, Paige leaned forward to pass you a piece of steak from her plate without saying anything. Just set it on your bread plate and kept talking to JJ beside her. Some roasted potatoes followed soon after.
You didnât look up. Just ate it. Quietly. Gratefully.
When the others started to order dessert you had excused yourself to the bathroom, quickly freshen yourself up and opened your hoodie for once, all the laughing and good food had warmed you right up.Â
The others were just finishing up their main course when you got back to eat your salad. âYouâve seriously been here for thirty minutes and havenât checked your phone once,â Paige said across the table, a teasing edge to her voice. âYouâre not even pretending to look bored. Didnât even take it with you to the bathroom.â
Your brows shot up as you lifted your fork with some arugula on it pointing it accusingly at the blonde across from you. âWhat, are you timing me? Itâs getting a little creepy, Bueckers.â
She shrugged, a smirk playing at her lips. âI notice things.â
That made your smile twitch into something crooked. You swallowed. âMaybe Iâm just trying not to look like the chronically online media gremlin.â Maddy leaned in from two seats down. âToo late. You were posting game reels before tipoff.â
âExactly. I earn my gremlin status.â You tapped the edge of your water glass. âBut this? This is sacred. Food is sacred.â
Paigeâs brow rose as she pointed at your sad little side salad. âThatâs what counts as sacred now?â You gave her a flat look. âIâm taste-testing my way across the teamâs orders. It's a curated sampler.â
âSheâs scamming us,â DiJonai said, shaking her head. âI lost half my truffle fries five minutes ago.â
âDonât let her near the steak,â Arike warned. âShe does this thing where sheâs like, âOh, just a biteâ, and then itâs gone.â You threw your hands up, mock-offended. âIâm being framed. Youâre all just bad at food security. God forbid a girl just has a big palette.â
That earned another round of laughs from the table, loud and joyful - the kind of sound that made you forget to flinch.
Across the table, Paige was still looking at you. Chin resting on one hand, her strikingly blue eyes sharp and unreadable - until she smiled, softer this time. âStill,â she said. âNo phone. Proud of you.â You tilted your head at her. âWhyâs that worth a merit badge?â
She shrugged, but didnât look away. âJust nice to see someone here. Not halfway gone.â You shifted slightly in your seat, trying to keep it light. âSo whatâs your excuse? You havenât checked yours either.â
Paige tapped the screen of her phone on the table - dark. âI donât have anyone blowing it up.â Her tone was too casual, like it didnât matter. âGuess Iâm not that interesting.â
âOr you have bad reception,â Maddy offered, ever helpful.
Everyone laughed again, and Paige finally looked down, brushing her fingers over her phone. Then she flicked her gaze back up to you.
âOkay - picture time before anyone leaves.â Quickly you got up, digital camera in hand before DiJonai pulled you back down again. âSunshine, youâre in this one.â
Groans echoed from around the table as everyone shuffled closer together, pulling faces, leaning in. DiJonai tugged you into the shot and Paige leaned just close enough to bump shoulders over the table.
You managed to smile for the photo - a real one. And when you finally glanced at your phone after dinner?
No new messages.
â
The streets were quieter now, dark and cold. The happy buzz of the restaurant laid behind you. Youâd waved everyone off with a smile, a joke, a âsee you tomorrow,â and started toward the nearest bus stop like it was just routine.
But it wasnât routine, at least not for someone having a death grip in a camera bag and a press badge stuffed deep in your handbag. You missed your car in moments like these, but youâre getting used to it.Â
Youâd barely made it to the corner when a car pulled up alongside the curb. The window rolled down.
âGet in.â
You turned - a little too fast - only to see Paige in the driverâs seat of a black rental. One hand on the wheel, the other resting lazily on the door.
You blinked. âIâm good. I like public transport. Very... civic. You wouldnât understand, superstar.â She gave you a flat look. âItâs 11:30. The next bus is in 20 minutes and you have your holy camera with you.â
You shifted your bag higher and just looked at her.
âGet in the car, Sunny,â she said, a touch of amusement threading through the firmness, you could see it in her eyes.
You hesitated, not because you didnât want to, but because it was too easy. Too kind. Too close. Still, your legs betrayed you, already moving before you gave yourself permission. You slid into the passenger seat and closed the door.
You swallowed, âWell, uhm, thank you for saving me from my death march,â your voice was too dry to be funny.
âSomeoneâs gotta keep your freeloading ass alive,â she quipped while glancing at you but quickly going back to concentrating on the road.
You smiled, lips twitching. âYouâre getting funnier. Is that part of the rookie training?â
âOnly the advanced course.â
She parked when you gave directions, easing into the curb in front of your building. It looked a little smaller than usual under the yellow streetlight. You hated that. It looked⊠weird. With the passenger door open and one foot already on the pavement you thanked the blonde, ready to head in.
âIâll walk you up!â Her seatbelt was already unbuckled and her hand on the door handle. âOh no, you wonât,â you caught yourself and went a bit softer, your eyes not as wide anymore, âitâs okay, really. I got it.â
Paige turned to you, one eyebrow pulled up âWhy wouldnât I walk you up?â
You exhaled, trying to convince yourself of your reasoning. âBecause itâs a six-flight walk-up with a buzzer that doesnât work and a neighbor who thinks Iâm growing weed because I own succulents. Trust me, itâs not a vibe.â
She didnât laugh this time. Just looked. A beat passed.
âYou sure?â
You nodded. âThanks for the ride.â
Paige leaned back slightly. âYou always like this when someoneâs nice to you?â
You glanced over. âIâm fine with nice.â
âAre you?â You paused, hand still on the door. Another silence. Then, finally, she said, âText me when youâre inside.â
That stopped you. âI donât have your number.â
âItâs in your DMs.â You turned to look at her. She gave you a small, unreadable smile. âGood night, Sunshine.â
But before you could finally leave you starting digging in the pockets of your hoodie and came up with a small wad of bills, hastily smoothed out in your palm, desperately trying to ignore the blonde's confused face.
âHere,â you mumbled, trying to press it into her hand. âGas money.â Paige blinked, looking at the crumpled twenties like youâd handed her a live bird. âWhat?â she said, equal parts amused and confused.
âFor the drive,â you insisted, pushing it toward her. âItâs a rental. And gas is, like, criminal now.â She leaned back in her seat, both hands up. âYouâre not paying me to drive you home. Iâm not an Uber.â
âStill,â you said, your voice a little too sharp, âjust take it.â She shook her head, a soft, incredulous laugh escaping her. âYou really hate owing people, huh?â
You didnât answer.
She didnât push. Just gently closed her hand around yours and pushed it back toward your lap.
âYou can pay me back by not acting like I'm doing you a favor.â
You hesitated. Then, reluctantly, stuffed the money back into your hoodie. Sort of.
And once you were out of the car and inside the building, she waited until you had unlocked the very front door and entered the building, then drove off.
The building door barely hit the lock before you pulled out your phone. She hadnât been lying. The message was already there.
[3 texts from: @paigebueckers]
†Just in case the bus ghosts you again (xxx) xxx-xxxx.
†Or you need someone who doesnât talk loud on rooftops.
†đ¶ïžâïž
You stared at it for a moment. Then hit âSave Contact.â
Back at her place Paige went to grab her water bottle and get out of the car when she saw it - the money.
Still crumpled, still soft from your hand. Shoved into her center console cup holder. She stared at it for a long second, then sighed. âJesus,â she murmured to herself.Â
She didnât move it right away. Didnât throw it out.
Just⊠left it there.
Like it meant something.
â
The gym was emptying out fast, and it wasnât long before the only thing you could hear only the hum of the lights and the bounce of a stray ball. Youâd already packed all your gear together and carried it over your shoulder. Jelly, was the best way to describe the way your body felt.
You hadnât even planned on joining the girls in the locker room, just ducked your head in to ask Maddy what shot she wanted sent to her phone - but next thing you know you got dragged in, the camera bag nearly slipping from your shoulder.Â
âCome on, Sunshine,â she said with that mischievous grin, âyouâre basically one of us now.â
You gave a weak protest, laughing quietly. âPretty sure staff isn't supposed to be in here.â
âGuess youâll have to report yourself, then.â
Thatâs how it started. A two-minute question turned into sitting on an overturned crate near someoneâs cubby, camera bag still on, hoodie sleeves pushed up, eyes heavy. No one bat an eye at you being in there, letting you relax a tad, until your stomach grumbled - loud enough for Maddy to raise an eyebrow.
âDamn. Did you eat today?â
You hesitated. Big mistake.
âHey!â Maddy called out to the room, turning in her seat. âShe didnât eat today.â
âWhat?! Are you serious?â That was Nai, halfway through braiding her hair. âGirl, itâs like 4PM.â
âI had a bar earlier- â
âWas it a real bar or one of those pressed sadness bricks you always pull outta your bag?â The team mobilized like a tactical unit, or at least something close to it. In seconds, there were protein bars, drink bottles, and packets of fruit snacks being thrown your way like offerings to a minor deity. You blinked at the pile forming in your lap and the mess around you.
âYou guys donât have to- â
âYou work for us,â DiJonai said, tossing you a chocolate peanut butter bar. âYouâre part of the machine now. The machine stays fed.â
You gave a grateful smile. Small, but real as you didnât fight it further, just too damn tired. Cheeks warm with quiet gratitude as you tore open the first wrapper.Â
Across the room from you in her cubby was Paige, towel thrown around her neck as she took off her knee pads, she looked busy but her eyes never escaped you. You looked so small.
You didnât see her clock, how your hands shook slightly when you tried to open a bottle. You didnât notice her chewing her lip when you blinked a little too long between bites.
But she noticed.
Eventually, she walked over, lightly brushing a loose bottle cap off the bench beside you. She nudged an open water bottle your way. âThat oneâs mine. Cold.â
You took it with a grateful nod and looked up at her, âIâm good, I swear.â
She raised a brow. âYou look like youâre about to fold like a lawn chair. Drink it.â
You did.
âSo,â Arike drawled. âYour boyfriend let you starve all day, huh?â
The room went still. A beat too long.
Your face snapped up, but your mouth stayed shut. You let out a breathy chuckle, like it was funny. âHeâs not- Itâs fine. Heâs just⊠busy.â You didnât make eye contact with anyone.
The older players shared a look. Maddy opened her mouth to shift the mood, but Paige cut in first, casually. âHer boyfriend doesnât work for a W team. We win. We feed people.â
The others whooped. Just enough distraction to deflect the heat, letting the girls hype each other up one last time for the day. You smiled, forced but functional. You took a bite of the bar Paige gave you. It tasted like cardboard and warmth.
She sat beside you on the edge of the bench, just close enough that your elbows brushed.
She didnât tease you, just handed you another wrapper, already peeled slightly open.
â
A week later the weight room was buzzing a day before the next game - clanks of plates, low grunts, and the dull thud of medicine balls against the far wall. Lights buzzed overhead, bright but not clinical. Music thumped from a corner speaker, rhythmic and bass-heavy, but muffled by the girls chatting.
You were framing a shot, trying something different seeing as the weight room gave you different possibilities than the practice court, crouching to capture JJâs silhouette as she lifted. None of you heard the door creak open, no one paid him any mind as he made his way through the room.
âHey Babe.â
Jared. He was too close, you could feel his breath in your ear, uncomfortably warm as it sent shivers down your spine.
When did he get here?
Once you could finally move you were able to turn around and face him. Jared stood just behind you, hands tucked into his hoodie pockets like he belonged there, like this was a casual drop-in. He even smiled, that crooked, boyish grin that used to make your knees weak and now just made your stomach turn.
The room had gone quiet. Not silent, the music was still going but the girls stopped chatting and subtly tried watching the interaction out of the corner of their eyes. Except Paige, who was full on staring at the train wreck directly in front of her.
âJared! Uh, hi! What are you doing here?â Your voice was tight, but quiet.
He looked around the room, ignoring the curious looks he got, âThis is where youâve been hiding all day?â He nodded towards your camera equipment in the corner, âSaw your little video earlier. On their Insta? Real artsy, baby.â What was supposed to be a petty compliment just sounded sarcastic instead.
âI, uh, thanks. But, uhm, you canât just walk into the team areas like this.â You had pulled him in closer by his arm, so close that your bodies nearly touched as you quietly tried to suggest that he should get lost.
âI tried calling.â He shrugged, stepping closer before he continued, voice sweet again, soft. âLook, I get it. Youâre busy. I just...â He scratched the back of his neck. âI donât want to make a scene. I just... kinda needed to talk for a sec.â
Your throat tightened as Paige watched you like a hawk.
âCanât it wait? Iâm working?â Your voices had gotten really quiet now, neither Jared or you noticed how one of the girls had stopped the music, now silencing the room to listen in as they pretended to workout, most of the other staff had already left.
âI wouldnât be here if it could.â His voice had turned quiet. Sharp. âI, uh⊠I just left my doctorâs office. They wouldnât run the test without the co-pay.â
Your stomach dropped. âWhat test?â
He shrugged like it didnât matter. âItâs probably nothing. Just chest stuff again. Tightness. They said I shouldâve come in sooner, but you know how it isâŠâ
Your face went cold.
âI didnât want to freak you out,â he added quickly. âI almost didnât say anything at all. But now Iâm sitting outside Walgreens trying to figure out how to cover the lab work, and I thought... if you could spot me, just one more timeâŠâ
You nodded, and when your hands didnât move fast enough, he reached for your purse like he always did. âIâll pay you back Friday,â he said, a little softer as he took out all the bills that were left. âYou know I always do.â
You didnât notice Paige until she was a few steps closer, towel slung over one shoulder, a water bottle in her hands. âEverything good?â she asked casually, but her eyes flicked between the two of you.
âAll good,â you said too fast, taking your purse back from his hands. âHe was just, just on his way out.â Jared offered a smile. âDidnât mean to interrupt. Sorry about that.â
He lingered a second longer than he needed to, brushing a hand over your shoulder. âYouâre still the best, you know that?â
Then he turned and left. You didnât even breathe until the door clicked behind him and he was finally, really gone from the space you had once felt safe in.
Paige was still watching you. âLab work?â
You looked down at your camera, fiddling with the lens cap. âHeâs been feeling off for a while now. Chest problems are scary, heâs been to a lot of Doctors for it.â
âAnd they donât take insurance?â You swallowed, your eyes desperately trying to avoid making eye contact with the blonde. âHe said they wouldnât run it without him paying up front.â
A long silence passed.
Then Paige said, without looking at you, âYou always pay when he says itâs urgent?â You didnât answer. Not really.
Just said, âItâs easier.â
â
The place wasnât even on google maps, one of those bars that looked like it might have once been a gas station or a tire shop. Squat brick, single red neon sign humming a half-lit âOPEN,â and windows so fogged over they might as well be painted black. Inside, the floor was sticky and the music was classic rock on shuffle.
It was perfect.
Maddy pushed the door open with her hip, DiJonai following close behind. âI swear to God,â she muttered, âif I get tetanus from the pool table, Iâm blaming you.â
âYou canât get tetanus from felt,â Arike deadpanned.
âThat sounds like a challenge," Maddy said.
Paige was the last to walk in of the small group that had decided to grab some cheap drinks and greasy food after a gruelling late film session. She hadnât even looked up until Maddy elbowed her in the ribs and nodded toward the bar.
And there you were.
Behind the counter. In a low cut black T-shirt and jeans, hair pulled into a messy ponytail. Your forehead was a little sweaty from the heat, or the pace, or both. You moved like someone who had done this a thousand times - pouring, swiping, dodging elbows and flirting with drunks just enough to earn better tips.
That top certainly helped for the tips as well.
For a while none of the girls said anything. Just stood there in stunned silence as they watched you shake off an uncomfortable customer.
âWait,â DiJonai blinked. âIs that sunshine? Like, our sunshine?â
âYup,â Paige said quietly as her eyes locked with yours. You didnât freeze, didnât drop anything, didnât run, but the smile you gave was practiced. Not fake, exactly. Just... careful.
âHey,â you said over the bar as they approached. âDidnât know you guys knew this place!â Your voice was loud over the loud music.
âWeâre versatile,â Lyss grinned. âAthletes by day, dive bar connoisseurs by night.â
You laughed, and it was real enough. âWhat can I get my favourite girls?â They placed their orders, teased you a little, tipped heavy despite your protests.
You stayed in motion, but Paige watched you closely. The way you rubbed your eyes between orders. The slight limp in your left leg. The silence between your words when you thought no one noticed. At one point, you ducked under the bar to grab a case of beer and came up too fast, smacking your shoulder on the counter. You didnât even wince. Just kept moving.
The team stayed for maybe an hour. They didnât push. Didnât ask why you were working a second job, or why you never mentioned it, or why you looked like you hadnât slept in days. They just let it be.
But Paige didnât leave. Of course she didnât.Â
The other girls had eventually paid (and tipped even more, ignoring your refusal) and left, laughing about their sore stomachs and how they would regret the bad pizza tomorrow. Paige stayed, told them sheâd uber home in a bit and no one questioned it - because they all knew.
DiJonai patted her arm with a smirk whispering a âGet our girl home in one piece, will you?â in the rookie's ear before filling out.
At first you didnât notice her lingering gaze, too focused on the new barback who stocked the cooler wrong, and a regular who tried to play Journey for the 3rd time on the jukebox. But when you glanced up from drying a pint glass, she was still there, alone at the end of the bar, half-finished drink in hand, eyes on you like sheâd never really stopped watching.
The crowd started thinning out now, just a few stragglers playing darts and a couple on their third round of something brown and bitter while staring into each others souls. It was the kind of hour where everything slowed down, the volume dropped just enough to hear your own thoughts. Which was worse most days.
You walked over and leaned on the bar. âStill here, huh?â
She raised a brow, her eyes challenging you. âYouâre surprised?â All you did was shrug. âMost people donât find this place worth staying.â Paige tilted her head with that annoying, cocky smirk. âIâm not most people.â
You huffed a tired laugh. âSo Iâve heard.â
It was quiet between the two of you for a second as she watched you fiddle with your hair, annoyed by the loose strands. âYour eyes were too sharp for someone that tired. This wasnât new.â
Then, quietly she asked, âHow often are you here?â
You leaned back, wiped your hands on a rag that had long lost its purpose, way too stained to really be any use. âDepends. Weekends are the worst. But I fill in when someone flakes.â
âAnd after media days? Practices?â
You gave her a smile, soft and vaguely apologetic. âTurns out passion projects donât cover rent.â Paige didnât laugh at your weak attempt at a joke. She just looked down at her drink, then back up at you.
âYou couldâve said something.â
Before you could answer, your manager called from the back office, saving you (because really, what were you supposed to say?). âClosing time! Youâre good to clock out.â
You gave Paige a quiet look and gestured toward the front door. âWait by the door? Itâs quieter there. Iâll walk with you.â
-
Ten minutes later you came out with a hoodie pulled on. Paigeâs hoodie. Backpack on one shoulder, your camera bag slung over the other. The rookie had to grin, you really didnât go anywhere without that bag, huh?
Paige stood near the dumpster, hands in her pockets. When you reached her, she noticed the envelope in your hand: plain white, thick.
You didnât try to hide it.
Instead, you peeled it open, quickly counting bills with practised ease. You shoved a few twenties into your worn wallet, then glanced around before lifting the false bottom of your camera bag and slipping the rest inside.
When you looked up again, Paige wasnât staring. She was just... waiting.
Patient. Steady. Like she always was.
âItâs not what it looks like,â you said, even though you both knew it was. She let you grasp at your excuses before she gave a small nod. âIs it enough?â
That caught you off guard.âWhat?â
âThe cash. The extra hours. All of it. Is it enough?â
You paused, still stunned by the question. âIt has to be. Iâm getting there.â
She let the silence settle between you, âYou always take care of everyone else.â
You tried to make it a joke. âBad habit.â
âYeah,â Paige said softly. âBut who takes care of you?â
You didnât hesitate to say âI doâ but your voice was shaky. Sometimes yourself just wasnât enough. But thatâs all you had.
You just looked at her, like really looked at the blonde, and for the first time in a while, you felt the weight of someone holding your gaze, not demanding anything from you, not draining you.
Just... being there and seeing you.Â
âCome on. Iâm getting us an uber.â There was no room to protest, so you accepted with a small smile and thankful nod.
â
The Laundry room was brightly lit by those annoying buzzing tube lights that keep flickering like in a bad horror movie. A window was cracked near the ceiling and let in stale air and the sound of distant traffic, but not much else.
Your back already started hurting after the first load of laundry, now at the third it was even worse. Why is this damn table so low?? Your hoodie sleeves were pushed to your elbows, fingers numb and stiff from folding the third load of team jerseys on that way too low table. Your camera bag sat nearby on a stool, always close. Your phone buzzed again.Â
You didnât check it.
Well not on purpose but you still saw the messages pop up.
[3 texts from: Jared]
†Just remember who helped you get in.
†Youâd be nowhere without me.
†Youâre welcome, by the way.
The screen dimmed. You exhaled slowly through your nose and turned back to the pile of laundry. Towels. Practice shirts. Warmups. More to do. Always more, just like at home the laundry was never ending.
âJesus, Sunshine.â You hadnât heard her come in, so to no one's surprise you flinched so hard that the stack of freshly folded towels was knocked over again.
Once your head snapped up you could see the blonde leaning in the doorway, still in sweats and damp hair from a post-practice shower. A protein shake in one hand, towel slung over her shoulder. Her expression shifted the moment she saw you: confusion, then concern.
âItâs so late already, what are you still doing here?â
You tried for a joke. It barely made it to your lips. âLook whoâs talking. Youâre still here too.â
She didnât laugh. Or react at all, except for a raised brow that you knew meant she wasnât in the mood, so you gave your real reason up. âCouldnât sleep.â
That made Paige smirk, much to your enjoyment. âSo you decided to cosplay as laundry staff?â
You laughed softly. âSomeoneâs gotta do it. Lord knows how many towels you guys go through in a single practice day.â
She looked around at the mess of fabric and unfolded towels. Then back to you as she stepped into the room.
âSit somewhere real.â
âWhat is that even..? Iâm sitting-â With an eye roll she ignored your protest before she pulled you up, âNot on a crate like a goblin. Come on,â and unzipped her jacket, shook it out, and spread it carefully across the folding table like a blanket, then patted it once.
âSit here.â
âYouâre joking.â
âDo I look like Iâm joking?â
No. No she didnât.
Realizing you wouldnât move on your own she dragged you down to her chosen place by your shoulders. The second your legs dangled off the table, Paige was already grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge. She handed it over (already opened of course) with a raised brow. âDrink.â
âIâm fine, I really donât need-â
âNot what I asked. Drink.â
You took the water. Drank. Because something in her voice and something in her eyes made it impossible not to.
She picked up your fallen stacks of towels and sorted them into the shelf where they belonged, before picking up the next basket and sitting it down on the floor next to the table and started folding. No comment. No lecture. Just calm, methodical movements. She made neat stacks. You watched, still clutching the water bottle with both hands like it was keeping you upright. And maybe it was.
She didnât ask questions. Just moved around you, efficient and silent.
It was strange. Not in a bad way. Just unfamiliar. Like watching someone speak a language you used to know but forgot to speak after not hearing it for so many years.
Eventually, she dug out a protein bar from her pocket and tossed it toward you without looking. You didnât catch it. Nope. It hit you straight in the face before falling in your lap - and even though Paige tried really hard not to laugh, she failed miserably as she giggled into her fist.Â
âStop pouting and eat. You didnât today.â
You looked at her, brows furrowed. âThatâs a bold assumption.â
âNot an assumption, I know itâs a fact. I notice things.â
Your chest tightened, painfully. You looked down at the bar in your lap, thumb running over the wrapper. You didnât move as your traitorous brain wandered.Â
To Jared.
To his messages. To his tired voice on the phone the other night, telling you his chest was tight again. That the doctors still didnât know what it was. That the stress was making him worse. That you working too much didnât help. That he needed rest, not drama. That he was doing his best, even without a job, even when you made it âso hard.â
He was always tired. Always hurting. Always needing you. Needing your money.
So you stayed. Paid the bills. Covered his medications. Told yourself it was temporary. That when he got better, things would change.
He wasnât cruel. Just sick.
And sick people lash out sometimes.
Right?
You hadnât even noticed Paige sit beside you until her voice broke your cruel thoughts, âYou still in there?â
âMhmm, where else would I be?â, you hummed and nudged her shoulder with yours.Â
âSomewhere happier, maybe?â
It was silent as you fiddled with the protein bar in your lap, before the blonde took it, opened it and held it to your mouth - refusing to take it away until you took a bite. The silence returned.
Your throat burned.
You looked down. âHe said I should be grateful.â
A pause.
âThat Iâd be nothing without him. That he puts up with a lot.â
The words were quiet. Flat. Like you were repeating something youâd memorized a long time ago.Paige didnât move. Didnât interrupt. Just listening, her eyes focused solely on you. âHeâs not well,â you added quickly, like it was a valid reason to be hurting all the time. âAlways at doctors. Canât work. Heâs just⊠dealing with a lot.â
Paige stared ahead for a long beat.Then: âThatâs not love.â
You exhaled, shaky. âHeâs honest. He says I make things hard.â
âNo,â she said. âIâm being honest. Heâs being cruel.â
You looked at her, startled by the bluntness, not harsh, just firm. Anchoring and honest, not cruel.
âSomeone who loves you doesnât make you earn kindness,â she said. âThey donât twist things so you feel lucky to be hurt.â
You looked away.
âI didnât think I was allowed to expect more.â
âYou are.â
Silence. Heavy.
Then, barely above a whisper:
âHow do you know?â
Paigeâs smile was soft and sure, not smug. Just true.
âBecause Iâve seen the way you take care of people. The way you show up. Thatâs what love looks like. And you deserve to be treated at least the same way.â
You blinked hard, eyes burning. Your shoulders curled slightly, not to hide, just to stay upright. Paige didnât touch you. She didnât need to.
She just kept folding.
â
You came home from a late night editing session at the Dallas Wings Staff rooms. It had been a good night, truly. Someone had ordered pizza and the whole evening was spent gossiping while trying to work. But something was off when you came home.
The apartment was quiet. Too quiet.
There was no music, and no TV that played some dumb show Jared was melting his brain with. The only thing you could hear was the buzz of hallway lights even through the shut door.Â
You shut the door behind you, softly, mindful of the other residents and the late hour. At the hallway bench you shrugged off the camera bags and clawed your way out of the damp hoodie from the walk home.Â
You were late. Not by much, maybe an hour, and you didnât have plans for the evening, but you were late nonetheless. It was just too fun, and the editing crew had lost the feeling of time.
Stepping into the cold living room, you froze in place. The lights were off, the only thing giving light was the dull blue glow of a laptop on Jared's lap, casting shadows across his face as he sat on the couch.
Wait.
That was your laptop. Open on his lap.
And that⊠that was your journal doc he was reading.
The heart in your chest stopped, at least you were pretty sure of it.Â
âHey,â he greeted, voice too calm. Not even on good days he was this calm. Jared didnât look up right away, he just kept scrolling through the document. Reading more and more of your thoughts.
Your legs turned to concrete, or fused with the ground. Either way, something rooted you in place. âWhat.. uhm, what are you doing?â
Now he looked at you.
Smiled.
The blue light from the laptop illuminated him from below. Making him look even scarier than he usually does.Â
âYouâve been real busy in here, huh?â
His voice was even as he tapped the side of his temple. You knew he meant busy in your head and the document he was reading. His voice was measured. No heat. That was worse.
âDidnât know I was such a fucking villain in your head.â
You opened your mouth. No sound came out.
He stood and you were still rooted in that same damn place.
âIâve marked some quotes I really liked,â held the laptop with one hand, and with the other, gestured like he was reading aloud on a stage âYou donât mind, do you? Iâll read them out to you.â
âI keep telling myself itâs not that bad, but I donât know what âbad enoughâ even looks like anymore.â
âI miss who I was before him, but I donât remember what she looked like.â
âHe doesnât hit me. Thatâs the bar Iâve been setting my worth to.. he doesnât hit me.â
After every sentence he read out loud he sent a pointed glance in your direction before finally snapping the laptop shut, the sound echoing through the dark living room.
âSo thatâs what weâre doing now?â he said, voice sharp, finally cracking. âYou run off and play house with those girls, and then come home and write about how abused you are? Is that it?â
âI.. I didnât mean..â
âNo, say it. Come on. Say it to my face. You think Iâm the fucking monster in your sad little Netflix drama?â
You shook your head quickly. Too quickly. âNo. No, Jared, itâs not like that. I was just, just writing. I didnât think youâd see it.â
âOf course not,â he spat. âBecause Iâm just the idiot you unload on when youâre not getting your ego stroked by Paige-fucking-Bueckers.â
Your breath caught.
He laughed.
âYou think she gives a shit about you? Youâre her project. Her pet. You think sheâs not saying the same shit about you behind your back?â
âStop.â Your voice cracked as tears started building in your eyes.
âOr what?â he said, stepping forward. âYou gonna run away? Call Paige? Have her come rescue you like a good little golden retriever?â
He was close now.
Too close.
And suddenly your body remembered every red flag youâd buried under guilt and excuses. Every apology that felt like pressure. Every âyou owe meâ that bled into your spine.Â
Your knees shook but you still managed to turn and walk out the door. Leaving him in the dark living room.
â
You couldnât remember much of the run there, not how you grabbed the keys or how you got into the rehab room of the Dallas Wings training facility. The lights were dim, just barely peeking in through the window of the hallway.
The phone barely had any battery left as you sat on the padded table, hands still shaking.Â
You already had opened her contact card. Paige. And you stared at it too long.
Not once had you called her first, never. Not even after those really hard days you just wanna cry about. Not even after Jaredâs last big blow-up. But now? It was different.
You were shivering, scared and there was no one else you could call that would just.. show up. So finally you pressed call.
It only took two rings for her to pick up, even at 1a.m.Â
âSunny?â
You didnât mean to start crying, you really didnât want to but it just happened. Her voice was calm, steady and a little tired.
âCan you come get me?â
You could hear rustling on the other side, a blanket being tossed aside, âWhere are you?â
âTraining facilities, like in the, uh, the rehab area.â
âIâm on my way. Donât move.â
She didnât ask anything else.
Didnât need to hearing your sniffles through the phone was enough to tell the blonde everything she needed. You sat there in the silence, breathing in short bursts, knuckles white around your phone.
And for the first time, you didnât feel ashamed of needing someone.
So you waited.
Curled into yourself on the therapy table, shaking like a leaf. Running through rain in only a shirt might not have been a good idea⊠Your phone vibrated once. Just a soft, meaningless hum, but you didnât check it, just stared at the ground and waited.
Until the door creaked open and then somehow, the room got even colder.
Jared.
âThere you are.â
You slid off the table, heart in your throat, feet stumbling backwards before you even realized you were moving.
âHow did you...â
âCome on, babe. This is your hideout? Thought youâd at least pick somewhere I hadnât seen before.â
âJared, leave.â
âNo. You donât get to run and then make me the villain I get to defend myself.â
He stepped forward. You stepped back.
âYouâve been whining in your journal about how sick I am. Poor you. Poor little girl carrying her broken man.â
He laughed. Cold and sharp like he always did. But this time it was even scarier.
âYou ever wonder why none of those doctors ever called you back? Why you never saw a single goddamn bill?â
You froze mid motion, arms up trying to build distance between you both.
âIâm not sick,â he said simply, smiling now. âNever was.â
The world slowed and time stopped.
âThen⊠what, uh, what..â You were speechless. It couldnât be.. Right? Surely this was just another really bad joke.
âYou were useful. You paid for shit. Got me stuff I couldnât get on my own. Covered rent while I took care of other things.â
Your throat closed. âWhat things?â
He tilted his head, cruel and casual. âCouple girls I was seeing needed help. Youâre not the only one who likes to take care of people. Iâm a real generous guy.â
That landed like a punch to the chest.
âYou- you used me,â you whispered, tears stinging in your eyes.
âCall it sponsorship,â he said. âMe and the girls like to call you my âscholarship fundâ.â
Just silence.
And then another voice. Low, flat, furious.
âGet. Out.â
It was Paige. You couldnât say for sure, but the look on her face made you think that sheâd been waiting outside the door for a bit, listening to what Jared had to say. Her voice was like stone as when she stepped into the room. Taking up the space between you and Jared.
You could see her body still trying to catch her breath, and she was a little sweaty. She ran here. For you.
âYou donât talk to her again. You donât come near her again.â
Jared gave her a look like he was bored already. âYou think sheâs gonna stay with you? You donât know her. She needs someone to fall apart on.â
âNo,â Paige said. âShe needs someone who wonât break her.â She took another step forward. âAnd you already did.â
For the first time (maybe ever), Jared didnât have a comeback.
He looked at you. Maybe expecting you to flinch. To cry. To chase him. But you only looked right back at him and said, âI donât feel sorry for you anymore.â
He left after that. Just turned and walked out. No apology. No second look.
And you stood there shaking, tired, cold, but breathing.
Then Paige was beside you.
She didnât speak right away. She just stood close, quiet, until you could bring yourself to look up and meet her eyes. She didnât look at you with pity, no this was admiration.
âIt wasnât your fault,â she whispered, cupping your face in her warm hands. âNone of it.â
You didnât know what to say.
âYou donât ever have to go back.â
This might have been the first time that you realized that she was right. You didnât have to go back. Not to him. Never.
â
The car ride was silent, not the uncomfortable âI donât know what to sayâ silence, just quiet. Tired. Paige hadnât asked questions, Just dragged you out to her car, pushed you down into the passenger seat and gave you a blanket from the back of her car.
When she finally pulled over into her apartment lot she glanced over at you. âYou good to come in?â
âYou sped there.â
You didnât really reply to her question but the blonde took you opening the door as answer enough. âI wouldnât say âspedâ just, in a slight hurry,â she winked at you, your camera bag in hand.
Paige led the way inside, everything was low-lit and calm. There were no overhead lights that blinded you, and the hallway didnât echo in that creepy way it did at your apartment complex. As she opened her own door a citrus-y smell wafted towards you, she must have let a candle on before she came.
She locked the door behind her and set your camera bag gently down on a chair by the door, and then asked, âHungry?â
You could only nod, too busy looking around.
âGood,â she said, already heading toward the kitchen. âSit. Shoes off. Youâre home now. For as long as you need.â
That last part hit harder than you expected. Home.
You sat at the edge of the couch while she pulled out pots and ingredients like she did this all the time. Not just for herself, but for people she wanted to keep warm and full and okay, friends and family.
âFair warning though, I am no master chef, but we wonât starve!â
Your phone buzzed again, even though you thought the battery had died when you were still at the training facility.
Your stomach dropped.
You didnât even have to look. You knew it was him. No one else messaged you, especially not at this time. Not after Jared convinced you to cut contact with your family over a year ago.
Paige glanced over from the stove.
âThat him?â
You nodded once, throat too tight. She walked over, hand out. âCan I?â
You didnât hesitate to hand it over. Jared asked for your phone all the time, to look through it. But the basketballer didnât read it. Didnât scold. Just silenced it, powered it down, and set it face-down on her kitchen counter before plugging it in.
âYou donât need to hear from him tonight. Or ever again, if you donât want to.â
You blinked quickly, looking away. âHeâs going to be so angry.â
âHe already is,â she said softly. âAnd itâs not your fault, and itâs also not your job to soothe that.â
You didnât reply. Just pulled your knees to your chest and let your eyes roam around her apartment.
It was warm, and well lit.. cozy. Shoes were stacked by the front door, sweaters thrown over the couch, shelves filled with random books, picture frames and trophies. A photo on the fridge, next to a note with a date on it âpasta night - 06/28 :)â. That was a team night.
âOkay, uhm, water is cooking, might still take a while. Bathroomâs down the hall, if you wanna shower. The door locks and I set out fresh towels and some clothes. We need to get you out of the wet ones.â
You were halfway to tears again, and she hadnât even done anything dramatic. Just kept giving you space. Kept choosing not to demand anything. And she kept being so incredibly nice.
You stood under the hot water until your skin went pink and you smelled like her body wash and expensive shampoo.
When you came back out she was sitting on the couch, two plates of food in front of her. She had also changed into a different hoodie, a dry one.
âFoodâs still warm, thereâs more in the kitchen if you want.â
You sat beside her, plate balanced on your lap, and took a bite.
It was the best thing youâd eaten in weeks. Not because of the recipe, because of the way it made your shoulders drop. She didnât say anything further, just started to dig in. Not a single comment about how you should watch your portion size, or if you really wanted to eat âall thatâ.
You glanced over at her.
Paige, who had taken your phone without making you feel helpless.
Paige, who gave you clothes, a bathroom, her bedroom if you wanted it.
Paige, who never made you beg.
Jared wouldâve sulked. Wouldâve asked why you werenât grateful. Wouldâve asked for something back and even more in return.
You looked down at your plate, swallowed hard, and whispered: âThank you.â
She didnât make it a thing. She just said, âYouâre safe now.â
â
Warm sunrays made their way through the window, gently waking you up in warmth. Gone was the grey sky and rainy clouds from the last couple of days. The bed was so comfortably and warm that you didnât even want to get up, but ultimately the small of eggs, bacon and toast managed to get you out of the bed.
Youâd slept.
Not fitfully. Not half-alert. Not with one ear trained for footsteps.
Just... slept.
When you finally sat up and stretched, the couch groaned softly beneath you. Your muscles ached in that gentle way that meant youâd actually rested. No buzzing phone. No tension in your neck or jaw.
Just peace.
You padded toward the kitchen, the hoodie sleeves dragging past your fingertips, hair a mess, mouth dry and eyes still sticky with sleep.
Paige was already at the stove, moving around in socks and some old basketball shorts, humming something low and tuneless. She glanced over her shoulder when you appeared in the doorway.
âMorning.â Her voice came out rough, low and a bit gravely, still laced with sleep.Â
âI think I died.â
That made her grin. âWas it peaceful?â
You rubbed your face with both hands, then dropped into the nearest chair. âMhmm.â
A minute later, she slid a plate in front of you: eggs, toast, something sweet on the side. Real food. A proper breakfast, not just a hurried protein bar like you usually had. She poured coffee into a second mug and set it gently in front of you.
You stared at the food for a beat before saying, âI thought you didnât like coffee.â
âI donât, but I know you love it.â
You snorted, but you could feel the heat rise to your cheeks, and just desperately hoped that the blonde didnât notice.
After a few bites, you glanced at her. âIâm not used to this,â you admitted. âBeing taken care of like this.â
She didnât flinch.
âWell,â she said, âget used to it. âCus Iâm not going anywhere.â
You ate in silence, just a couple of giggles at how much she disliked coffee at every grimace.
Eventually, your voice dropped to a whisper. âI had enough saved to leave for a long time. I couldâve moved out, gotten my own place, months ago.â
Paige didnât push. She just looked at you, steady and open. âWhy didnât you?â
Your gaze dropped to your plate. âBecause I was scared. Not of him... not really. Just of what it would mean if I left and he didnât even try to stop me. If he just let me go.â
You paused, shoulders curling in.
âI was scared of what that would say about me. That I gave so much to someone who never gave a damn back.â
Paigeâs voice was low, certain. Her eyes told you she was being honest and not just trying to comfort you.
âIt wouldnât say anything about you. It would say everything about him.â
You looked up.
She hadnât moved. Still steady. Still soft. Still here.
âYou stayed because you cared,â she continued. âBecause you loved him the way you wished he would love you back. That doesnât make you weak.â
Your chest tightened.
âIt made me feel stupid.â
âIt makes you human.â
Your eyes burned. You blinked fast and stared hard at your coffee.
âI donât know how to do this alone.â
She reached across the table. Not to take your hand, just to set hers down, palm up, close enough if you wanted it. âYouâre not alone,â she said. âNot anymore.â
You hesitated. Then slid your hand into hers.
Her fingers closed around yours. She was warm, steady, grounding. She always had been. And thatâs when it felt real. Like maybe you could actually begin again.
But this time not alone.
This was... something. Let me know what you think of this fic, it's a lot heavier then I usually write but I quite liked doing it.
Also, I have ideas for a fluffier part 2, where paige and reader like actually get together and shit
So you know princess and the frog can you do alastor meeting a y/n Lottie who was completely different then what he was expecting instead of being spoiled and rude she was spoiled but the sweetest person your ever meet and I feel like tiana would introduce alastor to Lottie since they were around the same time and I feel like lottie would fall first but alastor would fall harder from watching her and seeing how she's always there to help Tiana with her restaurant always happy to be there with her friend and her daddy (anyway thank you for listening and I really like your work)
Oh yes, please!
Iâm a total Disney girly â this was absolutely unavoidable. đ°đŠâš
It took me a whole week to write đ
Idk how many version I have...But this is the best.
I also wrote a poeam.
What do you guys do to me ? I have never written something, only in school. I love it!
As the princess of his heart I Alastor x Reader I Princess and the Frog AU
Tiana had already told Alastor about her several times.
âShe is⊠special,â the hardworking restaurant owner had said with a warm smile.
âY/N â everyone calls her N/N â is the daughter of Big Daddy La Bouff. You know, the richest man in all of New Orleans.â
Alastor, the charismatic radio host with the velvety voice, had rolled his eyes internally.
He knew the type â spoiled, rich princesses who thought the world revolved around them. Arrogant, superficial, probably unbearable.
âTiana, chĂšre, I donât know ifââ
âSheâs coming by this afternoon to help me,â Tiana interrupted him with a knowing grin. âJust stay for lunch. Please? I think you two will be⊠surprised.â
And so Alastor now sat at a small table in Tianaâs Palace, drinking coffee and waiting for the inevitable disappointment.
Then he heard her.
âTIANA!â
The door flew open, and a whirlwind in pink and white burst inside.
The girl â no, the young woman â shone like the sun itself, as if someone had poured liquid gold and summer mornings into human form.
Her dress was unmistakably expensive, perfectly tailored, adorned with pearls and lace that sparkled in the light like captured stars.
But it wasnât the dress that stole Alastorâs breath.
It was her smile.
Real. Radiant.
Her hair fell in soft waves over her shoulders, a few strands having come loose and framing her face.
Her cheeks were flushed, her eyes sparkled with pure, unfiltered joy for life.
Alastorâs heart did something strange.
It skipped a beat.
âN/N!â
Tiana came out of the kitchen and opened her arms.
Y/N â N/N â ran to her friend and hugged her tightly, as if they hadnât seen each other in years, even though it had probably only been days.
Alastor could hear her laughter â bright, melodic.
âI brought you the flowers you wanted! And Daddy says if you need â ANYTHING â I should just tell him!â
She clapped her hands excitedly, and Alastor noticed the small dimples appearing in her cheeks.
âOh, and I found a new recipe for beignets! Can we try it? Please, please, please?â
Tiana laughed.
âN/N, you have to breathe.â
âWho can breathe when itâs about food?â
N/N spun around â and then she saw Alastor.
Their eyes met.
The world held its breath.
Alastor felt it â that electric moment when two gazes meet and something irreversible happens.
Her eyes widened, her lips parted slightly in surprise.
âOh!â
Her hand flew to her chest.
âOh my goodness! Youâre Alastor! The radio host!â
And then she ran to his tableâ
âI listen to your show EVERY night!â
She stopped so close in front of him that he could smell her perfume â roses and something sweet.
âThe story last week about the street musician? I cried! I really cried! Daddy had to give me a handkerchief, and then another one, and then I just cried all over his jacket!â
Alastor stood up â automatically, his mother had taught him manners â and suddenly found himself far too close to her.
Close enough to see that her eyes werenât just one color, but a thousand â with golden flecks dancing in the light.
Close enough to count the freckles on her nose.
Close enough to be completely, hopelessly lost.
âMiss⊠La Bouff, I presume?â
His voice sounded rougher than intended.
âOh please, call me N/N!â
She beamed at him, and God, that smile should have been illegal.
âTiana has told me so much about you! She says you have the best humor and the most interesting views! Would you stay for lunch? Please? I would LOVE to hear more about your work!â
No trace of condescension.
No forced politeness.
Just⊠pure, unfiltered enthusiasm.
And then she touched his arm.
Just lightly, just for a moment, her fingers barely more than a whisper against his suit.
But Alastor felt it like a lightning strike, like fire racing through his veins.
âIâŠâ he blinked, tried to collect his thoughts, âyes, of course.â
âWonderful!â
N/N spun back to Tiana, and Alastor immediately missed her closeness, the warmth she radiated.
âThen letâs cook! What are we making today?â
âWE?â
Tiana raised an eyebrow, but her smile was knowing.
âNonsense! Itâs fun!â
N/N tied an apron around herself.
âBesides, friends help each other.â
Alastor sat back down.
His hands trembled slightly.
His heart refused to return to a normal rhythm.
What the hell had just happened?
The observation begins
In the following hours, Alastor observed something that overturned all his prejudices â and changed his heart in a way he didnât understand.
N/N â this rich, spoiled princess â stood in the kitchen and⊠worked.
Really worked.
Her perfectly manicured hands cut vegetables â a bit clumsily, but with such concentration that the tip of her tongue peeked out between her lips.
Alastor watched, fascinated, as she bit her lower lip when she focused.
How her eyes narrowed.
How a small crease appeared between her eyebrows.
âNo, no, sweetheart, like this,â Tiana gently corrected her cutting technique, taking N/Nâs hands in hers.
âOtherwise youâll cut your finger.â
âOh! Of course! Thank you, Tiana!â
N/N beamed â completely without ego, without shame for not knowing something.
She laughed at herself, bright and free.
âIâm hopeless in the kitchen, arenât I?â
âPractice makes perfect,â Tiana smiled.
âThen Iâll practice every day! Until I can cook just as well as you!â
N/N swore it with her hand raised, so serious, so determined, that Alastor had to smile.
She meant it.
She meant everything seriously.
Then the first guests arrived.
Alastor watched as N/N immediately jumped up.
âIâll help serve!â
âN/N, you really donât have toââ
But she was already gone, balancing plates â a bit wobbly, her tongue again between her lips in concentration â toward an elderly couple.
Alastor watched every movement.
How she brushed a stray strand of hair behind her ear.
How her hands held the plates â carefully, as if they were precious.
âGood afternoon! Welcome to Tianaâs Palace!â
Her smile was radiant, real.
She spoke to the woman as if she were an old friend.
No artificial politeness.
Just genuine, warm interest.
Alastor felt something tighten in his chest.
Something dangerous.
Something wonderful.
He watched as N/N went from table to table.
How she remembered names.
How she asked about children and grandchildren.
How she laughed at jokes â really laughed, threw her head back, placed her hand on her heart.
âThatâs Miss La Bouff?â one guest asked in disbelief.
âBig Daddyâs daughter?â
âSheâs helping here? Voluntarily?â
âSheâs so⊠nice. Really nice.â
Alastor had to agree with his instincts.
She was real.
In a world full of masks and lies and people pretending to be someone they werenât â she was real.
And thatâŠ
That was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen.
A Fatherâs Love
In the late afternoon, Big Daddy La Bouff himself stopped by â a large, imposing man in an expensive suit who nonetheless radiated a warmth that filled the entire room.
âN/N, baby! There you are!â
His voice boomed through the restaurant.
âDaddy!â
Alastor watched as N/Nâs entire face transformed.
How she glowed, brighter than the sun.
How she ran to her father and threw herself into his arms like a little girl.
Big Daddy caught her, spun her around, laughing deep and warm.
And Alastorâs heartâŠ
It ached for that love.
For that connection.
For someone who would look at him the way Big Daddy looked at his daughter â as if she were the most precious thing in the world.
Alastor noticed the flour stains on N/Nâs dress â a dress that probably cost more than he earned in a month.
The sweat on her forehead.
Her messy hair.
And how Big Daddy didnât seem to care at all.
He saw only his daughter.
Happy.
Laughing.
Alive.
âWorking hard again, sweetheart?â
He kissed her forehead, brushed a strand of hair from her face with such tenderness.
âIâm helping Tiana! Isnât it wonderful? We have twenty more guests today than last week!â
âThatâs my girl.â
Big Daddy looked at Tiana, his smile warm.
âTiana, my dear, if you need anythingââ
âI know, Big Daddy, thank you,â Tiana smiled.
Big Daddy noticed Alastor.
His eyes narrowed â not hostile, but assessing.
Weighing.
âAnd who is this young man?â
âOh! Daddy, this is Alastor! The radio host!â
N/N beamed, and her hand â her hand found Alastorâs arm, touched it as if it were the most natural thing in the world.
Alastorâs skin burned beneath her touch.
âAlastorâŠâ
Big Daddy studied him from head to toe.
Alastor felt seen through.
Analyzed.
Measured.
âI listen to your show. Good work, young man.â
He extended his hand.
Alastor shook it â impressed by the firmness of the grip, but also by the warmth in the manâs eyes.
âN/N, sweetheart, donât you want to come home? You look tired.â
âOh nonsense! Iâm full of energy!â
But then she yawned â small, sweet, her hand flying to her mouth.
Big Daddy laughed, deep and loving.
âCome on, my little whirlwind. Let Tiana rest.â
âButââ
âN/N,â
Tiana stepped up to her, hugged her tightly.
âYou were incredible today. Thank you. For everything.â
âThat goes without saying!â
N/N beamed, then turned to Alastor.
And her gaze met his with an intensity that stole his breath.
âIt was SO wonderful meeting you, Alastor.â
His name on her lips â like a caress, like music.
âWill you come back soon? Please?â
Her eyes were hopeful, anxious, expectant.
As if his answer mattered.
As if she cared.
âI⊠think so,â he said, his voice rougher than intended.
âWonderful!â
And then she smiled at him â radiant, happy â and Alastor felt his heart explode in his chest.
With one last wave, she spun away, her Daddy at her side.
Alastor stood there, staring at the door long after she had gone.
âSheâs something special, isnât she?â
Tianaâs voice was soft, knowing.
âShe isâŠâ
Alastor searched for words, found none that were enough.
ââŠnot what I expected.â
âN/N has a heart of gold. Her Daddy gave her everything â money, education, everything â but he also taught her that true beauty comes from within. That kindness matters more than wealth.â
Alastor couldnât speak.
His heart was too full.
The Invitation That Changed Everything
It was Thursday evening.
The restaurant was closed, the last guests had gone.
But Alastor, Tiana, and N/N were still sitting together at a table, eating leftover beignets.
N/N sat across from Alastor â so close that their knees almost touched.
Every time she moved, every time her leg brushed his â just for a second â Alastor felt electricity race through his veins.
âAlastor,â
N/N nervously turned her glass, her fingers tapping against it â a nervous tick Alastor had learned to recognize.
She always did it when she was unsure.
âI⊠I wanted to ask you something.â
His heart leapt.
âYes?â
His voice sounded calmer than he felt.
âThereâs a garden party at our house next week.â
She bit her lower lip â that damn gesture that drove him crazy every time.
âDaddy is inviting half the city â music, food, dancing, the whole⊠society.â
She said âsocietyâ with a faint undertone of disdain that made Alastor take notice.
âAnd IâŠâ
She looked up at him, and her eyes were full of hope and fear at the same time.
âWould you⊠come as my guest?â
The world seemed to stop.
Alastor heard his own heart pounding in his ears.
âNot as Daddyâs guest or as part of society,â she continued, her words coming faster, desperate.
âAs my guest. My personal guest. I would be very happy if you came. If you spent time with me.â
Tiana coughed not-so-subtly into her fist and stood up.
They were alone.
Alastor stared at N/N.
Her face was flushed, her hands trembling slightly around the glass.
âN/N,â
his voice was gentle, careful,
âdo you know what people will say? If they see you with me? A man like meââ
âA man like you?â
Her voice suddenly became firmer, more passionate.
She leaned forward.
âYou mean a talented, intelligent, kind man? A man who tells the most beautiful stories and makes people cry and laugh? A man who comes here every day, not because he has to, but because he wants to? A man who talks to Mrs. Henderson about her grandson even though he really doesnât have time? A man whoââ
ââof mixed heritage,â
he interrupted quietly.
âIn a society that doesnât⊠accept that.â
âDoes. Not. Matter.â
Each word emphasized.
She stood up and stepped toward him.
Stood in front of him, and he had to look up at her â and in that moment, she was majestic.
âAlastor, I donât care what people say. I have never cared what society thinks.â
Her hand â trembling â rested against his cheek.
Alastor stopped breathing.
âDaddy taught me that a personâs character is what matters. Not their money. Not their skin color. Not where they come from or who their parents were.â
Her thumb brushed over his cheekbone.
âAnd your character, Alastor⊠is beautiful. You are beautiful. Inside and out.â
âN/NâŠâ
his voice broke.
âPlease come.â
Her eyes shone.
âFor me. I want you there. I want to dance with you. I wantâŠâ
She faltered, blushed deeper.
âI want to spend time with you. Is that⊠is that too much to ask?â
How could he say no?
âYes.â
The word came out like a breath, barely audible.
âIâll come.â
Her smile could have lit up the entire city.
And then she threw herself into his arms.
Alastor caught her and for a moment, he held her.
Felt how perfectly she fit into his arms.
How her head fit exactly beneath his chin.
How her heart beat against his â fast, wild, in the same desperate rhythm.
âThank you,â she whispered against his chest.
When she pulled back, her cheeks were flushed, her eyes shining.
âI should go,â she said breathlessly.
âDaddyâs waiting. But Iâm looking forward to next week.â
âSo am I,â
Alastor said honestly.
She left the restaurant, and Alastor simply sat there, his heart racing, his hands trembling.
Tiana came back from the kitchen, grinning broadly.
âWell?â
âIâm an idiot,â
Alastor muttered.
âA lovestruck idiot,â
Tiana corrected.
And Alastor couldnât disagree.
The Garden Party â The Moment That Changed Everything
The La Bouff estate was⊠there were no words.
Hundreds of guests in elegant dresses and tailored suits. A jazz band played on a raised stageâthe music drifting through the warm night air. Tables overflowing with food, champagne in crystal glasses. Lanterns hung from the trees like captured stars, casting golden light over everything.
Alastor felt out of place.
His suit was goodâthe best he owned, the one he had specially cleaned for this evening.
âIsnât that the radio host? The⊠mixed one?â
âWhat is he doing here?â
âDid N/N really invite him? Big Daddy should step in.â
Alastor felt his jaw tighten. He should leave. This was a mistake. He didnât belong here. Heâ
Then he saw her.
And the entire world ceased to exist.
N/N stood on the veranda of the estate, surrounded by people, yet completely alone in his vision.
There were no words. No language ever created could describe her in that moment.
Her dress was like liquid gold, like captured sunlight. It clung to her curves, falling in soft waves to the floor. The neckline was tasteful, but it revealed enough of her neck, her shoulders, the curve of her chest that Alastorâs mouth went dry.
Her hair was pinned upâbut a few loose strands had escaped, framing her face, and all Alastor could think was: I want to bury my hands in it. I want to kiss her until neither of us can breathe.
But it wasnât the dress. Not the hair. Not the flawless, radiant beauty.
It was her face when her eyes found him.
The way it lit up. The way her entire being seemed to change. The way she glowedâjust for himâas if he were the only thing that existed among hundreds of people.
âAlastor!â
She came down the steps. Her dress swirled around her legs. Her heels clicked against the stone.
âYou came!â She reached him and, without hesitation, took his hands. Both of them. Held them tight. âOh, Iâm so happy! I was afraid you might change your mind, but youâre here!â
âI promised,â he said, his voice rough with emotion.
âYes.â Her smile was radiant, genuine, reaching her eyes. âYou did. And you keep your promises.â
âAlways.â
âAlastor,â she whispered, stepping closer, her voice meant only for him, âpeople are staringââ
âLet them stare.â He said it loudly enough for a few nearby people to hear. âIâm here with you. Why shouldnât they stare?â
N/Nâs eyes filled with tears. She laughedâbright, free. âCome. I want to show you the garden.â
She slipped her arm through his and led him away from the crowd. Deeper into the garden, where there were fewer lanterns, where they could be alone.
She showed him everything. The roses. The pond with the goldfish. The pavilion overgrown with jasmine, its scent filling the air.
Alastorâs heart skipped a beat.
She sat down on a bench beneath the pavilion. Moonlight filtered through the leaves, painting patterns across her face, her dress, making her look like something out of a fairy tale.
She was the most beautiful woman Alastor had ever seen.
âThis is where I first met Tiana,â she said softly, her eyes fixed on the pond. âWe were both five. She came with her mama, who cooked for us. And I was so lonely. Every child who played with me did it only because Daddy was rich. Because of the toys I had. Because of the sweets I could share.â
She smiledâwistful.
âBut Tiana⊠she looked at me and said, âDo you want to play tag with me?â Not âMiss La Bouffâ or âcan we use your dolls.â Justâdo you want to play.â A tear slid down her cheek, glistening in the moonlight. âShe became my best friend. My sister.â
âSheâs a good friend,â Alastor said gently, sitting beside her.
âThe best.â N/N looked at him, her eyes shining. âAnd she likes you, you know? She says you have a good heart.â
âDifferent,â he laughed bitterly. âThatâs a nice way of sayingââ
âWonderful.â She interrupted him, her hand finding his, weaving her fingers through his. âDifferent in a wonderful way. Alastor, why do you think so poorly of yourself?â
The question caught him off guard.
âIâŠâ He searched for words, found none that fit. âIâm not good, N/N. Iâve done thingsââ
âEveryone has done things.â She turned toward him, her knees touching his, her hand gripping his tighter. âEveryone has made mistakes. Regretted decisions.â
Her free hand lifted, touched his face.
âBut you are more than enough. You are wonderful, Alastor.â Her voice broke. âYou are kind. You tell stories that touch hearts. You see meâŠâ Tears now flowed freely down her cheeks, âYou see me. Not my money. Not my name. Just me. N/N.â
âHow could I not?â Alastor whispered, turning his face into her palm, pressing a gentle kiss there. Her skin was soft, warm. âYou are everything real in a world full of lies.â
âAlastorâŠâ His name, like a prayer.
She moved closerâso close he could feel her breath on his lips, sweet and warm.
âYou are something special,â Alastor whispered, his hands framing her face, wiping away her tears. âYou are the best thing I have ever seen. You are sunlight in human form.â
âThen kiss me,â she whispered, her eyes dropping to his lips. âPlease, Alastor. Here. Now. I donât want to wait anymore.â
âHere? Where everyone can see us?â
âI. Donât. Care.â Each word emphasized, passionate, desperate. âKiss me, Alastor. Show me that Iâm not the only one who feels this. Show me that youââ
He kissed her.
Pulled her to himânot gently, not carefully, but desperately, hungrily, as if she were air and he were drowning.
She tasted of champagne and sugar and something sweet, something undefinableâsomething that was only her. Her lips were soft, warm, perfect against his.
N/N moanedâa small, surprised sound that went straight into Alastorâs soulâand opened her mouth beneath his.
Alastorâs hands slid from her face to her back, pulling her closer until there was no space left between them. He could feel her heart against hisâwild, fast, beating in the same desperate rhythm.
When they finally pulled apartâboth breathlessâAlastor rested his forehead against hers.
âI love you,â N/N whispered. âI know itâs too soon, I know I should wait, but I canât lie. I love you, Alastor. With all my heart.â
âN/N⊠IâŠâ He took a deep breath, his hands trembling as they held her face.
He kissed her forehead.
âI love you, N/N. So much. So damn much it sometimes hurts to look at you. You are my first thought in the morning and my last before I sleep. You are in every story I tell. In every song I hear. You areââ He laughed, disbelieving, blissfully happy. âYou are everything.â
âThen never stop,â she whispered, kissing him again. âNever stop loving me.â
âNever,â he promised against her lips. âUntil my last breath. And beyond that. Forever, N/N. I love you forever.â
They kissed againâdeeper, more passionate.
The Radio Poem â The Night He Said Her Name
Two weeks later, Alastor sat in his radio studio. His hands trembled as he arranged the notes in front of him. He had made a decisionâone that would change everything.
âThirty seconds, Alastor,â his technician called.
Alastor nodded, took a deep breath. His hands were slick with sweat. His heart a wild animal in his chest.
The red light came on.
âGood evening, my dear listeners.â His voiceâprofessional, smooth, familiar. âThis is Alastor speaking, and youâre listening to WDSU, the heart of New Orleans.â
At the La Bouff estate, N/N sat in her room with Tiana. They had spent the evening together. The radio was onâN/N never missed his show.
âTonight,â Alastor continued, and his voice⊠changed. Became softer, more emotional, âI would like to share something personal with you.â
N/N froze, looking up at the radio. Her heart began to race.
âThere are moments in life when you meet someone who changes everything.â His voice was rough, full of feeling. âSomeone who shows you what it truly means to live. To love. To hope. For me⊠that someone is a young woman.â
âOh my God,â N/N whispered, her hand flying to her mouth.
âShe is the daughter of the richest man in New Orleans, yet she spends her days helping her best friend at the restaurant. She wears dresses that cost more than my monthly salary, yet she kneels in the dirt to help a crying child.â
Tears began to stream down N/Nâs cheeks.
âShe could have any man in this cityâanyone. Any rich, handsome, perfect man. But sheâŠâ his voice broke, âshe chose me.â
âAlastorâŠâ N/N sobbed softly.
âA radio host of mixed heritage. With a dark past. With an uncertain future. But she saw past all of that. She saw my heart. And she loved it anyway. Noânot anyway. She loved it.â
Tiana placed a hand on N/Nâs shoulder, tears shining in her own eyes.
His voice dropped to a whisperâintimate, as if he were speaking only to her.
âSo tonight I want to do something Iâve wanted to do for a long time. N/Nâand I know youâre listeningâthis is for you.â
He cleared his throat, and his voice became poetry:
N/N, my light in the darkness,
you came into my life like dawn after the storm.
With a smile that drives away shadows,
and a heart that does not fear even my scars.
For a long time, I believed I did not deserve love.
But you truly saw meâ
behind masks, fear, and guilt.
And you found something I myself believed I had lost.
You stand up for me without hesitation, without shame,
while I still often hide behind my microphone.
But today I borrow your courage
and say out loud what my heart has long known:
I love you, N/N La Bouff.
You are my home, my peace, my today and tomorrow.
Not because you are perfectâ
but because you are real.
I love your small gestures,
your laughter, your warmth,
the way you make the world brighter
without even realizing it.
And if you want meâ
with all my flaws and my pastâ
then meet me tonight
at Tianaâs restaurant.
Because I have a question.
The most important of my life.
Come to me.
And let me show you
how a man kneels
when he gives away his entire heartâ
forever.
Silence in the studio. Alastorâs hands trembled violently. His heart pounded so loudly he was sure it could be heard through the microphone.
âN/N,â he whispered, his voice breaking. âI love you. With every part of me. And I want to spend the rest of my life proving that to you every single day. Come to me. Please. Iâm waiting for you where it all began.â
At the La Bouff estate, N/N jumped to her feet, tears pouring endlessly down her face. She sobbed.
âGo!â Tiana cried, laughing and crying at the same time. âGo to him! Hurry!â
âBut IâIâmâI look terribleââ
âYou look beautiful!â Tiana shoved her toward the door. âGo! Heâs waiting!â
N/N ran. Her feet carried her through the garden, across the streets of New Orleans. Her hair came loose from its style, falling over her shoulders. Her simple house dress fluttered behind her.
People turned, stared.
But she didnât care.
She had to get to him.
Now. Immediately. Her heart wouldnât survive waiting.
The Proposal â Where It All Began
Alastor stood in front of Tianaâs Palace. The restaurant was closed.
His hands were slick with sweat. His heart a wild, desperate thing in his chest.
What if she didnât come? What if he had risked too much? What ifâ
âALASTOR!â
He turned around.
N/N was running down the street, her hair flying wildly behind her, tears glistening on her cheeks in the light of the streetlamps. She was the most beautiful, chaotic, wonderful sight he had ever seen.
She threw herself into his arms with such force that they nearly fell over. He caught her, spun her around, held her so tightly he was afraid he might break herâbut he couldnât let go.
âYou idiot!â she sobbed against his chest, her fists pounding playfully against him. âYou wonderful, romantic, impossible, perfect idiot! How could you say that on the radio? The entire city was listening! I cried! Iâm still crying!â
âIâm sorry, Iââ
âIt was the most beautiful thing Iâve ever heard!â She looked up at him, her face wet with tears but glowingâso glowing. âThe poemâAlastor, the poem wasâI canâtâI have no words!â
âThen you donât need any,â he whispered, wiping away her tears. âSay it to me again. To my face. Without a microphone. Just you and me.â
Alastor lifted his hands, framed her face, gently wiped away her tearsâbut new ones came.
âI love you, N/N La Bouff,â his voice was steady, clear, without doubt. âI love you so much that sometimes I forget to breathe. You are my everything. My morning. My reason. Myââ
âYes,â she interrupted him.
He blinked. âI havenât even asked yetââ
âYes!â She laughed through her tears, happy. âWhatever youâre about to ask, the answer is yes! Today, tomorrow, foreverâYES!â
âN/NâŠâ He laughed, disbelieving, overjoyed. âLet me at least do it properly.â
And he sank down onto one knee. Right there, on the sidewalk in front of Tianaâs Palace. Where it had all begun.
N/Nâs hands flew to her mouth. âOh God. Oh God, oh God, oh Godââ
âN/N La Bouff,â he began, pulling a small box from his jacket pocket. His hands were shaking so badly he could barely hold it. âIâm not rich. I canât offer you a life of luxury like your Daddy can. I have an uncertain future.â
He opened the box, revealing a simple silver ring with a small but perfectly cut diamond.
âBut I can give you my heart. My soul. Every breath. Every heartbeat. Every story I tellâit will be about you. Every moment of my life.â
His voice broke, tears burning in his own eyes now.
âI can promise to love you every day. To fight for you. To hold you when you cry and laugh with you when youâre happy. To hold your hand when weâre old and gray and still tell you stories. To wake up every morning and think: how did I get this lucky?â
Tears streamed endlessly down N/Nâs face. She sobbed, laughed, trembled.
âAlastorâŠâ his name was a sob, a caress, a prayer.
âN/N La Bouff, my light, my muse, my love, my everythingâwill you be my wife?â His voice broke completely. âWill you walk through this crazy, wonderful world with me, hand in hand, heart to heart, soul to soul? Will you let me love you every day of my life?â
âYes!â She dropped to her knees in front of him, her hands clutching his, the ring forgotten between them. âYes, yes, yes! A million times yes! Forever yes!â
His hands shook violently. But he slid it onâperfectly, when he placed it on her finger.
âI love you,â he whispered.
âI love you too,â she whispered back. âSo much.â
And then they kissedâboth on their knees on the sidewalk, beneath the star-filled sky of New Orleans, in front of the restaurant.
The kiss was long, deep, desperate. Full of promises and future. Full of a love so strong it overwhelmed them both. They both cried, both laughed, held onto each other as if the world would end if they let go.
When they finally pulled apart, both breathless, they heard something.
Applause. Cheers. Whistles.
They looked up. The street was full of peopleâneighbors, passersby. All clapping, cheering, crying.
And there, in the doorway of Tianaâs Palace, stood Tiana and Big Daddy La Bouffâboth crying, both glowing.
âThatâs my daughter!â Big Daddy shouted, his voice thick with emotion but full of pride. âThatâs my little N/N! And her future husband!â
N/N laughed, burying her face against Alastorâs shoulder.
âCome,â he whispered, helping her to her feet, âletâs go to them.â
Hand in hand, they walked toward Tiana and Big Daddy.
âDaddy,â N/N hugged her father tightly, sobbing into his chest, âhe proposed to me.â
âI know, baby. I was listening.â Big Daddy kissed her forehead, held her close.
He looked at Alastor, reached outânot for a handshake, but to pull him into an embrace.
âWelcome to the family, my son,â Big Daddy whispered, his voice choked. âYouâve made my daughter happy. Happier than Iâve ever seen her. Take care of her.â
âWith my life,â Alastor promised, his own voice breaking.
âI knew it,â Tiana said, grinning as she wiped away her tears. âI knew from the very first day that you two were meant for each other.â
âThank you,â N/N said, hugging her best friend tightly. âThank you for introducing us. Thank you for everything. Without you, we would neverââ
âNonsense,â Tiana smiled. âYou two would have found each other anyway. Some love is fate.â
Later That Night â Just the Two of Them
Hours later, Alastor and N/N sat alone on the steps of Tianaâs Palace. Big Daddy and Tiana had gone home, the crowd had dispersed.
âI still canât believe it,â N/N whispered, studying the ring on her finger. It sparkled in the moonlight. âWeâre getting married.â
âAlready regretting it?â Alastor teased, kissing her cheek.
âNever.â She turned toward him. âAlastor, I fell in love with you the moment I saw you for the first time. Here. At that table. You were drinking coffee and looked so lonely. And I thought: I want to make him smile.â
âMe too,â he admitted, brushing a strand of hair from her face. âWell, maybe not in the very first moment. But when I watched you helping everyone, the way you laughed, the way you simply⊠were. The way you spoke to everyone as if they mattered. The way you sang while cookingâterribly off-key, by the wayââ
âHey!â She punched him playfully.
ââbut so full of joy that my heart hurt. Thatâs when I knew.â
âYou fell harder than I did,â she observed, smiling knowingly.
âSo much harder, chĂšre.â He pulled her close, his head resting against hers. âYou fell into me like a summer rainâfast, sudden, wonderful. But I⊠I fell into you the way the Mississippi flows into the Gulf of Mexico. Slowly, a little more each day, unstoppable, eternal.â
âThat was very poetic,â she murmured.
âIâm a radio host. Words are my craft.â
âAnd stealing my heart?â
âThat,â he kissed her, soft and tender, âwas a happy accident.â
She cuddled closer, her head on his shoulder, his arms around her. They fit together like two puzzle piecesâperfect, as if they had been made for each other.
âAlastor?â
âHmm?â
âTell me a story. Our story. How it continues.â
He smiled, his voice slipping into the familiar, velvety rhythm of his radio show.
âThey were married in a small garden, surrounded by friends and family. Tiana was the maid of honor, glowing and crying at the same time. Big Daddy walked his daughter down the aisle with tears in his eyes and a pride in his chest so big it nearly burst.â
N/N sighed happily, snuggling closer.
âAnd when the priest said, âYou may kiss the bride,â the radio host kissed his wife as if it were the first and last time. As if she were air and he were drowning. As if she were everything.â
âAnd then?â N/N whispered, her eyes growing heavy.
âAnd then they lived in a small houseânot as big as the La Bouff estate, but big enough for two. Later for three, when a child came. A little girl with her eyes and his smile. Then another one. Then maybe another.â
âThree children?â she laughed softly.
âAt least. Maybe four.â He grinned. âAll with your good heart.â
âAnd then?â
âAnd then he loved her a little more every day. Every day he found new reasons to fall in love with her. The way she scrunched her nose when folding laundry. The way she spoke to their childrenâwith the same kindness she showed everyone. The way she grew older, lines forming around her eyes, gray in her hair, but still herself. Still laughing. Still loving.â
His voice grew softer, more emotional.
âAnd if one dayâin many, many yearsâone of them went, then the other would know: We had something real. Something that endured time. Something not even death could take away. Because true love never dies.â
N/N criedâquietly.
âThatâs a beautiful story,â she murmured, her eyes closing.
âItâs our story, chĂšre. And I canât wait to live it with you. Every day. Every moment.â
She fell asleep in his arms, right there on the steps, beneath the stars.
And Alastor? Alastor held her, kissed her hair, and thanked the universe for the day Tiana had asked him to stay. For the day a whirlwind in pink had burst into his life.
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A/N: Unironically I think Denji is just a yandere for toast.
You always knew Denji loved too hard.
Not in the romantic sense. It was the way he latched onto scraps of kindness like a starving mutt, the way his face lit up if you offered him food, or let him crash on your couch after a mission.Â
He had a hunger that went beyond his stomach, a gnawing emptiness you couldnât fill no matter how many late-night conversations or cheap dinners you offered him.
But tonight, you realized that hunger could turn on you.
âŠ
The Devil had been grotesque, a stitched-together thing of wires and eyes. It had slaughtered two rookie Hunters before you and Denji cornered it in a rain-slick alley.Â
Youâd done your duty, but it was Denji who ultimately tore it apart, chainsaws screaming, blood splattering the brick walls until the whole street looked painted in red.
When it was over, he didnât turn his saws off right away. He stood there panting, drenched head to toe, eyes glowing with adrenaline. Then he looked at you, and smiled.
âSee that?â he shouted over the rain. âThat was all for you.â
You stiffened. The way he said it, as if the now slaughtered Devil had been nothing but a bouquet heâd plucked for your amusement, made your stomach knot. The gratuity of it all was something you were never able to fully stomach.
âDenjiâŠâ You tried to keep your voice even. âWe should report in.â
But his smile faltered, twisting into something jagged. The saws retracted with a shuddering screech, leaving wet chains dripping from his arms.
He stalked toward you suddenly, steps splashing in bloody puddles. You backed up instinctively, hands raised.
âDonât,â he said, voice low now. âDonât say it like that. Like I was justâŠworking.â
You frowned. âWhat are you talking aboutâ?â
The chain shot out before you could finish, wrapping around your wrist with a sharp, wet clatter. You yelped, stumbling as it yanked you forward into his chest.
His eyes were wild. âYou donât get it, do you? I ainât fighting for them. I ainât fighting for money, or food, or none of that crap. Iâm fighting because youâre here.â His grip trembled, desperate. âAnd if you leaveâŠâ
You tried to pull free, but the chain dug deeper, biting your skin. He winced as if it hurt him too, but didnât loosen it. Even as it punctured your skin and drew fresh blood, he didnât let you go.
ââŠIf you leave,â he whispered, âI got nothing.â
You stared at him, rain running down both your faces. He looked half-insane. Bloody, trembling, eyes rimmed red, but behind all that was something worse. Sincerity.
âDenji, you donât mean thatââ
âI do!â His voice cracked. âYouâre all I got. YouâŠyouâre better than any dream I ever had. You look at me like I ainât garbage. Like I ainât just some dog waiting for scraps. If you goâŠâ His breathing hitched. âIâll die. I swear Iâll die.â
You froze. He wasnât bluffing. He believed it.
He leaned his forehead against yours, chains rattling as he drew you tighter. His smile was trembling, pitiful. âSo I canât let you go. Okay? Just stay. Stay with me, and Iâll make it worth it. Iâll kill a thousand Devils, Iâll rip the world apart if I gotta. Just donât leave.â
The bag of flesh in the alley twitched, the Devilâs dying nerves spasming, and Denji turned on it with a snarl so feral you barely recognized him. The saws roared out again, tearing the thing into pulp long past the point of death.Â
He didnât stop until nothing was left but steaming chunks sliding into the gutter. When he turned back to you, his chest heaving, the chains tightened like a leash between you.
You could see the toll in his shaking limbs, the glassy edge in his eyes. He was terrified. Not of any Devil he had to face, but of you, slipping from his grasp.
âPlease,â he murmured, voice raw. âDonât make me be alone again.â
You thought of Pochita. Of how Denji had given up everything once already just to keep a piece of love alive inside him. And you realized with horror that he wasnât bluffing when he said heâd die without you. Heâd make it true.
The chains slackened just slightly, enough for him to brush his hand against your cheek. He smiled softly this time, trembling, almost human.
âSee? Fits perfect,â he whispered. âLike you were made to stay right here. With me.â
And standing in the ruin of the alley, bound by blood and rain and steel, you understood the truth:
This wasnât a threat. It wasnât a joke.
This was Denjiâs love.
Messy. Bloody. Unbreakable.
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